Peggy bent forward and placed the wig over her own hair. As she hurried down the hallway to the bathroom, her heart beat faster and faster. She flicked on the light switch and nodded in approval.
“Oh Ted,” she said as her eyes ran over her face in the mirror, “you really like it? I grew it out just for you.” She tilted her head and twirled a long strand. “Honestly, I don’t know what I was thinking wearing my hair so short before. This is so, so much more attractive, don’t you think?”
Peggy wasn’t sure who she’d get to take her picture. She didn’t have any real friends. There was always her mother. As much as she hated her, her mother could probably be put to use in some way. She owed her something.
That night in her dreams, Ted came to Peggy. He appeared out of the darkness next to her bed like some unbelievably handsome phantom. His eyes flashed a kind of wild sexiness that made her blush. It was as if he knew that he could do anything he wanted to her and she’d let him. She’d beg him. The window was open and Peggy reasoned that he’d come from somewhere outside. Ted was shirtless, in blue jeans and Nike running shoes. His brow, his tangle of brown hair, his chest were sticky with sweat.
“Ted?” she asked.
“Yes,” he said, studying her with a grin stretched across his face.
She sat up in the bed. “Where were you?” she asked.
“I was out running,” he said. She couldn’t quite determine if his tone was dismissive or angry, as if she dared to question him. She hadn’t meant it in an accusatory manner, just a question. And yet he seemed a little on edge, so she pushed harder.
“Where?” she asked, this time with more force. She wanted to know where she stood with Ted. Was she a lover? A confidante? Or just another groupie of a man who other girls swooned over? His dangerousness. His charm. His ability to weaken them at the knees. She was sure she was more than that, but she asked anyway.
Ted stood still by the open window as the air sucked right out of the room. “Nowhere, really,” he said. “Just out. Trying to sort things out.” When he looked away, a shard of light caught his cheek and Peggy noticed three parallel scratches ran from his temple to his jawline. Pinpricks of blood oozed from each scratch.
Panic and concern replaced Peggy’s omnipresent neediness. She wanted to be strong, but she knew that she could barely manage that when it came to Ted Bundy.
“You’re hurt, Ted. What happened?” She slid toward the edge of the bed, and beckoned for him to sit next to her. “Tell me, Ted.” She patted the mattress.
He didn’t even look at her before he started back toward the open window. She wondered a second if that was how he’d made his way into her bedroom.
“Not really hurt, Peg,” Ted said over his naked shoulder. “Just a scratch from running. Hit a damn branch.”
Peggy put her feet on the dust-bunny-littered wood plank floor and started to fumble in the darkness, clawing toward him, her handsome, elusive Ted.
“Let me help you,” she said, pleading as though her life depended on it.
Silence echoed in the bedroom.
“Let me take care of you,” she said. “Come to me. Don’t make me beg, but if you do, I will. I want you. Whatever it takes.”
Ted Bundy had a cold side. She knew it, though she’d never directly experienced it before. Not even in a dream. That changed when Ted came through her window. He actually glowered at her.
“Don’t need help from some stupid bitch,” he said, his voice a little soft, as if he was trying to mitigate the true meaning of his words. Yet there was no mistaking it. No matter how clever Ted was or wanted to be. It was still loud enough to hear.
Peggy’s chest tightened and tensed. She wasn’t sure of the meaning of Ted’s words, if he was directing them specifically at her or, she hoped, someone else.
“Theodore, what in the world are you saying?”
He turned toward her, his eyes dark and cold. A puff of warm air came from his mouth. “Kidding, Peg. Love you. Love your hair, too.” Then he winked.
She looked downward and touched her hair-the shimmery, silky Gabor wig. The Susan was fashioned of long dark tresses, parted in the center with the precision of a ruler. It was just what he loved.
He loved the way she looked.
When she turned to embrace and kiss him, Ted was gone. A breeze caused the curtain to flutter. Peggy got up and rushed toward the window, holding her wig in place.
“Theodore, come back! Don’t go to her! You only love me!”
“I can’t wait to show you what I bought, Mother,” Peggy said the next morning when she’d summoned the courage to model her latest purchase. Behind her back, she gripped the Gabor wig.
Donna Howell looked excited. “Did you get me my favorite chocolates? Almond Roca, you know. Tacoma’s finest and famous candy.”
Peggy shook her head. “No, Mother, not Almond Roca. Next time, I promise. But this is even better.”
“Nothing’s better than chocolate,” the older woman said, a cigarette dangling from her thin lips. “Except maybe sex, but it’s been a while since I’ve had either.”
“Close your eyes, please,” Peggy said. “No fair peeking, either.”
“Good God, Peggy, will you grow up and quit playing games?” Donna closed her eyes and expelled a lung-full of smoke, and it joined the cloud of yellow and white that circled over her like a swarm of wasps. She loved Almond Roca and the pretty pink tins that the candy came in.
“You can open them now,” Peggy said.
Donna looked at her daughter. She immediately had a disgusted look on her face. “What in the world have you got on your head now?”
“Mother, it’s a wig. Long hair is very, very in, and you know mine takes forever to grow out.”
“You look like some kind of a slut with that kind of long hair. Cheap. Like a dime-store floozy.”
Peggy felt her face grow warm, but she vowed that she wouldn’t argue with her mother. She didn’t have anyone else she could really turn to. She needed that favor.
“I’m not so sure about it, either.”
“I must be going deaf,” Donna said. “I thought I heard you agree with me.”
Peggy didn’t, but she hated fighting with her mother about everything. “I said I wasn’t sure. I looked in the mirror and I don’t think I like it as much as I had hoped I would. It’s a Gabor wig, you know.”
“The Green Acres actress?”
“Yes,” Peggy said, swinging her hair slightly as if to make it all the more real looking.
“Makes sense in a way. Like one of those wigs on Miss Piggy.”
“Mother!”
Donna shrugged and reached for her smokes. “You asked my opinion. You get what you ask for when it comes to me. No holds barred. That’s the kind of mother I am and always will be. No matter how stupid you are, I’ll never feel sorry for you. Your stupidity came from your father’s side.”
Peggy pulled a small Instamatic camera from her purse.
“Will you take my picture? I want to see what it looks like in a photograph. It’ll help me decide.”
“Waste of film,” Donna said.
“Please, Mother. I’ll go to the mall and get you those chocolates.”
Donna thought a moment. “I don’t know. I don’t know why I have to do something in order to get a gift from you. Doesn’t seem right. You always were an unbelievably selfish creature. Got that from your dad, too. Bad genes.”
Peggy ignored the poisoned words. As awful as her mother was just then, there were times when she was far, far worse.
“Please,” Peggy said. “I’ll get you a two-pound tin.”
Another drag on the cigarette followed by two streams of smoke out of her widening nostrils and then she held her hand out for the camera.
“You look wretched,” Donna said. “But I want the candy.”
