restaurant before.
“If we have any suspicions, we run it through the system to see if the driver has any history-frequent violations, arrests, outstanding warrants, convictions. We can even see if the person has done time anywhere. In Caroline’s case, she would have just gotten a ticket. Since officially there is no record of a Caroline Sturgis before her marriage. Had we looked, we would have found nothing. Which in and of itself might have sent up a flare. But we didn’t look. Any other questions or have I earned my lunch?”
With that, he pointedly said good-bye to the maitre d’ and not to me. The waiter brought the faux leather folder with the check. O’Malley was right. Seventy-eight fifty, not including the tip. I pocketed the receipt and shook my head, wondering how my strategy for a nonconfrontational exchange with O’Malley had gone so horribly wrong. Unlike real estate, location had nothing to do with it.
Unless I could talk to Caroline herself-if she’d even agree to it-my plan to help the Sturgises and clear my name would be hopeless. The scraps of information I was picking up seemed to be leading nowhere. May be the newcomers were involved, but may be not. Chances are I was playing P.I. and investigating a man of the cloth and an Eagle Scout, neither of whom had anything to do with Caroline Sturgis. But Caroline was scheduled to be extradited to Michigan some time today; for all I knew, she’d already left.
I’d dropped the data plan on my phone to save a few bucks, so I needed a computer and the latest Caroline news ASAP to help me decide whether to drive to Bridgeport or just go home, where I’d console myself with a large tumbler of cheap but cheerful wine.
The Paradise was the closest place I knew of with a computer I could use, twenty minutes closer than my house and near the highway if I did decide to make the trek to Bridgeport. Two long semis blocked most of the parking spots but I was able to slide in between them, trusting that the drivers were so skilled they wouldn’t squish my Jeep when pulling out.
Babe wasn’t there. Eyebrow Girl told me she was on a break, and motioned to Babe’s den behind the diner. I sprinted around to the back door and knocked.
“Babe, you in there?” I called.
“Over here.”
She stood, arms folded, wearing elbow-length rubber gloves, behind a lattice fence near the Dumpster. She was up to her knees in garbage and papers. “This better not be Countertop Man again. Otherwise, when I find him I’m going to douse him with waste vegetable oil, strap him down, and let the raccoons get him.” Babe had a vindictive side-or at the very least a vivid imagination.
I offered to help clean up but told her I needed to use her computer first.
“This isn’t a home-shopping jones, is it?” she asked, unlocking the door, peeling off her gloves, and flopping down on one of the sofas. “Because there are support groups for that.”
I assured Babe it wasn’t.
She logged on and then I searched both Caroline Sturgis and Monica Weithorn. Pages of the inevitable before and after pix loaded-Caroline at a charity function, Monica’s class picture. Caroline at the Historical Society gala, Monica’s mug shot. There she was, side by side with her doppelganger. Frisky, yes, maybe even a little slutty for a teenager, but a drug kingpin?
Caroline/Monica already had a Wikipedia page. Astonishing. Who had the time to do this stuff? There was also a Free Caroline page started by a cannabis club that admitted it had nothing to do with her or her family; she’d quickly become a symbol to people on both sides of the drug issue. I scrolled through the rest of the junk items until I saw a article posted a few hours earlier on WTIC, the local news radio’s Web site: Fugitive Mom Returned to Michigan. Caroline was gone.
Eighteen
How I disappeared. The last driver took me for a runaway, escaping an abusive stepfather. She looked me up and down and decided she knew my story the way people do all the time. I’d done it myself. She assumed my gaunt face was the product of mistreatment at home, not bad prison food, and she thought my calloused hands were the result of punishing household chores, not the harsh chemicals in the prison laundry. I let her think that. For the previous two days nothing I’d said was the truth, and I was getting better at lying. She gave me a bag of trail mix, a pair of woolen gloves, and the best advice I’d gotten in my young life, certainly better than anything from that jerk lawyer.
She said it wasn’t enough just to hope that someone couldn’t follow you, you had to actively feed misinformation into whatever system you thought they’d use to track you. I had to stay away from everything and everyone I formerly knew or loved. She sounded as if she knew what she was talking about. Maybe she’d left an unhappy marriage or a difficult past. Who knew? But she had me thinking about what I could or couldn’t do next.
There could be no tearful late-night calls to my brother, no showing up on old friend’s doorstep. No registering for school or doing anything that required me to give my social security number. It was easier back in the eighties. I don’t know how someone would do it now.
I was afraid to throw away my driver’s license and passport for fear of leaving a trail, so I kept them. Besides, maybe I could use them. I’d already toughened up and learned a lot, but I needed a plan. First and foremost I needed to clean up. I’d been on the road since that first night at the motel in Michigan and I stank.
The ladies’ room at the Port Authority wasn’t as disgusting as I thought it would be. When I saw my reflection in the cloudy mirror, I teared up but didn’t let myself cry. The washroom attendant didn’t seem surprised when I took a poor man’s bath in the sink with my stolen washcloth and a sliver of soap that had all the weight of a matchbook. I dried off with the hand dryer. The attendant warned me to keep my bags close and wear the shoulder strap across my chest so there was less chance of its getting ripped off. I must have looked like Alice in Wonderland, the only thing missing was the pinafore.
I took my time lingering in the bathroom, because I hadn’t a clue as to what I’d do next. Near the diaper changing table there were stacks of flyers-social service agencies, suicide prevention hotlines, employment opportunities from an escort service, and a flyer from St. Ann’s Community Kitchen. I took one of each and shoved them in my bag.
“St. Ann’s is four blocks south of here. Make a left when you get outside,” the woman said. “You don’t wanna go to that other place. Go to St. Ann’s. They got chicken stew on Fridays.” As if I knew what day it was.
The sign on St. Ann’s said the kitchen was open from 7 to 10 A.M., 12 to 2 P.M., and 5 to 8 P.M. It was 3 P.M. I heard the rain before I felt it, pelting my brother’s cheap nylon duffel that held everything I owned and was already starting to show signs of fabric fatigue from having been dragged on highways and thrown into the backs of trucks. I was showing signs of fatigue, too. Then it really started to pour and I figured no one would mind if I ducked into the church to wait out the storm. Isn’t that what they were for? Sanctuary?
A priest was rearranging items on the altar, moving candlesticks or something. I didn’t want him to see me still there two hours later, so when he went behind the altar, I crept into the confessional booth and pulled the carved door closed behind me. Then I fell asleep.
There was no anger or judgment in the priest’s voice when he woke me two hours later.
“You look troubled. Would you like to talk?” The same words that other priest had said to me at the stable in Connecticut.
The priest at St. Ann’s led me to the church basement, where dinner was being served. I took a tray and waited in a line that reminded me of a school cafeteria, albeit one with a down-at-the-heels student body. I was starving. I loaded up on sides and tried not to be too piggy with the meat, which didn’t look that appetizing anyway. Then I sat at a long table opposite a girl about my age. She had a choppy haircut and wore a lot of makeup, and I could see a pack of Marlboros sticking out of the pocket of her denim jacket. Again I felt like a child. We shoveled in the food in silence. She put a cigarette in her mouth but knew the rules well enough to not light it. Finally she spoke to me. “Need a place?”
