The snowflake, nearly three centimetres in diameter, stayed on her wrist. She could see its intricate pattern, like the inside of a kaleidoscope, against her pale skin. She watched it melt and others take its place. Golden snowflakes were falling all around her, landing on her arms, her legs, her hair, and covering the ground like a carpet of silk.
Jessica stood up. She had never seen anything so beautiful in her life as this golden wood, in which the trees seemed almost to be growing before her eyes. She could see them breathing, their long, strong trunks swelling as they took in air, then relaxing as they breathed out again. She’d always known that trees breathed, all plants did, but had never thought she’d actually see it happening.
With each breath they grew a little taller. And were they singing? They were. The trees were singing to her, a soft, high-pitched, almost tuneless song, like the sound whales make when they call to each other across hundreds of miles of ocean. It was the sort of music you might hear among the stars.
Jessica turned on the spot, listening to the trees call to each other, knowing that if she stood here and listened hard, she might actually start to understand what they were saying. She realized she wasn’t afraid any more. There was nothing to be afraid of in a wood so beautiful. She took a step closer to the nearest tree and reached out. It was warm and soft, like the skin on a warm-blooded animal. She stroked it and felt the tree purr in response like a great cat.
From behind her came a low-pitched chuckle.
Jessica jumped round, her back against the cat-like tree. Someone was watching her. Inching her way round the tree, she began to back away. She’d long since left the path behind. She had only the light from the golden trees to guide her, and the soft iridescence of the snow at her feet. She backed up against another tree and worked her way round it. She almost stumbled but managed to get her balance in time.
Still watching her. And getting closer. She couldn’t see them but she could hear them breathing, smell the bitter, stale male odour.
A twig snapped behind her and Jessica began to run. She didn’t dare look back, just kept on running, over rough ground, dodging undergrowth, finding narrow paths through the trees. She saw the lights and the thought flashed into her head that this might be fresh danger. She didn’t process it in time. She’d reached the clearing, had stumbled among them, before she saw the clowns.
I was in no hurry to get back to polite conversation with strangers, but when I reached the back garden I saw the fire-pit was still lit. Two men and a girl were gathered on fold-up chairs around it. Maybe I’d join them. I’d heard people say smokers were the best fun at a social gathering. I was just drawing close when Evi appeared at the back door wearing a blue woollen coat speckled with snowflakes.
‘There you are, Laura,’ she said. ‘Any chance of you walking me to my car?’
Evi didn’t strike me as the sort of woman who’d need walking to her car, disabled or not, so I figured she wanted to talk to me.
‘You’re leaving early,’ I said. ‘Or is it over? Does everybody have to get up for milking?’
‘No, it’s just me,’ she said. ‘I don’t really do late nights.’
Evi’s car was parked next to mine. I held the door open for her and she looked around, as though checking we were alone.
‘Are you OK?’ I asked.
She didn’t reply for a moment, letting her eyes fall to the steering wheel then raising them back to me again. In the dim light they looked black. Then, ‘Do you know much about IT, Laura?’ she said. ‘From a forensic point of view?’
‘A bit,’ I replied. ‘What’s happened?’
Other people were leaving too and drawing closer. I walked round and climbed into the passenger seat of Evi’s car.
‘There’s another track twenty yards down the lane,’ I said, as she turned to me in surprise. ‘You can drop me off there.’
We drove for a second or two and then she pulled over. The car behind passed us.
‘I didn’t realize you knew Nick,’ Evi said.
‘I met him a few days ago at the hospital,’ I replied. ‘Do you know him well?’
‘We both studied medicine here,’ she told me. ‘Nick was a couple of years ahead of me.’ Her face relaxed into a smile. ‘He came to see me yesterday. He’s worried about the suicides too. He was quite relieved to know someone is doing something.’
Worried about the suicides? Or worried that Evi might be on to him?
‘You didn’t tell him about me?’ I asked.
Her eyes opened wider. ‘No, of course not,’ she said. ‘I just thought you might have done.’
I shook my head firmly. ‘No, I haven’t. He can’t know.’ If there was one thing Joesbury and the others had impressed upon me it was that no one could know who I was. Trust no one.
‘So your IT problem,’ I said. ‘What’s that all about?’
She turned away again, tapped her fingers on the steering wheel, glanced into the mirror. There was nothing behind us, just dark shapes all around. ‘I may have a stalker,’ she said eventually. ‘But the police don’t take me terribly seriously. They think I’m a bit … hysterical.’
Hysterical wasn’t a word I’d use to describe Evi Oliver. Anxious maybe, suffering from poor health certainly, but otherwise very considered in everything she said and did.
‘What sort of stalker?’ I asked.
‘I had a couple of threatening emails the other night,’ she told me. ‘But when I tried to forward them on to the detective I’ve been speaking to, they disappeared from my system completely. Now he doubts whether they ever existed in the first place and I’m beginning to think the same thing myself.’
‘They vanished when you forwarded them on?’
‘Yes. Is that possible?’
‘Perfectly,’ I said. ‘They’ll have had some sort of malware built into them that activated when you tried to forward, save or print them. They’ll still be on your computer somewhere. We have forensic computer analysts in the Met. They’d find them in a jiffy.’
‘I’m not sure it merits the attention of the Metropolitan Police,’ said Evi. ‘But it’s good to know I might not be losing it completely.’
‘You and I probably shouldn’t exchange any more emails until we know your system’s secure,’ I said.
She sighed and looked worried.
‘Is that it?’ I asked, pretty certain it wasn’t.
She shook her head. ‘There were phone calls too,’ she said. ‘A lot of them, one after the other on my mobile and my home phone. Nobody there. Number withheld.’
‘When?’ I asked again.
‘Two nights ago,’ she said. ‘Wednesday was when they started. There were more last night and tonight before I came out. I switched both phones off in the end. Which doesn’t really work given that I have to be on call next week.’
‘It’s a real pain,’ I said. ‘But it happens, sadly. You may have to change your numbers and hope they give up. It’s probably not personal.’
Evi said nothing. She didn’t have to. The way she tucked both thumbs into her mouth in a desperate, childlike gesture spoke volumes. I waited, counting in my head. At thirty, she looked at me again.
‘That’s just it,’ she said. ‘It’s very personal.’
Three clowns were sitting around a slatted wooden crate that served as a tea table. A teapot, white with coloured spots, and three matching cups and saucers stood on the crate. There was a plate of cupcakes and another of sandwiches. One clown, dressed in a patchwork jumpsuit, was being mother. It had huge, white, skeletal hands that shook as it raised the pot and poured. All three clowns giggled when the steaming liquid spilled on to the ground. The clown with the teapot had three tufts of scarlet hair that bounced up and down as he laughed. The lower third of his white face was all teeth.
The clown who took the outstretched teacup wore the red and yellow checked suit of an eccentric English country squire. His face seemed twice the normal length, tapering into a sharp point that reached almost to his breastbone. His hair was long, wild and a lurid green.
The third clown seemed enormous. It wore layer after layer of multicoloured ruff round its neck and red and
