“I thought you might say that.”
When they’d gone, Pax got up, opened a few of the books on the shelves, put them back. After awhile he went down the carpeted hallway, past the small functional bathroom to the pair of bedrooms. The door to his left was open. Most of the space in the room was taken up by a bunk bed. Two of the walls were painted pale yellow, the other two sea foam, matching the stripes on the comforters on the unmade beds. There were two identical dressers, cheap pine. The drawers were ajar, as if that morning the girls had hopped out of bed and dressed hurriedly, late for the school bus. He felt a vague sense of deja vu, then realized it must be because he’d just seen all this in Weygand’s camera.
The other bedroom was smaller, and more plain-a beige double bed in a simple wood frame, a low mirrored dresser, plain white walls-as if all the energy for decoration had been spent in the girls’ room. The only color came from the covers of the books stacked up along one wall. A single, curtained window looked out over the backyard.
The bed was still made, unslept in since the night before she died. He pulled back the bedspread and lay down on his side. He pressed his face into the single white pillow and inhaled deeply.
The scent was too subtle for him to tease apart. A hint of flowers that could have been perfume or detergent, a faint muskiness that might have been Jo’s scent or simply the effects of humidity in the closed house. With a stab of sadness he realized that he couldn’t recall how she smelled. Once he’d known her body-and Deke’s-as well as his own. No, better. After the Changes,
And then he had left them. The only people who knew him.
Somewhere a door creaked open. He quickly rolled off the bed and wiped the tears from his cheeks. He listened for Deke’s heavy steps, but nothing came. Still, the feeling persisted that he was not alone.
Jesus, he thought. I’m a fucking mess.
He tucked the covers back over the pillow, and tugged on the bedclothes to smooth out the creases. Then he heard a clink, like someone setting a glass into the kitchen sink.
He went to the door of the room, leaned out. Far down the hallway, opposite the open door to the kitchen, a lozenge of light lay upon the wall. A shadow flitted across it, slowly slid back, and then vanished. For a moment it had looked like the silhouette of a face. Jo’s face.
He stood there for a full minute, staring at the light, waiting for the shadow to return. Because he was alone he didn’t have to pretend that he wasn’t freaked out. Finally he left the room and stepped quietly down the hall. When he reached the edge of the kitchen doorway he stopped and studied the light on the wall. He decided that even with his imagination straining at the leash he couldn’t see anything moving in it. He turned quickly and entered the kitchen, fists clenched.
The kitchen door hung open. Outside, the trunk of the oak tree rose up out of his line of sight.
The rain had stopped. He stepped outside onto the wet, shining grass. He looked at the tire, then up at the rope. He still couldn’t imagine Jo doing that to herself.
He walked over to the plastic patio set and righted a chair that had blown over. As he straightened he saw in his peripheral vision two small figures drop down out of the trees at the edge of the lawn. They hit the ground and almost instantly vanished into the woods.
Two children with wine-dark arms and legs, bare heads like marbles.
Pax whisked the water from the seat of the chair and sat. For a while he scanned the tree line, wondering if the girls would come back or if they’d been scared back to the Co-op. The Whitmer farm was probably only a half mile away as the crow flies. There were paths all through these woods.
Deke’s Jeep rumbled up the driveway. He heard the big man go in the front of the house and a minute later come out behind him.
“There you are. How you doing, man?”
“Just great,” he said. What he needed, he thought, was to see his father. What he needed was a touch of vintage. Instead he said, “You remember ‘The Bewlay Brothers’?”
“‘Kings of oblivion,’” Deke said, quoting from the song. The final track on Bowie’s
“So he was definitely talking to Jo,” Pax said. “We should still check her computer, though. Maybe she was talking to other people.”
Deke shook his head. “It’s not here. I’ve looked.”
“When?”
He shrugged. “I broke in yesterday.”
Pax looked up at him, smiling. “Really?”
“Searched everywhere. Somebody got here before me.”
“Maybe the girls took it.”
“I asked the reverend. She was there that morning-her and Tommy were called right after the police. She packed the girls’ things and said she didn’t see it.”
“The twins are clever girls,” Pax said. “I think they’ve been back since that night.” He told him about the girls dropping out of the trees and scampering away like squirrels.
Deke didn’t seem surprised. “At least Weygand didn’t get a picture of them,” he said. He snapped something between his thick fingers and flicked the pieces into the grass.
“Camera memory card?” Pax guessed.
“Not anymore.”
Pax laughed. “You know, when I saw you charge out of the house, I thought you were going to kill him. And then when he told you to fuck off…”
Deke took a breath. “Yeah. Me too.”
“You’re serious,” Pax said.
Deke squatted beside him, his forearms resting on his knees. “I have a temper problem.”
“What? You’re the calmest guy I know.”
“I’m the carefullest guy you know,” Deke said. “I slipped up once. Now I have to… Well. Let’s just say I keep a close watch on this heart of mine.”
Pax laughed, and then they lapsed into silence. They sat without talking for several minutes. In the north people didn’t just sit, Pax realized. Not unless they were on the bus or trapped in a waiting room. You said what you needed to say, then you moved on. At some point in the past dozen years he’d stopped noticing the Yankee rush to fill the silence.
Pax said, “So did you know about this stuff? That she was online, talking to people about Switchcreek?”
Deke exhaled heavily. “I didn’t know, but it didn’t surprise me. Jo didn’t have many people to talk to in this town-people who could keep up with her, anyway. You know how she was. Didn’t suffer fools.”
“Oh yeah.” She had scholarship brains. Nobody had expected her to stay in Switchcreek-until the Changes. Until she got pregnant. “You think Jo believed all that crazy shit Weygand was saying? I mean, her own girls. She couldn’t really think they were…” He gestured vaguely. “Alternate universe babies.”
“Just because she was smart doesn’t mean she was always right,” Deke said. “Look.” He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a wallet the size of a bank bag. With his thick fingers he fished out a heavily creased piece of paper and handed it to Pax.
Pax unfolded it. It was a printout of a black-and-white photo, a long-range shot blown up to the point of blurriness. In the foreground were pine trees, a chain-link fence topped with barbed wire. Beyond the fence was a wide, snow-covered plain. Half a dozen low, barracks-like buildings sat in the distance. Three figures were moving between two buildings. Two of them were clearly argos, all long arms and sloped back. Running ahead of them was a much smaller figure moving on all fours. Scale was difficult to assess, but considering the size of the argos, the third figure could have been a pony or a large dog.
“Jo gave that to me a couple years ago,” Deke said. “She found it on the web. Said it came from China.”
“Wait-argos in China?”
Deke shrugged.
Pax said, “What’s that other thing, in front of them?”
“Can’t you tell? That’s an argo child.”
Pax stared at the picture. “No fucking way.”
