Gewey nearly dropped the letter. He felt like a hammer had struck him between the eyes. He read the line again in disbelief, and then continued.
Gewey sat in silence. He felt as if his whole world had been stripped away. Why had his father never told him? This had been written when he was a baby, so surely there had been time. He felt confused and angry. None of it made sense. Why wait so long? Why the deception in the first place?
Gewey read the letter repeatedly, as if the words might change and his life would make sense again, but each time he found new unanswered questions. Finally, he stood up and ran out into the brisk night air. He felt dizzy and leaned against the porch. After a few minutes, he staggered back inside and went to bed. It would be several hours before sleep took him.
He went over his life in his mind, trying to remember some clue, some insight that might help him to understand, but came up with nothing. As far back as he could recall, his father had never been anything but that- his father. He tried to slow his mind and rid himself of his anger, remembering the love his father had always shown him, and the love Gewey felt for him in return.
Gewey fell asleep with one thought in his head: ‘Lee Starfinder,’ he thought. ‘Tomorrow I’ll go see Lee Starfinder. Maybe he has answers.’
That night, Gewey’s dreams were filled with horror. Visions of death and destruction swirled around him like a storm. Vast armies slaughtered each other, spilling oceans of blood. The sick and dying screamed out in agony. He tried not to look but could not turn away. Trying to force himself awake only took him deeper and into more terrifying visions. Just when he thought he could no longer take it, the world exploded into a great ball of flame. Slowly it burned away until there was nothing but utter darkness, so complete that he could
“Child,” it said. The sheer volume of the voice nearly split Gewey’s head in two. “Why do you resist?”
“Who are you?” asked Gewey. His own voice seemed weak and small.
“Who am I?” the voice shot back, almost mocking. “I am he who knows the answers to your questions. I am he who can give you what you seek.”
“I don’t understand,” said Gewey. “What questions?”
“I can tell you who you are, young one,” it replied. “The lies that surround you, the reason for your existence can be made clear. I can show you how to use your power to gain all you desire.”
Gewey’s mind reeled. He felt the malice and hatred in the voice, but was compelled to listen. He knew he shouldn’t, but he couldn’t help himself.
“You’re not real,” said Gewey finally. “You’re in my mind. I’m dreaming.”
“Of course you’re dreaming,” scoffed the voice. “But I
“Protecting me?” asked Gewey. “Protecting me from what?”
“It was
Suddenly another voice burst into his mind. “
Gewey felt as if a spell had been broken. “If you know me, then tell me who I am,” he said. “If you wish for me to join you, then send for me.”
“Of course,” answered the first voice. “Just tell me where you are, and you will be with me.”
“Don’t you know?” asked Gewey. “Aren’t you the one who brought me here?”
There was a long silence. Gewey felt the fury of the darkness press in.
“Tell me where you are, boy.” Its tone became threatening. “You cannot hide from me. I
The darkness pressed harder and harder. Gewey wanted to run, but there was nowhere to go-no ground beneath his feet and no light to run to. His limbs felt heavy as panic set in.
“You cannot run,” the voice laughed. “You are
The darkness was crushing down on him. Gewey could no longer move or speak.
“Give in,” said the voice. “You fight me for nothing. I can help you. I can give you all that you desire.”
Gewey let out a final, desperate scream. The voice laughed, then faded away.
Gewey woke up drenched in sweat, his heart pounding like a drum. He could still feel the weight of the