“What do you know?” Sean eyed us all. “What do any of you know?”
He turned and stomped his way out the front door.
I saw Stevie sitting on the stairs in his pajamas, his dark eyes wide with interest.
“I’d hoped that would go better,” Jo said.
Virginia laid a comforting hand on her husband’s arm. “He doesn’t mean all that, Lane. He’s just upset.”
Lane stared down at the coffee cake, untouched, on his plate. When he lifted his face, I thought I saw something of the wrestler in him that I’d admired a long time ago. Only now he wasn’t dealing with an easy victory.
“I’m sorry,” he said to us.
Stevie left the stairs and tentatively approached the table, his eyes locked on the coffee cake. “Is that just for adults, or can a kid get lucky?”
It wasn’t funny, really, but it made us laugh.
Jo had a pretty good idea of where Jenny might have gone.
St. Agnes is an easy walk from our house. Father Ned Green, the young priest, opened the doors early every morning and encouraged his parishioners to drop in and start each day with quiet, personal prayer. Jo occasionally did that. Lately Jenny had taken to going with her, for reasons I now understood better.
She was in a pew near the back of the sanctuary. She wasn’t using the kneeler, just sitting and staring up at the stained glass above the cross on the altar. It was a sunny morning, and the glass was brilliant.
“Mind?” Jo said as she sat down beside Jenny.
Our daughter shrugged.
I sat behind them, leaned forward, and kissed the back of Jenny’s head. That morning we had the church to ourselves.
We sat together for a while without speaking.
“Sean doesn’t want the baby,” Jenny said.
“What about you?” Jo replied.
“I want to keep my baby.”
“Then that’s what you’ll do.”
She looked at Jo, then back at me. I saw so much child in her still, the little girl who loved to pet goats at the children’s zoo in Duluth, who cried when she read Little Women, who fell in love with a mating pair of Canada geese who’d wintered on Iron Lake and who she’d named Romeo and Juliet. But I saw, too, the woman she had become and the one she was still becoming.
“What about college?” she said. “All your dreams for me.”
Jo said, “We hope they were your dreams, too. Now you’ll have different dreams. They’ll include someone else, someone I guarantee you’ll love amazingly well. And it doesn’t mean college is out of the question.”
“I don’t want to get married.”
“Then you won’t.”
“People will talk.”
“Hell,” I threw in from behind, “you’re an O’Connor. They already do.”
“What about Sean?”
Jo put her arm around Jenny, two blond heads touching. “He’ll always be the father even if he isn’t a husband.”
“He doesn’t want to be a father.”
I thought about the story I’d heard from Meloux the night before. I wished Sean had loved Jenny as fiercely as Henry Meloux had loved Maria Lima. Different people, different times. Still, for Meloux, being a father mattered, even across decades of absence. Maybe someday the same would be true for Sean.
“Give him time,” I advised. “When he sees this baby, he may change his mind.”
“Or not,” Jo said. “In any case, you won’t raise this child alone, we promise.”
Up front, the priest came into the sanctuary from the door that led to the church office and classrooms. He saw us, nodded, but made no move in our direction.
Jenny said, “You guys mind if I talk to Father Ned?”
“Go ahead, sweetheart,” Jo said. “You want us with you?”
“No.” Then she managed a smile. “You always are.”
She stood up and left us.
I walked home with Jo. The morning was warm already, pointing toward a hot day. “We made it sound easier than it’s going to be,” I said.
“There’ll be plenty of time for her to come to terms with the hard stuff.”
I took her hand as we walked. “Know what the hardest part for me is?”
“What?”
“Lord in heaven, I’ll be married to a grandma.”
THIRTY-SIX
I picked Meloux up first. He had an old gym bag full of clothes and a few things for overnight. I didn’t know if Ernie had gone back to the old man’s cabin or simply loaned Henry what he might need. Walleye padded along beside him. Meloux sat up front. Walleye hopped in back and lay down on the seat.
“Get some sleep, Henry?”
“I rested,” the old man said.
“Stevie’s looking forward to taking care of Walleye again.”
“The boy needs a dog.”
“Don’t go there, Henry. I’ve already been through this with Jo.”
“Sometimes trying to talk sense to you, Corcoran O’Connor, is as useful as trying to talk a fart out of smelling.”
“Is this a subject we’re going to be stuck on the whole trip, Henry?”
“Stephen’s dog? Or farts?”
We left Ernie Champoux’s place, and Meloux stared out the window as we drove down the shoreline of Iron Lake. The road was thickly lined with trees, pines and poplars mostly. Pieces of broken sunlight slid off the windshield.
“We all need friends,” the old man finished. “I will say no more.”
“Stevie has friends.”
The old man looked at me, tired despite what he said about resting. “Are we going to be stuck on this subject the whole trip?” He settled back and closed his eyes.
Schanno was waiting for us on his front porch. He had a black nylon carry-on that appeared fully stuffed. He also had a zippered vinyl rifle bag.
“I brought my Marlin and scope,” he said as I opened the tailgate. He put the rifle inside, next to mine. “I didn’t know what we’d need.”
“I’m hoping we can do this smart enough not to need any firepower.”
“Are you carrying?”
“Brought my rifle, that’s all. You can’t take a handgun into Canada. To get the rifles across the border, we’ll have to convince them we’re coming up to hunt.” I watched him toss in his black bag. “You’re not carrying, are you?”
“Of course not.”
“Good. Getting to Wellington is going to be all the trouble we need.”
Schanno opened the back door. “Well, hey there, fella.” He ruffled Walleye’s fur and slid in beside the dog. “Morning, Henry.”
Schanno was damn near chipper, the most animated I’d seen him since Arietta’s death.
“Walleye going with us?” he asked, as if the idea of taking an old dog along was perfectly okay with him.
“We’re dropping him off at my place. Stevie’s going to take care of him for Henry.”
