Past Reason Hated

of their sparkle. It wasn’t that she hadn’t mentioned his direction, but that her comment had been hopelessly pedestrian. The trouble was, she knew nothing about Shakespeare beyond what James himself had tried to teach her at school. What a confession! And she had forgotten all that. She hadn’t got far reading Twelfth Night at home, either; the language was too difficult for her to grasp much of what was going on. Next to James, with all his knowledge and enthusiasm, she felt inadequate.

James patted her arm. ‘It could have been better,’ he said. ‘Especially the pacing of the third act, that scene…

And Susan sat back with relief to listen. He hadn’t wanted intelligent comments after all, just someone to sound out his theories on. That she could do, and for the next twenty minutes he asked for it. It wasn’t so difficult when he got technical. She found she could easily remember scenes that had seemed dull, awkward or over- long, and James confirmed that there were good reasons for this, things he hoped to put right before the next performance tomorrow night.

Occasionally, she drifted off into thoughts of work: her interviews with Chalmers and Morley, the torn dress she hadn’t yet told Banks about, the damn nuisance of having even more vandals to chase. But she put her lack of concentration down to tiredness. After all, she had been up most of the night before, and all day.

At eleven twenty, glasses empty and no prospect of another drink, James asked if Susan fancied a nightcap back at his house. A drink and a talk with a friend… what could be wrong with that? She couldn’t put him off forever. Besides, she needed to relax. She still felt nervous about being alone with him, but she reached for her coat and followed him out into the night anyway. It was just for a drink, after all; she wasn’t going to let him seduce her.

They pulled up in the alley at the back of the house, where James parked his car, and entered through the back door. Susan made herself comfortable in the armchair by the fire, while James busied himself with drinks in the kitchen. Before he settled, he put a compact disc of Beethoven’s ‘Pastoral’ Symphony on.

‘Makes me think of spring,’ he said, sitting down. ‘Somehow, if I close my curtains and relax, I can almost believe winter’s over.’

‘It soon will be,’ Susan said. She felt herself relaxing, becoming warm and heavy-limbed.

‘Perhaps when the good weather comes we could take a ride out into the dale now and then?’ James suggested. ‘Or even venture a little further afield? A short hike and a pub lunch?’

‘Sounds marvellous,’ Susan murmured. ‘Believe it or not, I’ve hardly ever made time to take advantage of the countryside.’

‘You know what they say, “All work and no play”…’

Susan laughed. James sat on the floor by her knees, his shoulder resting against the armchair so he could look at her when they talked. It was closer than she would have liked just yet, but not uncomfortably so.

‘How’s business, anyway?’ he asked. ‘Caught any big criminals lately?’

Susan shook her head. Then she told him about the previous evening. ‘So we’re still hot on the trail of your vandals,’ she said, cupping the large glass of brandy in both hands. ‘They’re a strange lot. Can you imagine why any young yob would snip up a dress and then run away with some of the pieces?’

‘What?’

Susan explained what Marcia had told her and what she had seen.

‘So Marcia still has the dress, then?’ he said.

‘What’s left of it.’

‘What’s she going to do with it?’

‘I don’t know,’ Susan answered. She was feeling drowsy and vulnerable from the heat and the brandy. ‘I suppose I should take it in for analysis. You never know…’

‘Never know what?’

‘What you might find.’ She looked down at the top of his head. ‘Why are you so interested, anyway, James?’

‘Just curiosity, that’s all. I suppose they must have had some reason for doing it. Maybe one of them cut himself and used it as a bandage. Another drink?’

Susan looked at her glass. ‘No thanks, I’d better not. Already she felt that warmth, tiredness and alcohol were making her let her guard down more than she cared to, and she certainly didn’t want to lose control.

‘Busy day at the nick tomorrow?’

Susan laughed. ‘Who knows?’

‘Excuse me while I get one.’

‘Of course.’

While he was gone, Susan listened to the music. She could have sworn she heard a cuckoo in one section, but doubted that anyone as serious as Beethoven would use such a frivolous gimmick.

‘Perhaps one of them was a fetishist,’ James suggested, after he had sat down at her feet again.

‘And liked to wear only little bits of women’s clothes? Don’t be silly, James. I don’t see why you have to keep harping on about it. It’s nothing.’

‘You’d be surprised the things people like to dress up in.’

‘Like you in that policeman’s uniform that day?’

‘That’s different. That was just a joke.’

