recently arrived. Even a complete inventory of the room could not have described it, for it was the juxtaposition of objects that made it remarkable. A feather fan, a fencing glove, and a bundle of cattails were all vased in a well worn boot. A small black terrier with two fat puppies slept in a basket lined with a fur hood and some woolen stockings. A family of carved ivory walruses perched on a tablet about horse shoeing. But the dominant elements were the plants. There were fat puffs of greenery overflowing clay pots, teacups and goblets and buckets of cuttings and cut flowers and greenery, vines spilling out of handleless mugs and cracked cups. Failures were evident in bare sticks poking up out of pots of earth. The plants perched and huddled together in every location that would catch morning or afternoon sun from the windows. The effect was like a garden spilling in the windows and growing up around the clutter in the room.
'He's probably hungry, too, isn't he, Lacey? I've heard that about boys. I think there's some cheese and biscuits on the stand by my bed. Fetch them for him, would you, dear?'
Lady Patience stood slightly more than arm's distance away from me as she spoke past me to her lady.
'I'm not hungry, really, thank you,' I blurted out before Lacey could lumber to her feet. 'I'm here because I was told to make myself available to you, in the mornings, for as long as you wanted me.'
That was a careful rephrasing. What King Shrewd had actually said to me was, 'Go to her chambers each morning, and do whatever it is she thinks you ought to be doing so she leaves me alone. And keep doing it until she is as weary of you as I am of her.' His bluntness had astounded me, for I had never seen him so beleaguered as that day. Verity came in the door of the chamber as I was scuttling out, and he, too, looked much the worse for wear. Both men spoke and moved as if suffering from too much wine the night before, and yet I had seen them both at table last night, and there had been a marked lack of either merriness or wine. Verity tousled my head as I went past him. 'More like his father every day,' he remarked to a scowling Regal behind him. Regal glared at me as he entered the King's chamber and loudly closed the door behind him.
So here I was, in my lady's chamber, and she was skirting about me and talking past me as if I were an animal that might suddenly strike out at her or soil the carpets. I could tell that it afforded Lacey much amusement.
'Yes. I already knew that, you see, because I was the one who had asked the King that you be sent here,' Lady Patience explained carefully to me.
'Yes, ma'am.' I shifted on my bit of seat space and tried to look intelligent and well mannered. Recalling the earlier times we had met, I could scarcely blame her for treating me like a dolt.
A silence fell. I looked around at things in the room. Lady Patience looked toward a window. Lacey sat and smirked to herself and pretended to be tatting lace.
'Oh. Here.' Swift as a diving hawk, Lady Patience stooped down and seized the black terrier pup by the scruff of the neck. He yelped in surprise, and his mother looked up in annoyance as Lady Patience thrust him into my arms. 'This one's for you. He's yours now. Every boy should have a pet.'
I caught the squirming puppy and managed to support his body before she let go of him. 'Or maybe you'd rather have a bird? I have a cage of finches in my bedchamber. You could have one of them, if you'd rather.'
'Uh, no. A puppy's fine. A puppy is wonderful.' The second half of the statement was made to the pup. My instinctive response to his high-pitched yi-yi-yi had been to quest out to him with calm. His mother had sensed my contact with him and approved. She settled back into her basket with the white pup with blithe unconcern. The puppy looked up at me and met my eyes directly. This, in my experience, was rather unusual. Most dogs avoided prolonged direct eye contact. But also unusual was his awareness. I knew from surreptitious experiments in the stable that most puppies his age had little more than fuzzy self-awareness, and were mostly tuned to mother and milk and immediate needs. This little fellow had a solidly established identity within himself, and a deep interest in all that was going on around him. He liked Lacey, who fed him bits of meat, and was wary of Patience, not because she was cruel, but because she stumbled over him and kept putting him back in the basket each time he laboriously clambered out. He thought I smelled very exciting, and the scents of horses and birds and other dogs were like colors in his mind, images of things that as yet had no shape or reality for him, but that he nonetheless found fascinating. I imaged the scents for him and he climbed my chest, wriggling, sniffing and licking me in his excitement. Take me, show me, take me.
