24
When he awoke she was still in his bed, the white sheet pulled up to her chin, one long, golden leg protruding into the cool room and extending off the side of the mattress. Carver squinted against the brilliant morning light cascading through the crack between the drawn drapes and watched her sleep. Her eyes were closed lightly, the composition of her features calm. He remembered last night’s explosion of warm flesh and desperately seeking hands and tongues. How he’d lost himself in her. She didn’t seem like the same woman this morning, this long, evenly breathing image of calm.
Without opening her eyes she said, “I know you’re watching me, Carver.”
“How?”
“I can sense things like that. Being hunted gives that to you.”
He twisted his upper body and leaned sideways, making the bedsprings squeal, and kissed her on the lips.
When he drew back, she opened her eyes and stared at him, her dark pupils sparking with morning light. “Thanks, lover.”
He didn’t know what to say to such a simple and sincere expression of affection and appreciation. He was a little embarrassed and tried humor. “Last night means we gotta get married.” Lame.
“Can the bullshit, Carver.”
“Okay, canned.”
Mornings were something-mornings after certain nights before. He lay back and closed his eyes, listening. The air conditioner was humming away, but the swamp seemed very near, in the room with them, Insects screamed their perpetual frantic lament. Something grunted in the distance. A bullfrog was croaking nearby. Carver said, “Truly wild.”
She misunderstood, reaching a hand out from beneath the sheet and touching his arm. “No, you were gentle.”
He looked at her. “Last night was gentle?”
“Comparatively speaking.”
Carver thought about Roberto Gomez and liked him even less.
Beth slid both hands behind her head and lay staring up at the ceiling. “I had an uncle used to do a lotta fishing, Carver. He’d tell me that sometimes life was like a lake.”
“Deep,” Carver said.
She glanced over at him to see if he was trying to be funny again. He wasn’t sure himself. She said, “You fish in the Midwest and you learn something. In the spring, when the lakes thaw and warm up from the sun, the water in the bottom, below the frost line, has stayed warmer all winter and warms up even faster than the top half of the lake. The fire of summer’s stayed alive in it all those cold months. When it gets warm enough, it rises and the cooler water sinks. An inversion’s the technical term. The lake turns, as they say; bottom water on top, top water on the bottom, where it stays cooler all summer. That’s when the season’s really changed and the fishing gets good in the spring, soon as the lake turns. Well, sometimes people’s lives turn that same way. A kinda change brought on by a different season.”
“I’m not sure about that,” Carver said. “People aren’t lakes.”
“You don’t know till you fish.”
“People have control.” Then why did he feel guilty about betraying Edwina? And as worried as a high school kid after his first sexual experience?
She said, “I didn’t have control last night. You didn’t, either.”
“I wouldn’t argue.”
“Bet you wouldn’t.”
He shifted his weight on the bed. His lower leg accidentally touched hers. He left it there.
“Incidentally,” she said, “when Adam was born I had a tubal ligation; no way I can get pregnant again.”
Hmm. He scooted over to her. Kissed her on the lips, hard this time, using his tongue.
At first she didn’t respond. Then her long, lithe arms unwound from behind her head and wrapped around him. He heard the sheet rustling as she worked it off her body. She moaned and pressed the firm, eager length of herself against him. He lost control again.
After the initial rush of passion they made love very deliberately, savoring each other. When they were finished, Beth lay with her head resting sideways on Carver’s bare chest, as if listening to his heart. Her eyes were blank with passion spent. He’d given her the temporary escape she’d sought.
After a while she raised her face to his and kissed him, then swiveled her supple, dark body and stood up. Her thinness made her seem very tall. Even taller as she raised her arms and arched her back to stretch. She stood that way for a moment, arms out wide and hands dangling limply, a casual crucifixion.
She smiled down at him, then she bent at the waist, picked up her silk panties, and moved toward her room. As she walked away nude in the bright morning light, her lean, taut body writhed like dark flame.
Carver, breathless, said, “My God!”
She glanced back. “Huh?”
“Nothing.” He grinned at her.
She closed the connecting door, and five minutes later he heard her shower running.
Carver reached for his watch on the nightstand and angled it so its dial didn’t reflect light. Nine-thirty.
He sat up on the edge of the bed and pulled the phone to him. He couldn’t call Edwina at home; it was possible her line had been tapped by Gomez, or maybe even McGregor, trying to keep tabs on him. He direct-dialed the Quill Realty number.
Quill’s honey-voiced receptionist said Miss Talbot was in, asked who was calling, then told him just a minute and put him on hold. Muzak played, a neutered Rolling Stones number from the sixties. Moss had gathered.
The music stopped and Edwina’s voice said, “Fred?”
She sounded like a stranger. “Fred,” Carver confirmed.
“Where are you?”
“Can’t say.”
“Sure, I forgot.” Her voice was disinterested.
“I called to make sure you were all right.”
“You’re the one supposed to be in danger,” she said.
“Yeah, that’s true.”
“Fred?”
“Why do you keep saying that? Like you’re not sure it’s me?”
“I told Jack Lester I’d take the position in Hawaii, Fred.”
“Fred?”
“Christ, stop saying that!”
“Saying what?”
“My name.
“I’m sorry. But you understand my decision, don’t you?”
“I understand.” And he did, though not all of it. Maybe nobody ever really understood all of something like this.
“Gonna come with me?” she asked.
He didn’t hesitate. They both knew the answer. “No, I can’t.
“Why not?”
“A list of reasons. When do you leave?”
“Two weeks,” she said.
“I’ll see you before then.”
“When?”
“I don’t know for sure.”
