But to his father it was and always would be the literal truth. The Bible had been in the old man’s hand as he’d shooed his youngest son out of the door of the croft house. ‘Never dare to blacken our name!’ he’d called. And Alasdair reckoned he’d lived up to this through introducing himself as Dougall and almost never passing on a last name. He had been Dougall to the gay community in Glasgow, and he was Dougall here in Edinburgh. He liked the life he’d made for himself (there was never a dull night), and he’d only been kicked-in twice. He had his clubs and pubs, his bunch of friends and a wider circle of acquaintances. He was even beginning to think of writing to his parents. He would tell them, By the time my boss gets through with a body, believe me there isn’t very much left for Heaven to take.
He thought again of the plump young man who’d been gassed, and he laughed. He should have said something at the time, but hadn’t. Why not? Was it because he still had one foot in the closet? He’d been accused of it before, when he’d refused to wear a pink triangle on his lapel. Certainly, he wasn’t sure he wanted a policeman to know he was gay. And what would Dr Curt do? There was all sorts of homophobia about, an almost medieval fear of AIDS and its transmission. It wasn’t that he couldn’t live without the job, but he liked it well enough. He’d seen plenty of sheep and cattle slaughtered and quartered in his time on the island. This wasn’t so very different.
No, he would keep his secret to himself. He wouldn’t let on that he
Yes, he knew Eddie, knew him well enough to be sure of one thing. Whoever it was on the slab, it wasn’t the guy who’d shared chilli in Dougall’s bed.
Siobhan Clarke felt unnaturally calm and in control the rest of the day. She’d been given the day off from Operation Moneybags to get over the shock of her experience at the Heartbreak Cafe, but by late afternoon was itching to do something. So she drove out to Rory Kintoul’s house on the half-chance. It was a neat and quite recent council semi in a cul-de-sac. The front garden was the size of a beer-mat but probably more hygienic; she reckoned she could eat her dinner off the trimmed weed-less lawn without fear of food poisoning. She couldn’t even say that of the plates in most police canteens. One gate led her down the path, and another brought her to Kintoul’s front door. It was painted dark blue. Every fourth door in the street was dark blue. The others were plum-red, custard yellow, and battleship grey. Not exactly a riot of colour, but somehow in keeping with the pebbledash and tarmac. Some kids had chalked a complex hopscotch grid on the pavement and were now playing noisily. She’d smiled towards them, but they hadn’t looked up from their game. A dog barked in a back garden a few doors down, but otherwise the street was quiet.
She rang the doorbell and waited. Nobody, it seemed, was home. She thought of the phrase ‘gallus besom’ as she took the liberty of peering in through the front window. A living room stretched to the back of the house. The dog was barking louder now, and through the far window she caught sight of a figure. She opened the garden gate and turned right, running through the close separating Kintoul’s house from its neighbour. This led to the back gardens. Kintoul had left his kitchen door open so as not to make a noise. He had one leg over his neighbour’s fence, and was trying to shush the leashed mongrel.
‘Mr Kintoul!’ Siobhan called. When he looked up, she waved her hand. ‘Sitting on the fence, I see. How about the two of us going inside for a word?’
She wasn’t about to spare him any blushes. As he slouched towards her across the back green, she grinned. ‘Running away from the police, eh? What’ve you got to hide?’
‘Nuthin’.’
‘You should be careful,’ she warned. ‘A stunt like that could open those stitches in your side.’
‘Do you want everyone to hear? Get inside.’ He almost pushed her through the kitchen door. It was exactly the invitation Siobhan wanted.
Rebus got the call at six-fifteen and arranged the meeting for ten. At eight, Patience called him. He knew he wouldn’t sound right to her, would sound like his thoughts were elsewhere (which they were), but he wanted to keep her talking. He was filling the time till ten o’clock and didn’t want any of it left vacant. He might start to think about it otherwise, might change his mind.
Eventually, for want of other topics, he told Patience all about Michael (who was asleep in the box room). At last they were on the same wavelength. Patience suggested counselling, and was amazed no one at the hospital had mentioned the possibility. She would look into it and get back to Rebus. Meantime, he’d have to watch Michael didn’t go into clinical depression. The problem with those drugs was that they not only killed your fears, they could kill your emotions stone dead.
‘He was so lively when he moved in,’ Rebus said. ‘The students are wondering what the hell’s happened to him. I think they’re as worried as I am.’
Michael’s self-proclaimed ‘girlfriend’ had spent time trying to talk to him, coaxing him out to pubs and clubs. But Michael had fought against it, and she hadn’t shown her face for at least a day. One of the male students had approached Rebus in the kitchen and asked, in tones of deepest sympathy, if a bit of ‘blaw’ might help Mickey. Rebus had shaken his head. Christ, it might not be a bad idea, though.
But Patience was against it. ‘Mix the stuff he’s on with cannabis and God knows what sort of reaction you’d get: paranoia or a complete downer would be my guess.’
She was anti-drugs anyway, and not just the proscribed kinds. She knew that the easy way out for doctors was to fill out a form for the pharmacy. Valium, moggies, whatever it took. People all over Scotland, and especially the people who needed most help, were eating tablets like they were nourishment. And the doctors pointed to their workloads and said, What else can we do?
‘Want me to come over?’ she was asking now. It was a big step. Yes, Rebus wanted her to come over, but it was nearly nine.
‘No, but I appreciate the thought.’
‘Well, try not to leave him too long on his own. He’s sleeping to escape something he needs to confront.’
‘Bye, Patience.’ Rebus put down the phone and made ready to leave the flat.
Why had he chosen the waterfront at North Queensferry for the meeting? Well, wasn’t it obvious? He stood near the same but they’d taken Michael to, and he got cold. He’d arrived early, and Deek naturally was late. Rebus didn’t really mind. It gave him time to stare up at the rail bridge, wondering how it would feel to be lowered over the side at the dead of night. Screaming dumbly into your gag as they took the bag from your face. Looking all the way down. That’s where Rebus was now, though he was at sea level. He was looking all the way down.
‘Cold though, eh?’ Deek Torrance rubbed his hands together.
‘Thanks for setting me up the other night.’
‘Eh?’
‘ “Sailor for trade or rent”.’
‘Oh aye, that.’ Torrance grinned. ’ “King of the Road”. That’s not the way it goes, thoug…’
‘You’ve got it?’
Deek patted his coat pocket. He was jittery, with good cause. It wasn’t every day you sold an illegal firearm to a policeman.
‘Let’s see it, then.’
‘What? Out here?’
Rebus looked around. ‘There’s nobody here.’
Deek bit his lip, then resigned himself to lifting the handgun out of his pocket and placing it in John Rebus’s palm.
The thing was a lifeless weight, but comfortable to hold. Rebus placed it in his own capacious pocket. ‘Ammo?’
The bullets shook in their box like a baby’s toy. Rebus pocketed them too, then reached into the back pocket of his trousers for the cash. ‘Want to count it?’
Deek shook his head, then nodded across the road. ‘I’ll buy you a drink though, if you like.’
A drink sounded good to Rebus. ‘I’ll just get rid of this first.’ He unlocked his car and slipped the gun and ammo underneath the driver’s seat. He noticed he was trembling and a little dizzy as he stood back up. A drink would be good. He was hungry, too, but the thought of food made him want to boak. He looked again at the bridge.
