the same. Whatever we are.” He gave me a mischievous smile. “Even if I stil think we’re vampires.”
In a way, he was right about it not mattering. Soon enough, we’d have to figure out who—or what—we were. So I relaxed into his arms and let my questions rest. For the moment, I al owed myself to just be, whatever I was —with Michael.
Chapter Seventeen
I did transform, though the change did not happen overnight. I discovered that, as I acknowledged the existence of my powers to myself, they grew.
A new El ie struggled to come into being sooner than I imagined possible, one that liked the gifts—the differences—that surged beneath the surface. Almost as if she’d been sleeping for a long, long time and had final y awakened.
At first, I managed to keep the two parts—the powerful nighttime self and the ordinary daytime self— completely separate. But then, my nocturnal side began to creep into the day. As I walked down the school hal ways, I felt the power race through my fingertips, and a war began to simmer beneath my seemingly normal surface. I knew I had the ability to see the other kids’ true identities and darkest secrets—and I itched to do it.
Sometimes, it was al I could do to stop myself from reaching out and touching them, even helping them with their secret problems. Was this compulsion part of whatever I was? It was heady, tempting stuff, and I could barely maintain the facade of the old El ie.
But I had to keep up appearances; otherwise my dual existence would unravel. This meant stopping for coffee with Ruth and having dinner with my parents, as wel as paying attention in class and laboring at my homework. As if nothing had changed. Even though I’d tried to keep my normal routines with Ruth—lunch every day, coffee after school on Fridays, even the Odeon—I knew that the veneer wasn’t without cracks. I had a whole life with Michael from midnight to five A.M.—not to mention a whole new secret self—and it made regular activities chal enging, to say the least. The role-playing made me feel exhausted and conflicted, particularly around Ruth, with whom I’d vowed to share everything.
One morning, after the ongoing torture of Miss Taunton’s class, I stopped in the bathroom on the way to calculus. I needed a minute alone to compose myself.
The bathroom looked empty, but as I washed my hands, I thought I heard an odd noise in the back stal . I turned off the water and waited a minute in silence. The total quiet made me doubt myself. I reached for the faucet to finish cleaning up when I heard a stifled sob.
The girl must have thought the stil ness signaled my departure, because the stal door slammed open a second later. Out stepped Piper.
I was so shocked to see a pretty, popular girl crying in the school bathroom stal that I froze. Girls like her never showed weakness, at least not during school. When I final y regained my composure, my compassion, and my manners, I asked, “Are you al right, Piper? Here, let me get you something.” I rushed over to the paper towel dispenser. Although Piper and I usual y ignored each other in school, we had long maintained a civil, albeit secretive, relationship outside of it.
The typical school Piper resurfaced, and she waved her hand dismissively as if I was her servant. “No, no, El ie. I’m fine. I’ve just got something in my eye.” I hated it when she reverted to her school behavior, as if I didn’t know the other side of her.
I caught a glimpse of her in the bathroom mirror as she patted down her face. A wayward eyelash could not possibly explain her swol en eyes, tear-streaked cheeks, and blotchy nose. If it had been any of her jerky friends, for whom I couldn’t muster up a shred of sympathy, I might have laughed at the lame excuse. But I couldn’t mock Piper under the circumstances.
“Come on, Piper. You look real y upset. Can I do anything to help?”
She stopped her ministrations and gave me a cold, hard stare. “Yes, you can.”
“What can I do?”
“Don’t tel anyone that you saw me in here crying.” And with that command, she pul ed out her makeup bag and started to powder her mottled face.
“Tel who? Ruth?”
“I don’t care about Ruth.” She waved her hand dismissively. Then her voice changed. “But everyone knows that you and Michael Chase are seeing each other. Don’t tel him, okay? He knows a lot of the guys. He could real y spread it around if he wanted to.”
Piper wouldn’t care so much if her friends weren’t the source of her tears. I was real y curious to know what they did to cow the indomitable Piper.
“Don’t worry, Piper. I won’t mention it to him or anyone else,” I lied. Then I handed her the paper towel I’d grabbed, brushing my fingers up against her hand ever so slightly.
The flash hit me hard. I saw Missy just inches from Piper’s face, as if I were Piper. Missy was screaming, her expression venomous. I felt Piper cringe in terror as words lashed out of Missy’s mouth like a whip.
“Who do you think you are? How dare you mess with my plans?” Missy shrieked.
“I’m sorry, Missy. I just think that we might be going too far,” Piper said. I sensed that it was real y tough for Piper to disagree with Missy, but for once, she felt compel ed to take a stand.
Piper shuddered as the malicious look faded from Missy’s face, only to be replaced by a smile. It seemed that she feared a grinning Missy more than an overtly malevolent one. “Real y? Too far?” Missy asked, mocking her.
“Yes,” Piper said, although her voice was weakening.
Missy kept smiling and started to circle Piper slowly, like a hawk about to attack its prey. There was someone else standing behind Missy, but I couldn’t see who it was. Because Piper didn’t dare take her eyes off Missy. “It suddenly occurred to me that you might be a better subject for my plan than the person I original y picked,” Missy final y said.
“Me?” Piper had to work hard to keep her voice steady.
Missy stopped circling and got right into Piper’s face. “Yes, you.”
