Mary couldn’t let it rest. “Because of what Fred did?”
“Guess so,” Angie said, still facing away from Mary. Her voice was flat and seemed to be coming from somewhere beyond the wall. “I really tried to forget it, but it kept gnawing on me. Kept a grip on my mind like a pit bull. Know what I mean?”
“I know.”
“So I gnawed back, at Fred. We got in a hell of an argument.”
“That’s happened before.”
“It was quieter this time, and it hurt more. I’m sure he’s been seeing that woman.”
“He gonna keep seeing her?”
“He says no.”
“Well, there you are.”
“Yeah, here I am with alcohol poisoning. At least that’s what they call it in this place.”
“You’re alive.”
“Am I? It don’t feel that way.” Her scrawny chest heaved and she exhaled loudly. “I don’t know if I can believe Fred. I can’t believe what men say. Nobody can, not even other men.”
For the first time Mary glanced around the room. It was the same drab green as the waiting room, only the paint was fresher. There was a black vinyl chair by the bed, and a nightstand with a green pitcher of water and a box of Kleenex on it. Near the head of the bed, a device for checking blood pressure was mounted on the wall, along with some sort of equipment with dials all over it. Mary suddenly noticed something was taped to Angie’s chest beneath her white hospital gown; a coiled black wire extended over the edge of the bed and was probably attached to the machine with the dials. Mary saw glowing digital numbers blinking over and over on the machine but had no idea what they signified.
“Who brought you here?” she asked.
“Guy named Jeffrey, or Jerome, or sump’n like that.”
“Hm. Where’d you meet Jeffrey or Jerome?”
“Place on Cherokee.”
“A bar?”
“Where’d you think I’d go to drink, a church?”
“Some of those bars on Cherokee are rough, Angie.”
“I was feeling rough. Like life had shit all over me. And know what? — It had.”
“Angie!”
“Anyways, Jeffrey or Jerome was a decent sort, and he sweet-talked me outa the dump and drove me here instead of to his place or my place.”
“You weren’t going to-”
“I’m an old woman, Mary. And don’t forget I’m your mother.”
“Yeah, I won’t. I can’t.”
Dr. Keshna pushed open the door, glanced pointedly at her wristwatch, then withdrew without speaking.
“I’ve gotta leave soon,” Mary said. “They wanna run some tests on you, keep you here overnight.”
Angie didn’t respond.
“You need anything?”
“Besides a drink?”
“C’mon, Angie. What about clothes?”
“I can’t much care right now, Mary, about anything. Can’t even cry. I’m sorry.”
Mary leaned over and kissed Angie’s cool forehead. “I’ll bring you some fresh clothes to wear home tomorrow morning, okay?”
“Sure, thanks.”
Mary started to walk to the door, then she paused and looked at Angie, who was still staring at the closed blinds masking the room’s one window. She hadn’t really looked at Mary since the first few seconds after Mary had walked into the room. Mary said, “Fred’s not worth what you did, Angie. Nobody is.”
Angie slowly swiveled her head to stare directly at her. “Just who the fuck is this talking to me?”
“It’s me. Mary. Your daughter.”
For an instant Angie looked terrified. “My daughter, all right. It’s in the genes.”
“What’s in the genes?”
The door opened again, allowing a draft from the hall. Mary assumed it was Dr. Keshna, but when she turned she saw a young blond nurse carrying flowers. “For you,” she said, smiling at Angie. “Where would you like them?”
“The windowsill,” Mary said, when Angie didn’t answer.
The nurse placed the flowers-azaleas, in a small pot wrapped in red tinfoil-on the sill, then bustled out. Her rubber-soled shoes squealed like mice on the tile floor.
“There’s a card,” Mary said. “Want me to read it?”
“I know who they’re from,” Angie said listlessly. “And I ain’t astounded he somehow found out I was here. He’s got his ways.”
Mary stepped over and turned the white card so she could read it. “ ‘Love, Fred.’ That’s all it says.”
Without emotion, Angie said, “Surprise, surprise.”
“Better’n nothing,” Mary said.
“That’s what I’m s’pose to think.”
“I’ll see you in the morning, Angie.”
“Mary?”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t take the bastard back. Don’t do the same stupid dance.”
“Let’s worry about you for a change,” Mary said.
“There’s a fresh bottle in the hall closet, behind the vacuum sweeper.”
“Why tell me?”
“Aren’t you gonna drive over to my apartment and clean it of anything with alcohol in it, like last time this happened?”
“That’s where I was going,” Mary admitted.
“Just trying to make it easier for you,” Angie said.
“Thanks.”
“Anyways, you’d’ve found that one right off.”
“Want me to feed Boris?”
“No, he’s a cat that makes out for hisself. Just leave the kitchen window open a crack so he can come and go as he pleases.”
Mary walked from the room. Dr. Keshna was far down the hall, coming toward her with tiny, mincing steps. As she passed, she nodded and smiled warmly, as if Mary were an old and dear friend, but she didn’t speak.
As Mary was leaving the hospital, she saw Fred slumped in one of the beige plastic chairs in the waiting room. He spotted her, dropped his Newsweek-the one with Gorbachev on the cover- and hurried over to stand nervously in front of her. “You seen Angie?”
He looked as if he’d dressed in a hurry, and his breath smelled like bourbon. Great.
“How’d you know she was here?” Mary asked.
“Buddy of mine name of Jerome brought her in. After he dropped her off, he realized who she was and gave me a call to let me know what happened.”
“They’re gonna run some tests,” Mary said, “then release her in the morning.”
“But how is she?”
“Not good.” Let the bastard worry.
“That nurse behind the desk don’t know elbow from asshole. She told me nobody could see Angie.”
“She’s right. That’s why I had to leave.”
“I can be here tomorrow morning to check her outa this place,” Fred said.
“I’ll do that,” Mary said. “She’s expecting me.”
