Before her senseless death, Luanne Dupries had made a mark. She had been well loved, and she’d be missed. Nate made her a silent apology, tapped her photograph respectfully, and headed for the bridge with his cell phone.
A host of messages dating back a few days-Sergeant Jen Brown making clear he’d better get his ass in to sign that paperwork, several reporters who had somehow gotten ahold of his number, a few friends inquiring about the news story on the bank robbery. He deleted them all and made the call.
Abara wasted no time. “The fuck happened?”
“It’s a conversation.”
“Ya think? A hospital raid like something outta Fallujah. Have you seen the news reports on this thing?”
“No, actually.”
“It’s a big deal. Comment from the mayor and police chief, the whole nine.”
“Can you connect it to Shevchenko?”
“Of course not. We pulled security footage. The shooter’s a guy who doesn’t even
Nate shot a breath at the cold sky. “So I’m off the hook.”
“Not quite, not yet, but things are tilting that direction. You still got a lot to answer for, but I’m working on it.”
“Is there an arrest warrant out on me?”
“No. You’re wanted for some serious fucking questioning, obviously, but that’s not even the main concern. We can’t have you guys running around out there with what Pavlo and his boys are willing to do. This thing’s quickly escalating. What if they catch you in a shopping mall?”
“We weren’t exactly planning a trip to Crate and Barrel-”
“You know what I mean. We need to keep you safe to keep the
The line disconnected. Nate stared at the phone. Then he went inside to update everyone on the semi-good news. Tidying up in the background, his father took it in quietly, murmuring the occasional mm-hmm, and Nate gleaned that Janie had brought him up to speed on the other fronts as well. When Nate laid out Abara’s plan, Janie and Cielle radiated a nervous hopefulness that scared him a little. It didn’t yet feel safe to believe that their lives could turn normal again. That they could find some shelter and protection from the chaos, find a way back inside the world they knew.
After, he went back out to the tiny zone of reception with his cell phone, sat on the edge of the bridge, and let his shoes dangle so the tips touched the stream. Casper stood beside him, smelling of wet dirt and musk, shifting his weight so he pressed heavily against Nate’s side. Nate put his arm around the muscular stock of the dog’s neck, across the twinning patches of lighter fur that the breeders called “angel wings.” Casper’s brow furrowed as he watched birds dart from tree to tree. After a time the wood creaked behind them.
“Quite a Greek tragedy you got on your hands,” his father said. “And the Lou Gehrig’s on top of it all.” With an old-man groan, he lowered himself beside Nate, Casper reluctantly yielding ground, and they stared at the changing leaves, the breeze brisk, the air impossibly clean. “You got life insurance? For Janie and Cielle?”
That was his dad-pragmatics first.
“Yeah,” Nate said. “As long as I don’t kill myself.”
“Was that a consideration?”
“Yes.”
His father nodded once, solemnly. “Dying’s rough. But so’s living wrong, I guess.”
Nate’s shoe touched the stream, froth rising around the toe. “I’ve done enough of that already.”
“As have I.”
The air tasted of pine, a pleasant kind of smokiness. “How can I thank you for this?”
His father chuckled a little, though Nate didn’t understand what he found amusing. “When your mom died, I was in no kind of shape. And I could tell that you just wanted to keep out of my way. But you couldn’t figure out how to do it. And I couldn’t figure out how to help you, help myself. It’s a terrible feeling, knowing you’re screwing up something so important and screwing it up anyway.”
Nate thought about stumbling into Cielle’s room in the clutch of a nightmare, blood streaming down his forehead. Janie crying in the bedroom while he’d listened through the thin bathroom door. So many ways he’d been frozen in place, well before the actual ice block.
“When I cleaned up later,” his father continued, “I figured I owed you. To repay the favor, keep out of
This was the most Nate could recall his father speaking at one go, and he wanted to honor it by resisting anything trite, placating, or untrue. He said, “Maybe this is the one good thing out of this.”
“What?”
“Sitting here together now.”
His father made a muffled noise at the back of his throat and nodded, a sad grin crinkling the skin at his temples. Side by side they watched the patterns of the stream form and dissolve, each froth-flecked curl spending its lifespan of a single instant before getting swept away under the bridge.
The cell phone rested on Nate’s thigh. Still nothing. He remained in the sole spot of reception on the bridge, a chained dog. But sitting with the scent of the pines and the rush of the stream, he didn’t mind. Janie brought him a blanket and a few cups of decaf, affecting a waitress’s demeanor, and he tipped her each time with a kiss. Now he closed his eyes and breathed the sharp air and waited for the damn text alert to chime.
On the porch swing, Cielle flipped through a magazine. Beside her, Jason enacted a comically fake yawn and stretch, landing his arm across her shoulders. She pushed at him. “Go a
The predictable squabble ensued, escalating until Jason harrumphed inside. Cielle noticed Nate on his perch at the bridge and rolled her eyes at him. He shrugged. Her boots clopped across the porch, and she walked heavily over, letting gravity tug at her shoulders. She slumped down next to him.
“Jay can be such a
“I thought it was
“What?”
“Nothing.” Then Nate was surprised to hear himself say, “He’s not so bad.”
Cielle tilted her head, incredulous. “You’re sticking up for
“I am just saying. You’ve always been so goddamned smart. So truthful. But you can use that to … you know, to bludgeon people.”
Her mouth stayed open in a stunned half smile. “Like Jason. Jason as in My Boyfriend Jason.”
“Yes. He’s not … terrible.”
“Hang on. Lemme get a tape recorder.”
“Listen, Cielle-”
She appealed to an imaginary onlooker. “Court stenographer? Can you read that back?”
“-it is possible to be
Finally she broke character: “You’re in no position to point fingers.”
“Sure I am.” He aimed his index finger at his chest. “Don’t be like me.” He risked a glance at her face. Sure enough, loosening into a grin. “I’m just saying, you deserve to have whatever you want.”
“But he can be so
“No shit he’s annoying. But he also has certain attributes which are … not altogether reprehensible.”
In his lap the cell phone rang. Nate opened the phone, set it to his ear.
Abara said, “My house, midnight. Texting you the address now,” and clicked off.
Nate slipped the phone into his pocket.
