was the tool of someone’s else’s ambition.
All he was going to face tonight was the cold, unredemptive shining of his own madness. His own
And yet…
Lol walked away over the rise and followed a slow arc back towards the open barn, went down on his knees as he approached it, patting the grass in search of his phone.
And yet he understood. He understood the desperation of Elgar who had done it before, made art, and was afraid – as you always were, every time – that you were never going to be able to do it again, that your best had gone.
And he knew that what Elgar was drawing from the landscape was not – like his contemporary, Vaughan Williams – inspiration from an English rural tradition, because Elgar’s style was influenced more by German music … Wagner.
No, this was about pure, electrical energy. Energy was what Elgar, with his daily walking and his fifty-mile bike rides, was all about. What
What happened when the trees stopped singing? Or, in Loste’s case, never had sung much. How far would you go?
Lol looked into the sky where strange white lights were kindling pale sparks in the springing antennae of the ancient oak. He imagined Tim Loste huddled like a goblin into its bole.
The difference was that Elgar had been a natural. He didn’t need photo blow-ups or three choirs singing
This was wrong. Lol, on all fours, felt his heart beating and discovered one hand was embedded in a patch of nettles.
It came out stinging like hell and holding the mobile phone.
Still switched on, and it still had battery life. Lol let out a long breath, stumbled to his feet and took it into the barn. Crouching in the hay, he found three messages, the last of which ended,
He’d started to call her back when he heard a voice.
Tim’s voice, conversational. If he was talking to God, it hadn’t taken long to break the ice.
Lol moved out of the barn, up the rise. He saw Tim, with roots humped around him like serpents and, across his knees, the leather-bound book open to the score of
The man sitting next to him handed him a hip flask and Tim drank.
60
Into the Pit
Merrily watched Preston Devereaux screw the top back on his hip flask and stow it inside his dark green overalls. She slipped back behind Syd Spicer, with no idea how to play this.
Looking at Lol coming up the rise and willing him not to move, not to speak. Looking across at Syd and realizing he had no idea how to react either.
Seeing Preston Devereaux coming slowly to his feet among the roots of the sacred oak. Tim Loste huddling into the tree.
Nobody spoke. Syd was watching Devereaux. The vapour trail of a plane you couldn’t hear was like a chalk scribble on the shiny sky.
It struck Merrily the chances were that none of them could be entirely sure what the others were doing here or how much each of them knew.
In which case, go for it.
She walked up to the base of the tree, put out a hand.
‘Mr Loste? My name’s Merrily. I’ve been trying to talk to you for days.’
Relief was amazing. At first it weakened you, and then it flung you back into life with an unexpected strength and a vividly heightened sense of reality. Suddenly, there was nothing you couldn’t handle.
Which was probably dangerous, but what the hell?
Tim Loste was on his feet now, his back to the bole of the oak. His hand felt like soft cheese.
Merrily glanced at Lol, gave him a half-smile, her eyebrows slightly raised, and then turned back to Tim.
He had Winnie’s blood all over him. She wondered if he’d even noticed it. Without Syd, the chances of him talking his way out of this one would have been remote. Annie Howe would have him charged by daybreak and a press release put out.
Merrily wondered how long the effects of Rohypnol lasted.
Wondered what was in Preston Devereaux’s hip flask.
How much of it Tim had drunk.
‘I’m sorry we had to meet like this, Mr Loste, but we heard you were coming to Whiteleafed Oak and Syd very kindly offered to show me the way.’ She looked up at Devereaux. ‘Of course, we didn’t expect…’
‘I like to walk,’ Devereaux said slowly, ‘when the tourists have gone home. Don’t get many nights like this, where you can see for miles.’
‘Syd said it’s … what did you call it?’
‘Noctilucence,’ Syd said. ‘Happens more often in … other countries I’ve spent time in.’
‘Quite an intimate place, really, the Malverns.’ Merrily looked at Lol. ‘I’d imagine it’s hard to go anywhere without running into people you know. Sorry, you are … ?’
‘Dan,’ Lol said. ‘I’m in Tim’s choir.’
Merrily nodded, chanced her arm again.
‘We thought Winnie might be here. Didn’t meet her on the way.’
‘We haven’t seen her,’ Lol said.
‘On your own, Preston?’ Syd walked across and stood with his back to the tree. ‘Only thought I saw one of the boys. Possibly Louis.’
He hadn’t, had he?
‘Yes, I’m on my own tonight, Syd. Nice to get away for a while.’
Merrily’s relief twisted into tension as she moved close to Lol.
‘Well,’ Devereaux said. ‘If you’ve come all this way to talk to Tim, Merrily, I should leave you to it. I don’t know what the subject of your discussion’s going to be, but if it’s what I think it is … well, you know my views. I’ll say goodnight to you.’
He walked away, Merrily whispering to Lol, ‘Did you get my—?’
‘Just.’
‘Does Loste know about Winnie?’
‘No.’
‘What’s he doing here on his own?’
‘Long story. Basically, he’s come to expose himself to the blinding light of God. Like Gerontius.
‘
‘Yeah, ’night, Preston,’ Syd called out. ‘Careful of the Gullet.’
Preston Devereaux walked no more than forty paces before he stopped and shrugged and turned back.
Four of them sitting on the ridged and knobbly earth at the edge of the sacrificial pit, like some surreal midnight picnic party. Tim Loste hadn’t moved from the oak. Syd Spicer was hunched between Devereaux and Merrily, his legs overhanging the hollow as if he was conducting a confirmation class at the front of his church.
He’d wanted this confrontation. Some payback for all those weeks without his family. Or something. Merrily was furious and anxious. If this was an example of the benefits of