‘I didn’t mean to suggest you were kinky or anything,’ Susan said. ‘But didn’t you tell me you were just a little bit shy of making a direct approach to a woman?’

‘Yes, well… Acting’s in my blood, I suppose. Hamming it up. Maybe there are deep-rooted psychological reasons. I don’t really know.’ He shrugged.

Susan laughed. ‘You’re always doing melodramatic things like that. Dressing up, arranging for that singer in Mario’s. A real practical joker, aren’t you?’

‘I told you,’ James said, a little irritably. ‘I’m just a bit insecure. It helps.’

‘Especially with women?’

‘Yes.’

As soon as Susan realized what she had said, a tiny shiver went up her spine. She could feel the chill, as palpable as the winter night outside, fall between them. James fell silent and Susan sipped at her brandy, thinking, and not liking what she thought: James’s penchant for play-acting and dressing up, the vandals’ denial of breaking into the community centre, James’s attraction to Caroline, the burgundy dress. No, it couldn’t be. Not possibly. It was too absurd. But her thoughts suddenly spanned two cases. It was like hot-wiring a car; the engine jumped to life. Now she could think of at least one good reason why the dress had been cut up the way it had.

Before long, she became aware of a slight tickle up the side of her leg. She looked down and saw that James was touching her, very gently. She shifted in her seat – not too abruptly, she hoped – and he stopped.

The music ended and Susan finished what little she had left in her glass. ‘I’d better be going,’ she said, sitting forward in her chair.

‘Don’t go just yet,’ James said. ‘It’s been such a wonderful evening. I don’t want it to end.’

Susan laughed. Didn’t he feel the same unease she did? Maybe not. Better for her that he didn’t. She must act naturally, then investigate her vague fears later from a more secure position. Surely, she would then discover how absurd they were. No doubt the beer and brandy had caused her imagination to run wild. It was most important now, though, that she make an early exit without letting James see that she entertained any suspicions at all.

‘Don’t be such a romantic.’ She laughed. ‘There’ll be plenty of other evenings.’

She tried to sit up, but he was on his knees, blocking her way.

‘James!’

‘What’s the harm in it?’ he said, leaning forward towards her.

He put his hands on her shoulders and she pushed them off. ‘If this is what a first night does to you…’ she said, trying for a light tone. But she couldn’t think of a way to end her sentence.

Finally, he moved aside and she managed to get to her feet. She felt as if she were treading on thin ice. Did he know what she was beginning to suspect? How could he? Was it obvious that she was humouring him and trying to get out fast? All she knew was that she had to stay cool and get out of here. Maybe then she would be able to dismiss her fears. But she couldn’t stay, not after the frightening images had started in her mind. Crazy or not, she had to talk seriously to Banks about James, no matter how difficult it might be to swallow her pride and her feelings.

‘Don’t sulk,’ she said, tousling his hair. ‘It doesn’t suit you.’

‘Damn you!’ he said, jerking away from her touch. Anger flashed in his eyes. ‘What’s wrong with you? Don’t you think I’m man enough for you? You’re just like her, aren’t you?’

Susan felt as if she had been thrust under a cold shower. Every nerve-end tingled. She edged closer to the door. ‘Like who, James?’ she asked quietly.

He turned to face her, and she could see that he knew. It was too late. ‘You know damn well who I’m talking about, don’t you?’

‘I don’t even know what you’re talking about,’ Susan lied. Somehow, she thought, if she didn’t say the name, there was still a chance.

‘Don’t lie. You can’t fool me. I can tell. I can tell what you’re thinking. You’ve been toying with me, leading me on all this time, trying to get me to confess. It’s all been a game, hasn’t it?’ He moved quickly so that he was standing between Susan and the door.

‘Don’t be stupid,’ she said. ‘I don’t know what you mean. And move out of the way, please. I want to leave.’

Conran shook his head slowly. ‘You’re thinking about me and Caroline, aren’t you?’

There was no point pretending any longer. Susan looked at him and said, ‘You went to her, didn’t you? That night.’

‘It was an accident,’ Conran pleaded. ‘It was a ghastly accident.’

‘James, you’ve got to-’

‘No! That’s where you’re wrong. No, I don’t. It was all an accident. All that stupid bitch’s fault.’ And suddenly, he didn’t look like the James she knew any longer. Not at all like the James she knew and thought she trusted.

THREE

The four of them stood in Marcia Cunningham’s front room and looked at the remains of the dress.

‘Who would do something like that?’ Sandra asked.