Murder in the Bastille

and later received a pardon. But the rumors in the Commissariat were never silenced. How Jean-Claude had called one day, asking to meet for coffee, “For old time’s sake,” he’d said. Loic had spit into the phone and refused. Two days later Jean-Claude had died in a terrorist explosion in Place Vendome. Sometimes, at night, he’d lay awake imagining what Jean-Claude had wanted to say. And all the things he could have said.

He pushed it away. And all the questions he couldn’t answer about the attack on Aimee. Yet his gut feeling bothered him. He’d check the file at the Commissariat once more, even though the Prefet wanted to close it. Somehow he felt he owed that to Jean-Claude.

But he couldn’t push away Marie. No matter how he’d tried.

He remembered his wife Marie’s blonde hair on the pillow, hearing his older daughter Danielle’s snoring from her room and the rumble of the hot water heater while he shaved.

That terrible day. And he asked himself why it had happened like it had. Why he hadn’t controlled himself.

But it all came back. Vivid. And his fault.

How he’d tried squirting Teracyl tooth gel on his toothbrush. Not even a dribble. He’d squeezed again. Nothing. Why hadn’t Marie gone shopping? He’d worked overtime every night that week.

Funny how small things could build up, cause an explosion.

It cried from the bassinet . . . the blot of life they’d made that wasn’t right, stained with its need for constant care. Their trisomique Down Syndrome baby. Its mewling, a feeble demand for help. More of an aberration than a baby.

Loic’s first son. His only son.

He always noticed the flattened back of the baby’s head, the slanting of his eyelids, and the gap between the baby’s first and second toes. Such tiny pink toes. Like perfect small rose pearls.

“Marie,” he’d said, “Alors! The stakeout took half the night, I’ve got piles of work on my desk and the Commissaire wants a meeting first thing. Can’t you at least get toothpaste?”

Marie stirred and batted an eye open. Small cries continued from the bassinet.

“Cheri . . . didn’t even hear you come in last night,” she said, her voice groggy.

The baby’s cries mounted.

“Pass me Guillaume,” she said.

She called it Guillaume, after his English relative, William. Insisted they christen it in church with the family, invite some men from the force and their close friends. Loic noticed the single, deep transverse crease on the tiny palms.

“Guillaume had a rough day yesterday,” she said cradling the baby who quieted immediately. “We went to the medecin, but he said it was just a cold.”

Loic bristled. He’d put in a twelve-hour shift. Half of it wasted in a dank abandoned warehouse on a stakeout, aggravating back pain from his old injury. These days, it seemed Guillaume was all she focused on. Surely she could have stopped for tooth gel? Marie’s gaze never lifted. All she had eyes for was the bundle in her arms.

“But Marie . . .”

“Shhhh,” she whispered, pointing to the closed eyes of the baby.

Loic had thrown the toothpaste, and then a dresser, against the wall. Danielle and Monique had run from their rooms, rubbing their eyes. The baby wailed. Loic’s mind had blanked out the hateful things he’d screamed.

But it was the look in Marie’s tired brown eyes that warned him. Fool that he was, he’d ignored it. That night he’d come home to an empty apartment. She’d packed up, hauled the children to her parents in Brittany, and told him to get therapy if he wanted to see them again.

He’d tried. She’d come once to Paris. But no matter how much they discussed it, Marie refused to put Guillaume in an institution. She’d chosen her mongoloid son over him. Though she told him, over and over, the opposite.

Now he was back in his apartment. His bloodshot eyes took in the packed boxes in the bare rooms. He needed to move to a smaller place, so he could send them more money.

He thought back to when he and Marie were happy here. He remembered Danielle’s first steps in the kitchen one Sunday. The yellow parakeet from the quai de la Megisserie he’d bought late Christmas Eve, rushing home from the Commissariat, and how Danielle and Monique’s eyes sparkled. For once, Daddy’s coming home late brought magic. They’d hung the cage in their bedroom, now empty except for the pink-bordered wallpaper.

He thought back to Marie’s excitement about his promotion; her proud smile and the fancy bottle of St. Emilion they shared on the roof after Danielle and Monique finally fell asleep. The wonderful time they’d had making a son. Marie’s warm skin and how her hair curled over the sheets.

The son who emerged, wrong, nine months later. Loic couldn’t stomach it. The psychologist said he suffered from guilt for chromosomes he had no control over, and grief for passing on the defect. Loic had told the psychologist to stuff his psychobabble up his ass where it might do him some good.

In Loic’s village, there’d been Hubert the Mongoloid, as they’d called him. Harmless, he’d worked in the laundry. Worked hard. The mongoloid’s father, an out-of-work prizefighter, drank away his winnings and beat Hubert up regularly on Saturday nights. And after the village mill closed, others beat him, too.

Loic knelt down and found a broken pink barrette in his daughter’s room. The movers found him sobbing, cross-legged on the floor, the barrette clutched in one hand and a bottle of cheap whiskey in the other.

Tuesday Evening

AIMEE HEARD FRANCE 2 news blaring from somewhere in the ward. A hoarse voice declared: “The Beast of Bastille may have claimed another victim late Monday night in a Bastille passage. Confusion reigned as investigators discovered Patric Vaduz, the twenty-eight-year-old alleged serial killer awaiting charges in the Commissariat, had been released due to incorrect procedure in the Proces-Verbal. Vaduz, rumored to be attending his mother’s funeral, has not been located.”

Stunned, Aimee grabbed for the bed rail. Where was the tele? Disoriented and dizzy, she pulled the hospital robe around her. When she located the source of the sound, she slid her feet onto the cold floor. She heard coughing, then a request for medication from somewhere behind her.

Was she in a ward or a room? She bumped into something, got caught on what felt like a plastic tube . . . an IV hookup?

Merde!

Or maybe it was a radio cord. Somehow she disentangled herself. She groped her way along the bed rail, barefoot, toward the source of the broadcast.

The newscaster continued

“France 2’s informant close to the investigation revealed that the female victim, discovered mid-afternoon rolled up in an old carpet in a courtyard, appeared to have been murdered in circumstances similar to those surrounding other victims of the Beast of Bastille. Though the particulars have not been released, rumor has it another victim was attacked in nearby Passage de la Boule Blanche. This victim remains in stable condition in the hospital. Names will not be released pending investigation and until next of kin are notified. Police offer no comment at this time other than that the investigation is proceeding.”

Conversation at the nurse’s station, interrupted by the pinging of bells, obscured the rest of the broadcast.

Aimee froze, terrified. Could that be her? She had to hear more. “Please could someone help me. . . .”

Her arm was gripped and someone steered her forward. “I’m a volunteer. Like to hear the evening news, eh? I’ll help you to the TV lobby.”

By the time Aimee reached the tele she’d controlled her shaking. The announcer continued: “Our correspondent spoke with an inhabitant of the passage who said ‘I saw this bloody shoe behind my neighbor’s old rug,’ said a quavering voice, ‘near my cat’s dish . . . bothered me, but then I saw the twisted leg of a woman sprawled in the corner. I thought she was Chinese. But it was just her bloodied jacket.’ ”

“I’m wanted downstairs, but if you need help, clap your hands to get the nurse’s attention,” the volunteer