hanger and staring at it. She was positive it was where her green dress had hung.
The dress that was definitely missing.
The dress she was sure she’d seen Deirdre wearing earlier that day.
33
That evening, Molly watched David as they ate a dinner of pizza and salad delivered from William’s Takeout over on Amsterdam. He seemed preoccupied, worried in a manner he wouldn’t share with her. When she tried to enter and understand his concern, he would deflect her with inane conversation about work, or friends they hadn’t seen for weeks and sometimes months. It occurred to her that they hadn’t seen many people or gone out much with each other since Deirdre had arrived in New York.
Molly waited until they’d had dinner and Michael was asleep before telling David about seeing Deirdre wearing her green dress.
He sat in the chair opposite the sofa and stared at her in a way that angered her. As if she’d become ill and had great bleeding sores on her face and he was too polite to mention them.
He obviously wasn’t going to say anything, so she would.
“Dammit! Stop looking at me like that! I’m sure she was wearing my dress.”
“But you told me you didn’t actually see her face.”
“I saw the rest of her. I saw my dress.”
Now he furrowed his brow in concern, adding a decade to his face. “Maybe you’re imagining things, Mol. You’ve been under a hell of a strain, you know.”
“I also know what I saw.”
She realized she was becoming more convinced as she spoke that the woman had been Deirdre; she was digging a foxhole in the face of David’s disbelief and patronizing patter. Well, maybe she was being defensive, but that didn’t alter what she’d seen this morning.
He smiled and looked curious as well as concerned. Infuriating.
“Why would Deirdre wear one of your dresses?” he asked.
“Why would she wear my perfume?” Molly said in exasperation.
“Anyone can buy any kind of perfume, Mol.”
Molly stood up from the sofa. It made her feel better to be looking down at him. “Do
He turned his hands palms up. “I don’t know. Maybe you forgot it at the cleaners.”
“Come off it, David. I’d know if it was at the cleaners. I always put the receipts from the cleaners in the same place, under a magnet on the side of the refrigerator, so I remember to pick up whatever’s there. There are no receipts. Right now we have nothing at the cleaners.”
“So maybe you misplaced the receipt. Or it somehow slipped out from under the magnet and fell beneath the refrigerator.”
Molly shook her head no. “I had a dress, David. Now I’ve got a hanger.”
He let his hands float up and then dropped them down on the chair arms. “Well, I don’t have an explanation, but the dress will turn up.”
“Bullshit, David.”
Instead of getting angry with her, he stood up from the chair and walked over to her. He hugged her, but she merely stood with her arms at her sides.
After a brief, final squeeze, he released her and stepped back. He was looking straight into her eyes. He’d been doing a lot of that lately, when the situation called for it. Heart-to-heart time.
“I don’t believe you’re a mental case,” he assured her. “But I do have a suggestion. I have a friend named Herb Mindle. A doctor.”
It took Molly a second to realize what he meant. She was incredulous that he would suggest such a thing.
“A shrink?”
David pursed his lips in disapproval of her denigrating a noble profession. Looking pained, he drew his glasses from his pocket and put them on, as if to read her more clearly.
“You could talk to him, Mol. Maybe get something to help you through…whatever it is you’re going through.”
“Oh, really?” She almost actually sneered.
He acted as if he hadn’t noticed the sarcastic quality in her voice. “I mean, with Bernice’s death, everything else that’s happened, what could it hurt if you went and saw the man? He’s got a reputation as a superb analyst.”
Molly had nothing against the art of analysis, but she certainly didn’t think she was in need of it. “No, David,” she said patiently, “I’m not going to a psychiatrist. It isn’t necessary.”
“You can’t be the best judge of that, Mol.”
“But I can be the only judge.”
He pursed his lips again, then parted them and blew out air. She knew it was his way of showing disapproval along with his resignation. She was being unreasonable, he was telling her. “Okay, then. No it is.”
“We won’t talk about it again,” she said, driving home the finality of her decision.
She went back to the sofa but didn’t sit down. Instead she picked up the folded
Time to steer the conversation down another road.
“I don’t like the way things have been going lately,” she said.
“No one does,” David replied.
She sat down in a corner of the sofa. “I meant with my work. Traci called about the architectural manuscript. The author’s going to make trouble.”
“Some of them do,” David said. “He’s probably relying on the fact that he knows more about architecture than do you or Traci.”
“That’s the problem. He’s an architect and not a writer. Everybody in this goddamned world is trying to be something or someone else.”
He smiled. “Oh, I’ve noticed.” He walked over and sat down a cushion away from her. “I do have some good news for you, Mol. The company that manages this building says we can move to another apartment it manages a few blocks from here without violating the terms of our lease. We have our choice of two. You can look at them tomorrow while I’m at work.”
“That’s great,” Molly said. And she meant it. Here was a significant first step in the journey away from Deirdre. “But what makes you so hot to move all of a sudden?” she asked. “You were resisting the idea before as if I’d suggested a vasectomy.”
“Was I? Well, I thought about it and came to the conclusion you were right. It’d be better for all of us if we got out of this building.”
Molly wondered if his “all of us” included Deirdre, but she decided not to ask. Instead she moved over to him and kissed his cheek.
“You said the right thing, David. That does more for me than Doctor whatever-his-name-is could possibly do.”
He patted her hand. “I thought you’d feel that way about it. I’m glad.”
When he stood up, she reached for the remote control that sat on one of the sofa arms, aimed it at the TV, and pressed the bright red power button.
At the soft electronic pop the TV made when it came on, he turned suddenly. “What are you doing?”
Molly was puzzled by his reaction. And by something in his voice.
