“Really, Pena,” the vice-principal said, not unkindly. “You frightened me.” He opened a file and began to read. He did not speak again until Victor stood up. “Go into the washroom now and wash your face with cold water. I will tell no one what has happened here today.”
Everyone will know anyway, Victor thought; his eyes were bloodshot, his cheeks puffy. When he quietly took his seat in history class, the other pupils glanced over at him, but no one said anything. Nor did anyone mention it to him when class was over, or in the following weeks. He could not tell if his classmates’ silence was born of sympathy or contempt.
He had come that day to his first disillusionment. Until then he had cherished an unsupported conviction that he could be heroic under the right circumstances. In time of peril, he would risk his own life to save a woman or a child, he would brave flames or gunfire to help the helpless. But the vice-principal had shown him that Victor Pena was not the stuff of which heroes are made.
And now he was learning this lesson again-this time from a skinny woman with an unpleasant voice.
“My name is God,” Captain Pena told her that first day. “I am the Lord of Life and Death. Whatever I say will happen, that is what will happen. If you cherish any illusions about this, abandon them now. In this place there are no rules except the rules I make. If I decide you should live, you will live; if I decide you should die, you will die. The sooner you understand this, the easier it will go with you.”
“I want a lawyer,” the woman said. Even green Victor could see this was the wrong tone to take with the Captain.
“There are no lawyers,” he replied. “There are no laws. Now, what is your name?”
“My name is Maria Sanchez. Look at my birth certificate.”
“Your birth certificate is a fake.”
“No, it is not. I want to know why I have been brought here.”
“You have been brought here as a suspected terrorist.”
“For taking food to the church basement.”
“Food for whom?”
“For children orphaned by the war.”
“The children of terrorists, you mean. Sympathy for them is sympathy for terrorism.”
“They are children, and they will starve unless we feed them.”
“What is your name?”
“Maria Sanchez.”
Captain Pena got up and stood beside her. He unzipped his fly, pulled out his penis, and pressed it against her cheek. The woman jerked her head aside.
“Tell us your name right now.”
“Maria Sanchez. My name is Maria Sanchez.”
There was a bed along one wall, a narrow cot with only the metal springs showing. A mattress was brought in. The woman was stripped and secured by wrists and ankles to the bed frame. Captain Pena lowered his trousers and lay down on top of her. She screamed obscenities at the ceiling and tried to bite him.
Yunques yanked her head back by the hair.
The Captain had trouble entering her. The woman screamed and screamed, and Victor tried to look anywhere but at the bed, at the pale buttocks heaving up and down. A series of grunts signalled the end and then the Captain climbed off.
The woman was crying now, cursing him through the tears.
“I hope you are taking the pill,” he said matter-of-factly. “There are three more men here.”
The woman’s abdomen heaved. She let out a scream that tore into Victor like a machete.
“Tell us your name.”
The woman could not have answered even if she had wanted to. She was beyond the reach of the Captain’s words. He yelled at her several more times to reveal her name, but she only kept screaming.
Tito climbed on top of her.
She turned her head to the wall.
“Tell us your name and this will stop.”
“You are scum. I will tell you nothing.”
Yunques was next. It seemed to go on forever, the squeak of the springs and the cries she tried to suppress.
“What is your name?”
“Maria Sanchez. Please stop. Please don’t do this anymore.”
“It’s very easy. Tell us your name and it will stop.”
“I’ve told you my name. Maria Sanchez.”
The Captain snapped his fingers at Victor. In their excitement, the others had forgotten he was there. Now they looked at him, and Victor knew there was no escape. To hesitate would be death: he would be taken out and shot, or they would drown him in that tank full of piss and shit-at best, he would be delivered to Casarossa and shot by firing squad. He unbuckled his trousers and lay on top of the woman.
Her skin was scorching. She smelt like a wet dog. Victor’s penis was a tiny, fearful thing in his hand. He pretended to enter her. He humped up and down a few times. Then he groaned and climbed off.
If she revealed his fakery, he was dead.
But she did not. She cried behind her blindfold, and the small breasts quivered with each sob.
They raped her repeatedly over the next three days, Victor faking it each time, until they tired of her. By then she was becoming too swollen for them to enter.
“This is just the softening-up process,” Captain Pena told Victor in his office. “We don’t really expect them to talk during these preliminaries. It’s just to break their spirit. If she was a man, we’d make him eat shit. Then, when we begin the real pressure, they will know who they are dealing with.”
“But it’s illegal, isn’t it? I mean, it’s rape, isn’t it?”
“You saw what happened to Labredo. You think she would prefer the Labredo methods?”
“No. I’m just worried, you know, about the law.”
“‘In the defence of one’s country, there is no such thing as a crime.’ You know who said that?”
“The President?”
“Napoleon said that. The greatest warrior, the most enlightened ruler, who ever lived.” His uncle lit a cigarette and exhaled the smoke luxuriously. “Look, I don’t get any kick out of screwing this bitch. It’s just a technique, like any other. You afraid she’s going to tell someone?”
“I don’t know. I guess so.”
“She will tell no one. If she has a husband, he will disown her. If she does not have a husband and this gets out, she will never get one. I think you’re making a fundamental confusion,” his uncle said more softly.
“What is that, sir?”
“You are confusing what happens in here with our lives outside. Obviously, none of us is the kind of person who would do these things in the normal course of existence. It doesn’t reflect on who you are as a person. War is a separate reality.”
“Yes, sir.”
“If you have any questions, Victor, ask me now. I am your uncle and I want you to understand.”
“I do have one question, sir.”
“Go ahead.”
“Why are you so sure this woman is with the rebels?”
The Captain shrugged and exhaled a stream of smoke. “I’m not.”
SIX
The woman put up a struggle when they came for her each morning. She would curl up against the wall, she would kick out wildly, unseeing, but her attempts to evade them were hopeless. Lopez would simply punch her in
