“Of course he is right! He may be dead inside but he is utterly brilliant!”
“So you truly do not know how far-”
“I have no idea.” Columbus drinks from the goblet. “While this is an unfortunate truth, it is also true that Las Palos does not know either, exactly.”
“And you will go to the university court and fight him?”
“I will have to be louder, bolder, and inspire with words of gold and spices and riches. I’ll have to promise things to this poor cash-starved monarchy. I will have to use my wit.” He sighs heavily. “Mostly, I will have to be louder and bolder.”
“And at the same time as you try to impress the royals, will you anger those of the Inquisition?”
“This nags at me every day. I will have to hope that the idea of profit rules even those of the Inquisition. And after all, I will be discovering whatever there is to discover in the name of God, and king, and queen. God first, of course.”
Beatriz stands in front of a large chart that hangs from a rod, near the wall. She’s wearing a loose-fitting, flowered gown. Her eyes are drawn to the blank area in the western zone. She thinks about the blankness of it. She remembers swimming beyond land’s sight, getting to the place where there was only water and how lonely it felt, and the small, gnawing fear in her stomach. I cannot imagine only seeing the water in the four directions, and for weeks at a time. I cannot imagine the faith it would take. I am going to lose him to the unknown. I’ve already lost him. He sees nothing but the blankness there. It pulls him.
She touches the unknown area on the chart with three fingers, and then presses the palm of her hand there. Closes her eyes, wishes to feel something, imprint safety, imprint her love there.
“What is it that you feel?”
“Fear,” she says quickly and without thinking. She turns to look at him. Green eyes flashing. “And I feel a small amount of excitement.”
“Excitement?” he says.
“The unknown.”
“But they say there is nothing there. They say there is only the uncrossable Western Sea. They insist that we know the entire world already, that there is nothing new to discover.”
“There are the stories you speak of,” she says.
“Stories that should never be repeated.”
“I know, my love, but what about the dark-skinned man in the tree-boat? And the Norseman?”
“Also not to be repeated,” he says.
“I know, my love.” She walks to the window, places her hands gently on the sill, and looks out. It is hot and bright, clean smelling. The sun is directly above. A tiny breeze moves from the sea to the land. There is a becalmed, midnight quiet in the courtyard. The sound of the sea is there but it does not remain in the conscious. It circles to the back and lurks with heartbeats, birdsong, and the wind in the leaves.
She pulls herself up into the open window frame and stands on the ledge.
Columbus leans back in his chair and watches. He smiles, takes a gulp of wine, nods to himself. He does not feel the urge to save her. She does not need saving. She certainly does not need warning. He finds this very interesting.
Beatriz begins to remove her clothing. Her dress, shoes, stockings, and undergarments all fall from the window. They drop the forty feet to the ground until she is naked. The warm flesh tones of her body contrast the harsh brightness of the day. The cool stone ledge is a luxury to her bare feet.
Columbus is bewitched. He begins to feel the strong warmth of love welling up inside him. What a woman to love. You have my complete attention, he thinks. I am watching you with all my heart.
Do you see me? she’s thinking. Do you see me standing on the edge of this world? I am your mistress, not your wife, and you should know it does not matter. But because I am your mistress, I am on the edge of your world. Do you see me standing on the edge of this life? Do you see me standing on the edge of what is accepted? I wish to be with you. Am I with you now? Am I?
She does not turn around.
“What if I was to jump?” she whispers.
“Perhaps, you would be dead.” He is standing directly behind her.
“And what you propose to do is so different?”
“Yes,” he says. “There is no edge of the world, there is only distance.”
“But there is the unknown.”
Columbus laughs.
She lifts her foot and there is a faint sweaty impression on the stone. She places her foot back inside the imprint.
“Each next moment is the unknown,” he says. “A moment ago I would not have dreamed you here on the ledge, without clothing, beautiful.”
Beatriz almost turns to face him but stops halfway. “Will you remember that for your defense against Las Palos?”
“Yes, I will remember it.”
“Good,” she says.
She turns around. Columbus lifts her off the ledge, moves her to the table, places her on top of the layers of charts. He begins to kiss her and she begins to whimper. It is the hot, dead space in the day. They bathe in the sweet scent of the sun. Their loving is slow and gentle and hazy. The only roughness is the near-empty bottle of wine that falls to the floor and breaks. And the charts. Beatriz perspires and there are areas of sweat where her body presses. The contour of her body is imprinted. The sweat lines from her buttocks carve a crease across the unknown area.
They are curled on the table, side by side, two cats in late-afternoon sun.
“When will you go to the university?”
“Tomorrow.”
“You will propose your journey to the scholars?”
“Yes, to the close-minded dead people,” Columbus says, smiling.
“But you will be careful? And treat them with the respect they require?”
“Yes. But it is hopeless. I know what they will find.”
“Don’t say that.”
“They have already decided but I must do this anyway. Perhaps I will sway a few in the process.”
“But if it is truly hopeless, why do you do it?”
“For the queen.”
“Oh,” Beatriz says, a coolness to her voice.
“The queen is the only hope I have. If she likes the idea and can see I have tried to obtain permission for the journey her way, perhaps she will overrule or just ignore the university. If I can convince her in the end, there is hope. Even then, it depends on the king and queen getting rid of the bloody Moors.”
“It seems such a long journey just to begin another long journey.”
“Yes, it does. But there is much profit to be made in this adventure.”
“Profit?” Beatriz says. “Surely profit is not the true reason you wish to sail across the sea.”
“Nothing is done for the simple love of doing. Nothing worthy anyway. There must be a profit of some kind or nothing would get done.”
“I do not wish to live in that world.” She moves like a sleek feline to the wall where a sword hangs and pulls it from its sheath. She thrusts it at him and kneels down. “Take this sword and plunge it into my heart. Take it!”
He takes the sword and places it on the floor.
“Can’t you see that profit and commerce make the world run? We have often spoken about the church and its
