and then a good hard shove to get him out of her face…
When Clare crossed herself, he realized she had been praying. “This makes me think of Debba Clow,” she said.
“Me, too.”
She looked up at him. “I mean about the children. About the weight of responsibility parents take on. Mrs. Marshall told me her parents chose not to inoculate their children with the diphtheria vaccine. They did what they thought was best, and this was what they got.” She spread her hands, encompassing the stones. “Her mother spent the rest of her life grieving, and her father skipped town.” She dropped her hands to her thighs. “Debba’s the same. She tried to do everything right, and she’s got an autistic son and an ex-husband trying to take away her kids.”
“I’d be a lot more sympathetic to her plight if I hadn’t seen her trying to brain the doctor with a stool.” He held out a hand to help her to her feet.
“Do you really think she dragged him away somewhere, unconscious?”
“That’s a thought. Maybe he’s in her basement, chained to the wall until he agrees to sign a statement declaring she’s the best mom ever and he’s a quack for vaccinating kids.”
She ignored his flippant remark. “If she hit him here, or he fell, and then she left him to die, where’s his body?”
They both looked through the pines toward the reservoir. “I wish I had a few weights I could chuck out there, see if there are any thin spots that break right through,” he said. His fingers shaped a large imaginary rock.
“Like those stones they slide for curling,” she said.
“Yeah.” He faced her. “Okay, you’re Debba and I’m Rouse. I slip and fall, hitting my head on this gravestone. I’m bleeding.” He knelt at an angle to Peter Ketchem’s stone. “What do you do?”
“I try to help you up,” she said. She reached down and wrapped her hands around his upper arm.
“But I’m heavier than you, and disoriented.” He stood up. “Plus I’m a cranky old bastard and I don’t want your help.”
“So I’m reaching for you, trying to grab you to take a look at your head.” She thrust her arms out toward him.
“And I step backward.” He did.
“Be careful,” she said.
“What do you do next?”
“I’m still trying to get ahold of you.” She put her mittened hand against her mouth, frowning in thought. “I’m scared and probably getting ticked off. So maybe I’m yelling at you to stay put.” She advanced a step toward him.
“I’m backing away,” he said, “because you’re looking crazy, backing away and-” He was moving as he did so, not looking back because, of course, Rouse hadn’t been looking back, he had been wiping blood out of his eyes, and when Clare shouted, “Look out!” he started to turn to see where he was going but it was too late, his heel stepped down into nothingness and he tilted crazily, his whole boot sliding into the frozen maw of a woodchuck hole, and he was going over, arms careening, Clare yelling something, and then there was a split second where it felt as if a mallet smashed against his leg, pain, agonizing pain above his ankle, and then he hit the frozen snow with a thud that snapped his skull and threw his glasses off.
Chapter 20
Oh, fuck!” he said.
Clare smashed down onto her knees beside him, gabbling something, reaching for him, and he was bellowing about his glasses, don’t step on his glasses, as if the goddamn glasses mattered with his goddamn leg in a goddamn hole, except that they had cost three hundred bucks and weren’t covered by his insurance.
“Ssh! Ssh!” Clare was saying. “I’ve got them, Russ, they’re right here. Right here.” And she slipped his glasses on, her hands stroking his face, rubbing his chest. He shut his eyes for a second while chills swept through him, surging like snowmelt waters, shaking his whole body. The pain in his leg was so bad he wanted to weep and howl. He opened his eyes. Clare filled his whole range of vision, hanging over him, her hazel eyes wide and bright with fear. Her voice was steady, though. “I want you to move your head slowly if you can.”
“I broke my leg,” he said.
“I know.” She brushed a shock of his hair off his forehead. “But before I try to move you, I want to make sure you didn’t injure your spine as well.”
That sent another icy wave washing through him, leaving him trembling. He lifted his head from the ground and stared down the length of his body to where his left foot was half in, half out of a snow-rimmed hole. His shin above his boot top was bent backward, and the sight of it, the wrongness of it, made his stomach lurch with nausea.
Clare leaned back, giving him more space. “Can you sit up?”
“I think so.” He tightened his gut and curled up, working hard because he was lying downslope, his head lower than his feet. He got high enough to prop himself on his elbows, then stopped, exhausted. The effort of it made him sweat, and another chill, weaker than the last, shook him. The pain in his leg was receding, replaced by an intense heat. He was panting for breath. Everything his eye fell on was supernaturally sharp, the glint of sunlight on the ice, the rough crumbled edge of a gravestone, the reddened tip of Clare’s nose. “Okay,” he said. “I think I’m going into shock.”
She reached behind his neck and pulled his parka hood over his head, tugging on the strings to keep it close. “Lie back down,” she said, taking him by the shoulders and guiding him back onto the snow. She slapped her parka until she felt whatever she was looking for. She unsnapped her coat, dug into an inside pocket, and pulled out a cell phone. “We’re going to get you some help fast,” she said, jamming her thumbnail against the power button.
He rolled his head away from her and stared at the pine boughs overhead. Their color, a green so dark it was almost black, reminded him of his friend Shaun, of Shaun’s dad’s boat, of hours rocking on the surface of the reservoir when he was a kid, the pines and the dark water and the mountains rising around them.
“You’re probably not going to get a-,” he said, just as Clare snarled, “God damn!”
“-signal,” he concluded. “Because of the mountains.” He closed his eyes again. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard you say that before.”
“I’ve never been stuck in a snowbank with you and a broken leg before,” she said. She looked at her cell phone with loathing. “Useless machine! I can never get a signal when I need one. Why do I even have this?”
His leg still felt hot, but the pain was coming back, not sharp, like before, but a deep ache, like a tooth gone bad. He could feel it all the way up to his groin. “Forget about it,” he said. “You’re gonna walk me out of here. You can drive me to the hospital.”
Her face was a mixture of anger and frustration. “I can’t carry you out of here, Russ, don’t you get it? You must weigh close to two hundred pounds. Maybe on a dry, flat surface I could get you in a fireman’s carry and stagger a dozen steps with you, but there’s no way I can make it all the way up that trail with you, not with all that slippery snow and ice. I can’t do it.”
She looked close to tears. “Hey,” he said. He caught her bare hand in his gloved one and squeezed hard. He focused on making his voice as close to normal as possible. “It’s just a broken leg. It’s broad daylight and I got a perfectly good truck less than a half mile away. If you can’t get me all the way there, you can drag me over underneath a tree and I’ll wait while you go get help. It wouldn’t be more than”-he calculated the walk, the drive, scrambling the EMTs, the time it would take an ambulance to get here-“an hour and a half. Two hours, tops.”
“But it’s freezing out here! And your jeans aren’t going to keep you warm.”
“Yeah, well, I’ll survive.”
She worried her lower lip. She was still gripping his gloved hand. “Is that what you want me to do? Leave you here and go get help?”
“Hell, no. I’m not going to freeze my ass off for two hours when it’ll take us twenty minutes to walk back to the road.”
