entire work could be discarded, his books culled from the libraries.' She looked up at Vell. 'Or perhaps not—I hope not, for most of my work is built on his work. But what I've learned must be brought forward, must be revealed.'
'You could keep his secret,' said Vell. 'Only Lanaal and I know, and neither of us will reveal it.'
Kellin shook her head. 'Oghma is the god of knowledge, and he teaches that knowledge is the most valuable thing. But that doesn't mean it should be hoarded. It should be freely available to all. I'm not able to start keeping the secrets of thieves.'
'You're brave,' said Vell. 'All my life, I was taught that civilized outsiders were dishonorable and full of deceit.'
'Not all, but some are,' said Kellin. 'Your tribe has seen this. Likewise, most of civilization thinks of the Uthgardt as stupid and bloodthirsty. But I always knew better.'
'Because of your father, no doubt,' said Vell. Tentatively, he added, 'I'm intrigued by what you said about Oghma. Does he truly spurn all secrets? Even those we carry in our hearts?'
'Well, mostly it concerns the facts of the world,' said Kellin. 'Some things are meant just for the individual. The church of Oghma values self-knowledge as well, and sometimes that means privacy. In fact, on my twelfth birthday, the Lorekeepers revealed to me my True Name, a secret name meant to contain the truth of me.'
'Does it?' Vell asked.
'I wondered at first how it was meant to,' she admitted. 'It frustrated me. I thought this was a weakness. I thought I was supposed to understand. I struggled to grasp the meaning, the reason this True Name was for me. I probed deep, contemplated many questions. There are moments when I seemed on the verge of understanding, but it always lay just outside my grasp. Then I had an epiphany. I realized that the struggle for understanding held more meaning than the name ever could.' She smiled with a serenity that Vell admired and envied.
'So what name is it?'
'I can't tell!' she laughed. Vell was thoroughly disarmed. 'A lady must keep some secrets for herself.'
'That's all I wanted to know,' said Vell.
'If I had secrets of the heart?' asked Kellin. 'Be assured, I do.'
'I am glad of that,' Vell answered, a smile on his face. It filled him with confidence that perhaps, when all of this was settled, another world might be opened up for him.
But the pressure inside his mind could not be ignored. It was growing stronger with each step closer to the Star Mounts. Gods, he thought. I would not be here if it wasn't for my affliction, the Thunderbeast inside.
He placed his hand on the side of his head, trying to weigh his thoughts.
It's leading me around, he thought.
CHAPTER 15
Sungar's world was a blur as two guards tossed him back into his cell. He'd had another session of Kiev's ministrations. They grew more brutal each time, Sungar was convinced, and now his body was raw and torn as never before. Falling limply on the hard cell floor, he heard one of the attendants say, 'Sweet dreams, chief.' Then Sungar drifted away on the pain.
A hand reached out to grasp his. When he opened his eyes, Sungar found himself staring into the craggy, bearded face of King Gundar.
He was not lying in the prison cell in Llorkh, but on a warm, grassy field, with an open sky sprawling above him. His wounds were gone—not healed, but gone—as if they had never been. Gundar's familiar, smiling face, so strong and so benevolent, beamed down on him. This was not Gundar as he lay dying in Llorkh, but the vibrant man Sungar had fought beside so many times, now decked in mail as if newly returned from their victorious raid on Raven Rock.
'Arise, Chieftain of the Thunderbeasts,' Gundar said.
Sungar accepted his hand and pulled himself to his feet. He could see the Spine of the World towering in the distance and knew that he was just south of the Lurkwood. Open spaces, a clear sky—he drank in all of those things he had feared he would never see again. But this place was strangely unreal: the colors more vivid, the rose-colored sky so much closer to the ground. Sungar wondered whether he was receiving a vision, or if he was hallucinating. One would be a true gift from Uthgar, the other the meaningless babble of a crippled mind.
'I fear I am chief no longer,' said Sungar. 'Perhaps I was never meant to be.'
'I chose you,' Gundar said. 'All of my sons were dead. On my deathbed, I named you my successor—not Keirkrad, nor any other.'
'And by doing so, you confirmed my decision to withdraw from Grunwald.'
Gundar shrugged. 'Our people thrived in Grunwald in some senses, but in others, we festered. Perhaps a return to nomad ways was wise.'
'I strive to make all of my decisions wise,' said Sungar. 'But my decisions have brought us here. Our tribe is in ruins, and I am nothing but a prisoner. They must have been a fool's decisions. I misled our people.'
'Do not be so certain,' the old chief said. Sungar saw that Gundar held the battle-axe. Better it be in Gundar's grasp than a hobgoblin's. 'It is possible to make no mistake, and yet fail.'
'What would you have done?' asked Sungar. 'I've asked myself that a thousand times. That day, in the Fallen Lands. I can't deny that I felt satisfaction as I threw the axe.' He reached toward the phantasmal battle-axe and rested his hand on its blade. 'The civilized mage thought himself better than us—he thought he could make us abandon our principles because he said so. I proved him wrong.'
'You were interpreting Uthgar's law,' said Gundar.
'So did the Black Ravens when they tried to destroy us in Grunwald,' Sungar said. 'They thought they were doing his work. But that day, I had motivations other than serving Uthgar.'
'So you think this is Uthgar's punishment?' asked Gundar. 'Do you think Uthgar placed the axe in that hobgoblin's hands and sent him to the door of a great enemy—all to teach you a lesson?'
Sungar flinched. 'That shows a lack of humility, I confess. I am curious... if you are dead, do you have access to Uthgar's will?'
Gundar smiled mysteriously. 'That is a question. Are you so certain that you are speaking to someone beyond the grave? Honestly?'
'Who could ever be certain of such a thing?' asked Sungar. 'Is it humble to think so miraculous a visitor would come to me?'
Gundar let out a roar of laughter. It felt entirely right—exactly how Gundar would have reacted in life. 'M'boy, the Chieftain of Chieftains isn't punishing you. Uthgar is trying to help you, and he is acting to help your tribesmen. Don't be afraid for them. Nor should you be afraid for yourself. If death awaits you, face it proudly in a manner befitting a chief.'
'Should I kill myself, then?'
Gundar's blue eyes locked onto Sungar's. He spoke simply, but his words hit Sungar with unexpected weight. 'Do not be in such a hurry to die.'
The sky began to fade away, the dull gray of the stone ceiling peeking out behind it.
'You haven't answered my question,' said Sungar hurriedly.
'About the axe, you mean?' Gundar lifted it into the air. 'Uthgar wielded this axe once. Our people gave it to him as an offering in the time when he walked and breathed as a man. Uthgar gave it to Chief Tharkane Scalehide, not as a rejection of our gift, but because he thought it most appropriate that our tribe wield it. The weapon of Berun stayed with the blood of Berun.'
'So Geildarr spoke the truth,' said Sungar. He desperately tried to keep his eyes shut to the world so that this vision might continue, but it was dissolving despite his efforts.
'Yes,' said Gundar, the world trembling around him. 'If you had known that this magical axe had been wielded by Berun of old, and even by Uthgar, would you have acted any differently?'
Sungar's eyes flew open. His bloodied lips parted, and his hoarse voice rasped, 'Yes, I would have.'
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When they saw light again, it was through an archway facing north, overlooking the sweep of the High
