The kitchen table was almost covered with bottles and jars and ripped-open packets. Chrissie, wearing a plastic apron patterned with huge and improbably shiny fruit over her clothes, was methodical y emptying the enormous fridge-freezer that Richie had persuaded her into buying, only eight months ago, because he said that the girls would be so thril ed to have a dispenser in the door of a fridge that would, at the touch of a button, produce ice cubes, crushed ice or chil ed water.
At this moment, the fridge-freezer represented a bitter condensation of everything that Chrissie feared about the present and resented about the past. Monumental and gleaming, disgorging an apparently endless amount of parteaten things, extravagantly inessential things, outdated things and plain rubbish – how did a packet of strawberry-flavoured jel y shoelaces ever get in there? – the fridge seemed to Chrissie nothing but a stern reproach for years of rampant fol y, which in retrospect looked both repel ent and inexcusable. The jars of American-imported dil pickles, of French artisan mayonnaise, of Swiss jam made from organical y grown black cherries, made her feel like weeping with rage and regret. Especial y as Richie, who never drank chil ed water and disliked ice in his whisky, would have ignored everything in the fridge except basics like milk and butter.
She looked, with a kind of disgusted despair, at the outdated jar of black-truffle sauce in her hand. What had she been doing? Richie and the girls only ever ate ketchup. Who had it al been
‘Yikes,’ Amy said.
She stood in the kitchen doorway, an untidy sheaf of notes on A4 paper held against her with one arm, a mug in her other hand.
Chrissie put the jar down with a bang, beside a box of eggs and a smal irregular lump of something in a tired plastic wrapper.
‘We are eating everything I can salvage out of this,
Amy advanced to the table and surveyed everything on it. She put her mug down in the chaos and picked up the lump.
‘What’s this?’
‘Cheese?’
Amy gave a tentative squeeze.
‘Too squashy.’
‘Old cheese,’ Chrissie said.
Amy raised her arm and threw the lump in the direction of the bin.
‘Chuck.’
‘Don’t chuck anything,’ Chrissie said, ‘without showing me first.’
Amy glanced back at the table.
‘This is gross—’
‘Yes,’ Chrissie said, ‘I agree. It is gross. The possession of it, especial y in current circumstances, is gross. But we are not wasting it. We can’t.’
‘Maybe,’ Amy said unwisely, ‘when I get back, it’l al be gone.’
There was an abrupt and eloquent silence. Chrissie stood by the fridge, staring inside. Amy went across the kitchen, with as much insouciance as she could manage, and switched the kettle on.
Chrissie said, ‘Did you check it had water in it?’
Amy sighed. She switched the kettle off, put her papers down, carried the kettle to the sink, fil ed it, brought it back and switched it on again. Then she said, ‘It’s no good pretending I’m not going.’
Chrissie put a sliding pile of opened packets of delicatessen meats on the table.
‘No danger of
Amy waited. She looked down at her notes. Spanish quotations, her favourites underlined in red. Revision was hateful, but Spanish was, al the same, a satisfactory language to declaim out loud.
‘She rang me,’ Chrissie said.
Amy went back to the table to find her mug.
‘Tea?’
‘Did you hear me?’
‘Yes. Tea?’
‘No, thank you,’ Chrissie said. ‘She rang me to tel me that I wasn’t to worry about your staying improperly in her son’s flat, because you won’t be, you’l be staying with her.’
Amy got a box of tea bags out of the cupboard.
‘She’s cal ed Margaret. He’s cal ed Scott.’
Chrissie was silent.
‘It’s nothing to do with her,’ Amy said.
‘She thinks it is.’
‘Wel ,’ Amy said, pouring boiling water into her mug, ‘don’t worry, anyway. I’l do what suits me.’
‘You may wel not have a choice. Just as I don’t seem to have.’