triangles held together with toothpicks. The girls, judging from their voices if not their faces, seemed delighted.
After supper Sandra said, “Tell us another story about Mom.”
“About when she got pregnant with us,” Rainy said.
Pax looked up, measuring Rainy’s gaze. “Girls,” he said. “I’m glad you’ve been coming here. You’ve helped me a lot. But I think you’ve gotten the wrong idea. Your mom and I…”
They blinked at him. Did he want to do this? They weren’t his daughters-he knew that now-but he couldn’t help but think of them as his girls. Nieces, perhaps. But that was just fantasy. Playing house.
Finally he said, “You know I’m not your father, right?”
Sandra tilted her head, then looked at Rainy. Rainy said, “Betas don’t have fathers, Paxton.” Her voice patient.
“I know that. I was just afraid that maybe you girls were thinking… I don’t know.” He breathed out, smiled. “I’m glad we understand each other.”
“Now tell us about Mom,” Sandra said. “Was she happy when she found out she was pregnant?”
“Of course she was,” Pax said. “She was… overjoyed.”
“You can tell us the truth,” Rainy said.
“She was scared, sure. No beta had had a child yet, so nobody knew what to expect. But she was excited.”
“Really?” Sandra said.
“She didn’t think we had ruined her life?” Rainy asked.
“What? Of course not,” Pax said. “Listen, the first time I met you two, your mom put my hand on her belly, and one of you kicked back-thump. She was so happy to feel you moving.”
“I bet that was Rainy,” Sandra said. “She kicks in her sleep.”
His walks in the afternoon grew longer. He went into the woods above the house, following the tracks he’d carved out with his ATV when he was a kid. Sometimes he’d burst into tears. Not from pain-though sometimes pain triggered it-but from a flash of memory, an image of fists or the sound of bone on flesh. Sudden fear would blindside him, leave him stumbling around bleary eyed and sobbing.
He tried to summon alternate images, counter-spells. A crowbar slamming into Clete’s temple. Paxton’s Ford mashing at ninety miles per hour into the driver-side door of the pimped-out Camry Travis pleading for mercy; Aunt Rhonda on all fours, blood pouring from her mouth; the Home, burning…
The fantasies were thin soup. He’d had his chance to fight back, and he’d lain there. Dreaming of revenge was pointless.
He came out of the woods just as Aunt Rhonda’s Cadillac pulled into the drive. Everett and Clete escorted the mayor to the door. Pax put his hands in his pockets to stop them from trembling.
“Oh, hon,” Aunt Rhonda said. She surveyed his face, frowning in concern.
“It’s not any worse than it looks,” he said.
“Clete has something to say to you,” Rhonda said. She turned to the boy.
Pax looked at the chub’s face. His nose was the color and shape of an eggplant. Dark rings and swollen cheeks reduced his already small eyes to piggy slits.
Pax looked at Rhonda and she said, “The Chief took issue with Clete’s behavior. As did I. Clete?”
“I’m sorry for hitting you,” Clete said. He glanced at Aunt Rhonda. “Very sorry.”
“What do you want?” Pax asked Rhonda.
“I came to ask you a favor,” she said. His reaction must have showed in his face because she said reassuringly, “It’s nothing big. In fact, it’s kind of a favor to
Chapter 13
HIS FATHER ROLLED out in a wheelchair the size of a loveseat. The boy pushing him was Clete’s sidekick, Travis. Everett trailed behind them with that bouncer-blank look on his face.
Travis steered Harlan toward the atrium windows, where Pax sat in the middle of an upholstered guest chair, also chub-sized. His father was slumped in the wheelchair, head back and eyes closed. He looked deflated, a man swimming in a giant’s skin and clothes. Pax leaned forward, and Everett said, “Just keep your seat.”
“I was just-never mind,” Pax said. Rhonda had explained the rules: no touching, no leaving the room, and do whatever Everett says. “Otherwise,” she’d told him, “just be yourself.”
“Is he awake?” Pax asked.
Everett touched Harlan’s shoulder. “Pastor Martin,” he said. “Your son’s here.”
His father didn’t move. Everett said, “Playing possum.” He gently shook the man’s shoulder. “Come on now,” he said. “You’ve got company.”
Harlan opened his eyes a fraction. “Get your hands off me,” he said in a cracked voice.
“Ah,” Everett said. “Grumpy.” He nodded to Travis and they walked to a desk and chairs about ten feet away, where Barron, the security guard, had spread out a newspaper.
Harlan turned his gaze to the windows, paying no attention to Paxton. The bright sunlight turned his father’s skin to rice paper. His arms were stained with liver spots. He seemed decades older than he had two weeks ago.
“It’s me,” Pax said. “Your son.”
His father didn’t move.
Pax leaned back in his giant chair, scratched the side of his neck. The ache burned in him. Inside the Home, and this close to his father, Pax had expected to be engulfed by the scent of the vintage, and he hadn’t been sure how he was going to stand it. But there was only a trace of it, and even that was almost masked by the smell of Pine- Sol.
“So,” Pax said. He tried to make his voice sound relaxed. “How are they treating you?”
“Quit talking to me that way,” his father said.
Pax glanced at the chub men across the room. They were pretending to study their sections of the paper. To his father, Pax said, “What way?”
“I’m not senile.”
But you’re not exactly sane, Pax thought. “Dad, I have to explain-”
“I asked you one thing, Paxton.” Harlan turned his head to look at him, his eyes in that collapsed face bright and hard. “One thing.”
“You didn’t exactly make it easy on me,” Pax said. He told him about the night at the church: the impromptu baptism, the way they had to drag both of them from the water. “You don’t remember any of this?”
“You got what you wanted,” his father said. “So why are you here?”
“This is not what I wanted!” Pax said. Everett looked over at them, and Pax lowered his voice. “I wanted you out of here. I wanted to take you home. I just… can’t.”
His father made a noise of disgust and looked away. Outside the window, a plastic fawn nestled in the grass beside an antique iron water pump. Someone had planted a row of flowers, but at the moment they were headless stalks.
Pax stared at his hands, then at his father.
Harlan reached up, scratched at a cheek, and white flakes of skin fluttered in the sunlight. Dry, dry, dry. Nothing there for him. He was dying of thirst and his father had become a desert.
After several minutes of silence, Pax got up and walked to the security desk. “This isn’t working,” Pax said quietly.
Everett looked up at him. “You saying you’re backing out of the deal?”
“No, I’m
“One more word,” Everett said quietly. “Go ahead. Say one more word.”
Barron and Travis froze, their eyes on Everett. Paxton closed his mouth.
“Now then,” Everett said reasonably. “If you’re done for today, that’s fine. We’ll take you back now. But you
