realization of what that meant for their 'children.
'No, Jonathan, not that. I might be able to bear their being dead, but not that. Please, Jonathan, not that.'
He held her good hand and cradled her head in his arms. He held her while she cried, but did not cry himself. He had insisted Elaine come. If she had been safely at home, Blaine would not have had to go in search of her. It was his fault, his doing. Jonathan would not let himself cry. He didn't deserve it.
A scream cut the morning, a wordless wail that held all the pain in the world. The sound froze Jonathan, heart pounding in his chest. Feet clattered up the stairs. The sound seemed to release him. He stood, moving gently from the circle of Tereza's arms.
'What was that?' she asked.
He shook his head, but
Jonathan pushed through the people until he stood in the doorway. Fredric had dropped to his knees, head bowed. Randwulf stood to one side of the bed. His young face raw with grief. Silvanus sat in the narrow bed, holding Averil's limp body. He rocked her as he would a child, but her arms flopped with every movement like those of a broken doll.
Silvanus was saying something, over and over, too soft for Jonathan to hear. Konrad stood at the window, staring out at the morning light. His hands were clasped so hard behind his back, the veins corded in his forearms.
The white-haired doctor stood in the middle of the room. For a man that had seen a great deal of death, he seemed at a loss.
Jonathan took a deep breath and stepped into the room. He went to Konrad. 'What happened?'
Konrad shot him a quick, harsh glance out of the corners of his green eyes. 'She lost too much blood. Then the wound became inflamed. The fever burned her alive. No herb or potion that I had helped her.'
'What of her own potions that she brought with her?'
'She used the last on her father.'
Jonathan glanced at the bed. Everyone seemed stunned, unable or unwilling to do anything. He stepped forward, past the stupefied doctor. He could hear what Silvanus was muttering now.
'I couldn't save her. I couldn't save her. I couldn't save her. I couldn't save her.' It was a piteous litany. His voice squeezed tight with grief and guilt. Yes, Jonathan recognized the taste of guilt. It was too strong in his own mouth not to know it in others.
He placed a gentle hand on the elf's shoulder. Silvanus did not notice. He rocked his dead daughter in his arms as if her limp body were the center of the world. And for that one moment, perhaps it was.
Jonathan squeezed the elf's shoulder. 'Silvanus?' He made the name a question.
The elf gave a sobbing cough and looked up at him. Those golden eyes swam with tears. The tears looked like mercury sliding down his cheeks, as silver as the elf's hair was gold. Elves cried silver tears. The sight of it startled Jonathan down to the soles of his feet, tingling. The sight was astonishing, the grief unbearable.
'Silvanus. .' Words failed him. What could he say? I'm sorry wasn't enough. I grieve with you was a lie. He hadn't known Averil, not really. He'd have traded her life for Elaine's in a moment. 'There are no words, but I am deeply sorry for your loss.'
'I tried to raise her from the dead. All these years it came easily to me. But this time, when I would have given my whole soul for the power, it did not come. Why?'
Some questions had no answers, or at least none that we wanted to hear. 'I don't know, Silvanus. I don't know.'
He hugged her to his chest, his one good arm tight against her back. The missing arm was longer, and the stump helped hold her in place. The sight of the growing stump made Jonathan's stomach clench. Nausea burned at the back of his throat. He took a deep breath through his nose and swallowed. He would not let his own fears make this hideous scene worse.
'We have to tend the dead before dark,' the doctor said. His voice sounded ordinary enough. Jonathan wondered why he himself felt so startled. He had seen many scenes of grief before.
Silvanus shook his head, rocking faster. Averil's hand slapped the bedframe with a meaty thunk.
Every few moments; thunk-thunk-thunk. That one sound seemed worse than all the others.
Randwulf rushed forward, grabbing both the elf and his dead daughter in his arms. Hugging them both. He held them close and the awful sound stopped.
Randwulf's head was bent over Silvanus's shoulder. There was a large bump at the top of the boy's spine. Jonathan couldn't remember it being there before, when he saw Elaine heal the old wound.
He shook his head. Now was not the time.
'We have sent for the undertaker,' the doctor said.
Silvanus's head snapped up, rage sparkling through the tears. 'No, not yet.'
'We must have her out of doors by dark,' the doctor said.
'Why?' Silvanus asked.
Jonathan made a movement to attract the doctor's attention. He gave a small shake of his head. The doctor frowned, not seeming to understand.
Jonathan walked over and put a hand on his shoulder, directing him toward the door. 'I think we should give Silvanus a few moments alone with his grief.'
'But we can't have a dead body inside…'
'I know that,' Jonathan said softly, 'but it is an hour past sunup. We have time.'
The doctor shook his head, eyes wide with what Jonathan now recognized as fear. 'The undertaker is on his way. We must…'
Jonathan practically shoved the doctor through the door, pushing the crowd aside. When they were in the hallway, he spoke, low and urgent, 'They do not know that all dead in this cursed village rise to walk the night. And you will not be the one to tell them.'
The doctor's mouth made a little O of surprise. 'It is my duty to protect this town.'
'And a fine job you're doing. Now get out.'
The doctor sputtered, protesting. 'I am the doctor here. You are to find the source of this evil, but I am to protect the living.'
Thordin had come up. He stood at Jonathan's side, simply staring at the doctor. There was really nothing in the look that Jonathan found frightening. It was just Thordin, but the doctor paled.
'I think you had better leave,' Thordin said in a low, careful voice.
The doctor's eyes widened, then without another word, he fled down the stairs.
'You must be a great deal more frightening than I think you are,' Jonathan said.
Thordin shrugged. 'The doctor scares easy.'
'That he does,' Jonathan said. 'It might be interesting to find out why.'
They stared at each other for a few heartbeats. It was enough, no words needed. Thordin went to follow the doctor or perhaps to question him, Jonathan didn't care which. Who better to corrupt the dead and dying than a doctor? The village had only one. Who would question him?
He heard Tereza calling his name faintly through the other door. He opened the door with a smile that was all lies. Averil's death was one more reminder of their own loss.
'The girl's dead, isn't she?' Tereza asked.
Jonathan nodded, leaving the door half open behind him. 'I may be needed in the other room. Silvanus does not know …' He let the thought trail off.
'That all dead rise again as zombies,' she finished.
He sat on the edge of the bed, taking her offered hand.
'We must try and find their bodies, Jonathan. We can use fire to destroy them so they won't rise.'
Jonathan could not meet her eyes.
'Husband, look at me,' she said.
He raised his head and met her dark gaze. 'You were always braver than I.'
'I am more practical. That isn't the same thing at all, Jonathan. The thought of … of watching them burn. A new zombie looks living. It would be like burning them alive.'
