had barely survived the following winter. But when a new community of monks arrived, they took him in and cared for him. He was reluctant to speak to me until I gave him details, which only I could have known, about events in York during the rising and he was able to feel the Cerdician seal on my ring.
He had been close to Einar when he fell, had seen Martin brutally slain by the King and confirmed that Hereward had been taken alive — and flogged, he assumed, to death. Like many others, he thought his body had been buried by the Normans in a secret location to prevent it becoming a shrine to the English cause.
‘Like King Harold?’
‘Not exactly, my Lord Prince. Harold lies in an unmarked tomb in Waltham Abbey.’
‘How did he get there?’
‘Sire, it is said that Edith Swan-Neck returned to his makeshift grave on the beach near Senlac and took him to Waltham. The monks loyal to his memory keep his resting place a closely guarded secret. I am sure they will let you visit it.’
‘I will indeed visit him there and pray to his memory.’
Brave Wolnatius had little more detail to add. He wished me well and promised to be at my coronation when it happened. In return, I guaranteed him a place in my honour guard on that propitious day. As I left, I gave him a little silver to help with his care. He grabbed my arm and buried his face in my sleeve, sobbing like a child.
So this is what had become of one of our bravest housecarls: reduced to poverty. I resolved there and then to do all I could to help restore the pride of men like Wolnatius.
My first act was to rejoin my men at Peterborough and make my pilgrimage to Waltham to pay my respects to Harold’s remains.
I have never resented Harold’s decision to claim the throne. He was the right choice for England’s future security. With foes like Hardrada and William threatening our shores, my prospects as King would not have been promising. I would have been lucky to survive Stamford Bridge, let alone Senlac Ridge.
I knelt by Harold’s unmarked crypt for a long time, thinking about the desperate and brave decisions he had made. Should he have waited for more men to arrive in London in those fateful days before the battle, before heading for the coast? Perhaps he did act too quickly, but he was fearless; that was his strength. He took a gamble, as daring men do, and although it was a close-run thing, he paid with his life.
I knew I could never be like Harold or Hereward, but I also knew that their example could be a guiding light for me, which, coupled with my own gift for thoughtful and considered decisions, might allow me to find a way to lead others and make my mark.
As I left, I placed my hand on the plain, cold slab of his sarcophagus and vowed that one day I would pay homage in the same way to England’s other noble warrior, Hereward of Bourne.
The canons of Waltham, ever loyal to Harold’s and England’s memory, agreed that I could stay in Waltham for a while to plan my next move. I needed new allies; they were not difficult to find. William had many enemies, and my claim to the English throne made me a useful asset. I sent word to Flanders and to France and soon had a response.
Young King Philip of France had emerged from his weakened position as a boy-king to become a young ruler of great skill and tenacity and was keen to challenge William for control of Normandy. He offered me the formidable castle of Montreuil on the French coast, from where I could harass the Normans.
I took a ship from Maldon, but fortune once more deserted me. Not far off the coast of Essex, a ferocious easterly gale got up and pushed us relentlessly towards the sandbanks off Foulness. We ran aground and, within minutes, were in the water, losing most of my men and all of my silver.
I eventually made it back to Dunfermline, exhausted and thwarted once more. I was in my twenty-first year, but I felt like a boy again.
‘You can’t stay here,’ was Canmore’s blunt response when he received me. ‘I will give you a chest of silver, but you can’t stay in Scotland.’
Margaret pleaded my case.
‘William has gone to Normandy and taken Duncan with him. He won’t hear of Edgar’s return for months. Besides, when did you ever care about upsetting the King of England?’
‘I need time to build my forces. This Norman bastard is building castles all over England, and he can put navies to sea and cavalry on the march in great numbers; what I saw on the Tay was a force a Roman emperor would have been proud of. I fear no man, but I can’t let him take Scotland like he took England. As soon as he knows Edgar is here, he will be at my gates within the month.’
Margaret held me. She had tears in her eyes.
‘What will you do?’
I was desperate but knew I had to leave. My next decision was the making of me. Had I stayed in the King’s comfortable fortress at Dunfermline, I would have withered away, consumed by my own anger and regrets.
‘I am going to submit to William.’
‘No, Edgar! We tried that; you remember what it was like.’
‘I know, but I’m older and wiser now. I have to find a life for myself. I will submit, gain his trust and bide my time. I will learn from the Normans. They are all-conquering; I have to understand why.’
Canmore looked at me curiously.
‘That’s a clever move. I am not done with William yet. Learn from him — and when the time is right, we will meet again to see what can be gained for both of us.’
‘My Lord King, you have given me a refuge here. I will always be in your debt. Please take care of Margaret.’
The Queen rode with me all the way to the Forth, where one of Canmore’s ships was made ready to take me to France. He had granted me a small retinue and a not inconsiderable purse. I would travel well.
Margaret understood me better than anybody. Like many women who live obscured by the larger shadows of their menfolk, she knew that beneath the aura of masculinity that men are required to show, they are often vulnerable and anxious. She knew my weaknesses and had helped me overcome them throughout my childhood.
She used our journey together to help me even more.
‘You are not a mighty warlord like Malcolm, but you have great courage, a clever mind and excellent judgement. Have faith in yourself and trust your instincts.’
‘What will I do without you, Margaret?’
‘You will do well; I know it. You have great gifts and are decent and loyal. Those precious things are not given to many.’
Margaret’s words were a source of great strength to me. I knew she was not just being kind; she was a good judge of character and too thoughtful to fill me with false hopes.
When we parted, I held her tightly as she sobbed at the renewed pain of losing both a brother and a son and begged me to keep an eye on young Duncan in the Normans’ lair.
I wondered if I would ever see her again.
I left Scotland knowing I had to put the past behind me and abandon the fight to become the rightful King of England. That hope had been extinguished when Hereward and the Brotherhood accepted William as King in their struggle for liberty at Ely.
On that long voyage to Flanders, I steeled myself to the future and began to find a tenacity that had eluded me for so long.
5. Robert Shortboots
Robert Curthose had to live with the sobriquet ‘Shortboots’ all his life. The Normans like to attach monikers, either in mirth or ridicule, and, in truth, Robert was not very tall, so ‘Shortboots’ he became. Robert did not get on well with his father, or his father with him. They could not have been more different — Robert took after his diminutive and taciturn mother rather than his towering and domineering father.
He was King William’s firstborn and, even as a young man, became de facto Duke of Normandy while his father was busy massacring the English in his new domain.