'... even listening?'
I winced, expecting a rap from Burrich, then came back to awareness of where I was and of the small woman standing before me with her hands on her hips.
'I think something's wrong with him,' she abruptly observed to Lacey. 'Did you see how he was sitting there, staring at the puppy? I thought he was about to go off into some sort of fit.'
Lacey smiled benignly and went on with her tatting. 'Fair reminded me of you, lady, when you start pottering about with your leaves and bits of plants and end up staring at the dirt.'
'Well,' said Patience; clearly displeased. 'It is quite one thing for an adult to be pensive,' she observed firmly, 'and another for a boy to stand about looking daft.'
Later, I promised the pup. 'I'm sorry,' I said, and tried to look repentant. 'I was just distracted by the puppy.' He had cuddled into the crook of my arm and was casually chewing the edge of my jerkin. It is difficult to explain what I felt. I needed to pay attention to Lady Patience, but this small being snuggled against me was radiating delight and contentment. It is a heady thing to be suddenly proclaimed the center of someone's world, even if that someone is an eight-week-old puppy. It made me realize how profoundly alone I had felt, and for how long. 'Thank you,' I said, and even I was surprised at the gratitude in my voice. 'Thank you very much.'
'It's just a puppy,' Lady Patience said, and to my surprise she looked almost ashamed. She turned aside and stared out the window. The puppy licked his nose and closed his eyes. Warm. Sleep. 'Tell me about yourself,' she demanded abruptly.
It took me aback. 'What would you like to know, lady?'
She made a small frustrated gesture. 'What do you do each day? What have you been taught?'
So I attempted to tell her, but I could see it didn't satisfy her. She folded her lips tightly at each mention of Burrich's name. She wasn't impressed with any of my martial training. Of Chade, I could say nothing. She nodded in grudging approval at my study of languages, writing, and ciphering.
'Well,' she interrupted suddenly. 'At least you're not totally ignorant. If you can read, you can learn anything. If you've a will to. Have you a will to learn?'
'I suppose so.' It was a lukewarm answer, but I was beginning to feel badgered. Not even the gift of the puppy could outweigh her belittlement of my learning.
'I suppose you will learn, then. For I have a will that you will, even if you do not yet.' She was suddenly stern, in a shifting of attitude that left me bewildered. 'And what do they call you, boy?'
The question again. 'Boy is fine,' I muttered. The sleeping puppy in my arms whimpered in agitation. I forced myself to be calm for him.
I had the satisfaction of seeing a stricken look flit briefly across Patience's face. 'I shall call you, oh, Thomas. Tom for every day. Does that suit you?'
'I suppose so,' I said deliberately. Burrich gave more thought to naming a dog than that. We had no Blackies or Spots in the stables. Burrich named each beast as if they were royalty, with names that described them or traits he aspired to for them. Even Sooty's name masked a gentle fire I had come to respect. But this woman named me Tom after no more than an indrawn breath. I looked down so she couldn't see my eyes.
'Fine, then,' she said, a trifle briskly. 'Come tomorrow at the same time. I shall have some things ready for you. I warn you, I shall expect willing effort from you. Good day, Tom.'
'Good day, lady.'
I turned and left. Lacey's eyes followed me, and then darted back to her mistress. I sensed her disappointment, but did not know what it was about.
It was still early in the day. This first audience had taken less than an hour. I wasn't expected anywhere; this time was my own. I headed for the kitchens, to wheedle scraps for my pup. It would have been easy to take him down to the stables, but then Burrich would have known about him. I had no illusions about what would happen next. The pup would stay in the stables. He would be nominally mine, but Burrich would see that this new bond was severed. I had no intention of allowing that to happen.
I made my plans. A basket from the launderers, an old shirt over straw for his bed. His messes now would be small, and as he got older my bond with him would make him easy to train. For now, he'd have to stay by himself for part of each day. But as he got older he could go about with me. Eventually, Burrich would find out about him. I
