and his animal grunts. She must have thought of the impression he would make on the boarders.
Tomorrow I'd carry his meals up to our room. Poor Picolino, sleeping there next to me in your little iron bed. Although I pay for your room and board, they don't want you. People who are well don't like to see the sick. But don't you worry, pal. Even if I'm not as gentle as the El Callao girls, you'll always have me by you; something better than a friend-a crook who's adopted you and who'll do everything he can to keep you from dying like a dog.
Emile gave me several addresses, but there was no job for me anywhere. And twice I went to the hospital to try to get Picolino in. Nothing doing. According to them there were no empty beds; and his papers, saying he'd been let out of El Dorado, were no help at all. Yesterday they asked me how he came to be under my care and why, and what was his nationality and so on. When I told the little cunt of a clerk that the chief of El Dorado had put him in my charge and that I had undertaken to look after him, this is what the bastard answered: 'Well then, since he's been let out because you agreed to take care of him, all you have to do is keep him where you live and have him treated there. If you can't do that, you ought to have left him at El Dorado.'
When he asked for my address I gave him a false one. I didn't trust the jackass, a perfect example of the petty official who wants to throw his weight about.
I moved Picolino; I moved him quick. I was desperate, both for him and for me. I felt I couldn't stay at Emile's any longer; his wife was moaning about having to change Picolino's sheets every day. I did wash the dirty places every morning as well as I could in the washbasin, but they took a long time to dry and it was soon noticed. So I bought an iron and dried the places I had washed with it.
What was to be done? I couldn't be sure. One thing was certain-I had to find an answer quick. Now for the third time I'd tried to get him into a hospital with no result. It was eleven o'clock when we came out. Since that was the way things were, we'd have to set about it properly; I decided to devote the whole of that fine afternoon to my friend. I led him to the Calvario, a wonderful garden filled with tropical plants and flowers on a little hill plumb in the middle of Caracas.
Sitting there on a bench and admiring the splendid view, we ate _arepas_ with meat in them and drank a bottle of beer. Then I lit two cigarettes, one for Pico, one for me. It was hard for Picolino to smoke; he drooled on his cigarette. He felt this was an important moment and that I meant to tell him something that might hurt him badly. His eyes were full of anxiety and they seemed to say, 'Speak, speak right away. I can feel you've taken a big decision. Tell me; I beg you to tell me.' Yes, I could read all that in his eyes as plain as if it was written. It made me wretched, and I hesitated. At last I brought it out. 'Pico, it's three days now I've been trying to get you into a hospital. There's nothing to be done; they don't want you. You understand?'
'Yes,' said his eyes.
'On the other hand, we can't go to the French consulate without the risk of them asking the Venezuelans for an extradition order.' He shrugged his good shoulder. 'Listen: you've got to get well, and to get well you've got to be treated. That's the main thing. But you know I haven't got enough money to have you looked after. So this is what we'll do: we'll spend the evening together, and I'll take you to the cinema. Then tomorrow morning I'll take you to the Plaza Bolivar without any papers on you. There you lie at the foot of the statue and you don't stir. If they want you to stand or to sit up, you refuse. It's dead certain that after a minute they'll call a cop and he'll call an ambulance. I'll follow in a cab to see what hospital they take you to. Then I'll wait two days before coming to see you, and I'll come in visiting hours so as to mix with the crowd. The first time maybe I won't talk to you, but as I go past your bed I'll leave you some cigarettes and a little money. Okay? You agree?'
He put his good arm on my shoulder and looked straight into my face. His expression was an extraordinary mixture of sadness and gratitude. His throat contracted; he made a superhuman effort to force his twisted mouth to bring out a hoarse sound very like 'Yes, thank you.'
Next day, everything happened just as I had foretold. Less than a quarter of an hour after Picolino lay down at the foot of the Bolivar statue, three or four old men sitting under the shade of the trees told a cop. Twenty minutes later an ambulance came for him. I followed in a cab.
Two days later-no difficulty about mingling with the visitors-I found him in the third ward I went through. A piece of luck: he was between two very sick patients and I could talk to him a while without any risk. He was flushed with joy at seeing me, and maybe he jerked about a little too much.
'They look after you all right?'
He nodded yes.
I looked at the chart at the foot of his bed. 'Paraplegia or malaria with secondary complications. To be checked every two hours.' I left him six packs of cigarettes, matches and twenty bolivars in change.
'Bye, Pico!' Seeing his desperate and imploring eyes I added, 'Don't worry, pal; I'll come back and visit you.' I mustn't forget that I'd grown absolutely necessary to him. I was his one link with the world.
I'd been in Caracas for two weeks, and the hundred-bolIvar notes were disappearing fast. Fortunately I had decent clothes when I got to Caracas. I found a little room, cheap, though still too dear for me. There were no women anywhere on the horizon, but the girls of Caracas were lovely to look at, intelligent and full of life. The difficulty was getting to know them. This was 1946, and it wasn't the custom for women to sit in a cafe alone.
