Two for Sorrow

fraternising in the foyer.’

‘So Miss Baker and Miss Peters talked?’

‘I assume so. I saw Miss Baker afterwards, waiting on one of the benches in the square.’

‘And she didn’t go anywhere else in the building or speak to anybody at the club?’

‘No.’

‘Was that the only time you saw her yesterday?’

She looked at him sharply. ‘Of course it was.’

Fallowfield nodded. ‘Just a couple more questions, then. Where were you last night, between nine o’clock and midnight?’

‘Here.’

‘And can your husband confirm that?’

She laughed suddenly, but Fallowfield could not tell whether it came from scorn or relief. ‘Ah, so that’s it. Was Miss Baker one of my husband’s indiscretions, Sergeant? Is that what this is about? Oh, don’t look so defensive. You men—you stick together through thick and thin, don’t you? Must be another legacy of the war, I suppose. Well, actually Lionel can confirm that—we were at home together all evening. We listened to the wireless, went to bed at around ten o’clock, and said approximately three words to each other all evening. So there you are—you have the alibi you came for.’ She seemed almost regretful about it, and Fallowfield had no doubt that she was telling the truth. ‘Anyway,’ she added, ‘Lionel isn’t a murderer—he doesn’t have the backbone for it.’

‘You must see a lot of comings and goings in your job, Mrs Bishop. In your opinion, is there anybody at the Cowdray Club who would have the backbone for it?’

‘Several people, I should think—although I can’t imagine that a seamstress fresh out of Holloway would inspire that sort of energy. Have you tried looking in the gutter, Sergeant? One of her prison friends, perhaps—you should talk to Lucy Peters.’

‘We will, Mrs Bishop. In the meantime, can you tell me exactly what Marjorie left at the club yesterday?’

‘A parcel full of material samples and two letters, both for Miss Bannerman.’

‘Two letters?’

‘Yes.’

‘Were the envelopes handwritten or typed?’

‘Both handwritten, but not by the same person; one was flamboyant and written in ink, the other was in pencil, with more ordinary lettering. But the envelopes were the same.’

‘So both envelopes came from Motley with the parcel?’

‘I assume so.’

‘Thank you, Mrs Bishop. You’ve been most helpful. I won’t keep you any longer.’

As she showed him to the door, he glanced into one of the other rooms off the hall which was obviously used by the Bishops on a regular basis. On the centre table, there was a typewriter and a stack of paper, but the door was closed too quickly for him to see more. ‘Looks like a nice machine,’ he said casually. ‘Do you have much correspondence?’

‘It’s my husband’s,’ she said quickly. ‘He uses it for work. Good day, Sergeant.’

Lucy sat at a corner table in the Oxford Street Lyons, and watched as a young woman lifted her baby out of its pram and settled it comfortably on her lap. For some reason, children seemed to be everywhere that Lucy went; sometimes she found herself following a mother with a baby, wondering if it was the little girl she had given up. Usually, she managed to convince herself that her behaviour was down to a natural desire to find out what had happened to her child; occasionally, though, she felt in her heart that knowing would not be enough: the only thing which would stem this inconsolable grief was to have the baby in her arms again.

It was strange, this constant longing for something which was initially so unwanted. The idea of being pregnant when the shame of prison was still so new had been too intense an emotional trauma to come to terms with immediately; she had hidden the knowledge for as long as possible, pretending to others and especially to herself that all was well. Denial was followed by fear. She knew nothing about having a baby and had nobody to ask, so threw herself into the heavy labour that prison demanded, hoping against hope that something might happen to release her from this trap. Ironically, it was her sense of isolation that changed the way she felt about her child: alone at the most destructive time of her life, Lucy began to rely on her baby as the only person who made her feel worthwhile, her only friend in a hostile world. By that time, it was too late: she had already agreed to adoption and set in motion a process which could not be reversed, and, as the pregnancy progressed, Lucy came to fear that her one legacy to the child would be her own sense of abandonment.

She drained the cup of tea that she had nursed for more than an hour, and tried to fight the pain which returned to haunt her whenever she thought about the weeks leading up to her confinement but, even eight months later, the memories were cruelly vivid. Expectant mothers were supposed to be moved to the hospital wing for the final month of their pregnancy but, when it came to Lucy’s time, there were no free beds and she had continued in her own cell, locked in night after night with no means of summoning help in an emergency except a temperamental bell. Her sense of panic grew at the thought that the baby might come while she was alone but, in the end, she almost wished it had: there was nothing joyful or familiar about the birth, and the staff treated her so brutally that they might have been conspiring with her baby to punish her for what she was about to do.

Afterwards, she was given twenty minutes with her daughter. She spent them trying to memorise the child’s features, wishing that people would stop talking so that she could take in everything about this small part of her which was about to be removed, angry at them for wasting her time. The emotions she felt were so new that it was impossible to know how to respond to them, but she remembered that her hands were like ice, and she had desperately tried to warm them so that her baby’s only memory of her would not be this cold, unfamiliar touch. Then she heard the door open, and knew that someone had arrived to separate them. She tried to ignore it, and moved over to the far side of the bed, turning her body to the wall to protect the child, but it was no good. For some ridiculous reason, she had tried to smile when they took her away, had made an effort to look nice, as if this moment could somehow be stamped on her baby’s consciousness as deeply as it was on hers. But she felt the scream start up inside her before the door closed, and it had never gone away.

The woman with the pram got up to go, and Lucy followed her out into the street. She walked a few paces behind, and then, as the mother paused in front of one of the sparkling Christmas window displays which were beginning to appear along Oxford Street, Lucy grabbed her opportunity. While the mother was distracted, she reached gently into the pram and pulled the blankets down to take a closer look at the baby’s face, but she had underestimated the other woman’s vigilance. She stared at Lucy in horror, and snatched the pram away; realising how this must look, and with no way of explaining that she just wanted to find her child, Lucy hurried off into the anonymity of Oxford Circus.

She slipped into the Cowdray Club through the Henrietta Place entrance, hoping to get down to the kitchens before anybody noticed she was late. ‘Lucy—wait a moment, please.’ Celia Bannerman was standing by the carved oval balcony which overlooked the lobby from the mezzanine level. ‘I’d like a word with you before you start work.’

Celia had thought long and hard about what to do when Lucy Peters returned from her afternoon off, and had decided that she was unwilling to let the girl face the police without some sort of gentle warning. She didn’t doubt that Lucy was behind the thefts at the club and she would have to be disciplined accordingly, but Celia had no intention of allowing it to get out of hand in light of what else had happened; Lucy was fragile at the best of times, and there was no telling what she would do if the news of Marjorie’s death were sprung on her by an unknown and unsympathetic police inspector. The reputation of the Cowdray Club was at stake, and containment was to be fought for at all costs.

She looked down at the girl’s anxious face through the oval well-opening and cut off her apologies for arriving back late. ‘Don’t worry about that,’ she said reassuringly. ‘Come upstairs with me for a moment—your evening duties can wait. I’ve told Mrs Lawrence that I’ll be needing you for a while.’

Lucy’s apprehension turned to suspicion, and Celia wondered what sort of impression she usually made on the girls if this was their reaction to a few words of kindness from her. She led the way up the back stairs to her own rooms on the third floor, and asked Lucy to sit down. The girl perched uncomfortably on the edge of the settee, and Celia tried not to be irritated by her timidity. ‘Now, Lucy—there are some serious matters that I need to speak to you about. I don’t want you to be alarmed, and I promise to take care of you, but it’s vital that you’re honest with