A big city has its secrets. To be able to take care of yourself, you have to know them; and to learn them, you have to know the teachers. And just who are these teachers of the streets? A whole mysterious tribe with their own language, laws, customs and vices, their own ways of managing to make enough to live on for twentyfour hours every day. Earning a living, as honestly as possible: that was the problem, and it wasn't easy.
Like all the others, I had my own little ways, often good for a hearty laugh and far from wicked. For example, one day I met a Colombian I'd known in El Dorado.
'What are you doing?'
He told me just then he was earning his living by running a lottery for a magnificent Cadillac.
'Hell, so you've made your fortune already? You must have, to own a Cadillac.'
He choked with laughter, then he explained the job. 'The Cadillac belongs to the director of a big bank. He drives himself, gets there at nine on the dot and parks like a good citizen a hundred or a hundred and fifty yards from the bank. There are two of us. One-not always the same, so we don't get spotted-follows him to the door of the bank where he sits on his ass all morning. If there's a hitch, a whistle you can't mistake for anything else; it's only happened once. So between the time he gets there and the time he goes, which is around one, we put an elegant white streamer on the Cadillac, with red letters saying, 'On sale here: tickets that may win you this Cadillac. Winning numbers the same as the Caracas lottery. Draw next month.''
'Man, that's a better-than-average racket. So you sell tickets for a Cadillac that isn't yours? Christ, what a nerve! What about the pigs?'
'They're never the same; and seeing as there's no vice in them, it never comes into their heads that maybe the deal's a swindle. If they get a little too interested we give them a ticket or two and off they go, dreaming perhaps they'll win a Cadillac. If you want to make a little money with us, come along and I'll introduce you to my partner.'
'You don't think it stinks a little, duping the poor?'
'Never on your sweet life. The tickets cost ten bolivars, so it's only well-off folk that can afford them. So there's no harm done.'
Once the partner had checked me out, there I was, all involved with this knavery. It's not very elegant, but you have to eat, sleep and be, if not well dressed, at least clean. And I had to hold on to my reserve as long as possible-the few diamonds I'd brought from El Dorado and two five-hundred-bolivar notes that I hoarded like a miser in my _plan_-a short aluminum tube that I shoved up my ass for safekeeping-just as if I were still in the clink. I'd never left off carrying my _plan_ inside me, for two reasons: my hotel was in a pretty rough part of the town, where I might be robbed; and if I carried money in my pocket, I might lose it. In any case, I'd been storing this tube up my ass for fourteen years now, so a year more or less didn't make much difference, and that way I was easy in my mind.
The selling of the lottery tickets lasted more than a fortnight, and it would be going on still but for the fact that one day a very eager customer bought two tickets and examined every detail of this marvelous car he dreamed of winning. All at once he straightened up and cried, 'But doesn't this car belong to Dr. Fulano, the bank director?'
Without batting an eyelid, the Colombian replied coolly, 'Just so. He put it into our hands to dispose of like this. He reckons a lottery will bring him in a better price than a straight sale.'
'Odd…,' said the customer.
'But above all, don't mention it to him,' the Colombian went on, still very calm. 'He made us promise to say nothing, because he'd find it awkward if it was known.'
'I can't understand it; it's really most unusual for a man of his kind.'
As soon as he'd got far enough away, moving in the direction of the bank, we whipped off the streamer and folded it up. The Colombian vanished, carrying it, and I went to the door of the bank to tell our partner we were breaking camp. Inside myself I was laughing like a hyena and I couldn't help hanging around near the door so I could catch what I expected would be the sequel. It came off, all right. Three minutes later, there was the director together with the suspicious customer. He was waving his arms wildly and walking so last I knew he was in a real fury.
They saw there was nobody left around the Cadillac, and surprised, no doubt, they came back slower, stopping at a cafe to have a drink at the bar. As the customer hadn't recognized me, I went in, too, to hear what they would say, for the laugh.
'By God, that was a nerve! Don't you think that was an infernal nerve, Dr. Fulano?'
But the owner of the Cadillac, who, like all good Caraqueflos, had a sense of humor, burst out laughing and said, 'When I think that if I had walked by they might have offered me a ticket for my own car! And that sometimes I'm so absentminded that I might actually have bought it. You must admit it makes you laugh.'
Naturally enough, that was the end of our lottery. The Colombians vanished. For my part, I'd made close to fifteen hundred bolivars, enough to live on for over a month; which was important.
The days went by, and it was not at all easy to find anything worthwhile to do. This was the period when Petain's supporters and the men who had collaborated with the Germans started reaching Venezuela from France, on the run from the justice of their own country. Since I didn't know enough about the possible distinction between collaborators and Petainists, I lumped them all together under the label of ex-Nazis. So I did not associate with them.
A month went by and nothing much happened. At El Callao I had never thought it would be so hard to get myself going. I was reduced to selling coffee pots from door to door; they were supposed to be specially designed for offices.
You look rather foolish walking about the streets with a coffee pot in your hand; and I was doing just that when I bumped into Paulo the Boxer, an old Montmartre acquaintance.
'Why, what do you know? You must be Paulo the…'
'And you're Papillon?'
He grabbed my arm and towed me into a cafe.
'Well, talk of coincidence-this is a coincidence, all right.'
