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the good stuff out of us. It was never stated as his intent, but I’m sure he looked at the bright side that way. This band took up so much of his time from the moment we were signed to the time we got our record done and got out on the road that it must have driven him insane. There was nothing that he could do to mold us or move the process along at all, because anything he tried failed. The band’s overall attitude and extracurricular activities opposed the right direction at every turn.

Out of desperation, Tom did manage to get us into the studio with Manny Charlton, the guitarist for Nazareth, at Sound City Studios on Whitsett and Moorpark out in the Valley. We worked on demos of “November Rain,” which was about eighteen minutes long in its original version, so needless to say we really needed to sit down and focus on arranging it. We also worked on “Don’t Cry,” and almost every other song that made it onto Appetite, except “Sweet Child o’ Mine,” because we hadn’t written that one yet. It was a great day in any case, hanging out in the studio recording everything live in this great big room. Unfortunately, Manny didn’t feel right. The demos sounded great, but they were just that: a bunch of great demo tapes. We knew enough about ourselves to know it wasn’t okay.

SHORTLY AFTERWARD WE MOVED INTO the Stiefel house, as we came to call it, a brand-new home in a gated community called Laughlin Park located way out in Griffith Park near the Observatory, the Greek Theater, and the L.A. Zoo. It was way out in East Hollywood, about a twenty-minute drive from where we used to live. That doesn’t seem like much, but since none of us had cars, this became the most unsocial period we ever knew.

We were stuck out there in a new house, in a new complex, in the woods. There were two bedrooms upstairs—one was Axl’s and one was Steven’s and Izzy and I shared a bedroom downstairs… due to our “shared interests.” We lived there for four or five months but had little furniture to speak of; we had beds, one table, and a couple of chairs in the entire house. Axl somehow managed to conjure up a proper bed, a lamp, and a dresser from somewhere: his room was a well-equipped oasis guarded by a padlock, but the rest of the place was basically empty. The lighting situation was equally meager: there was one lamp in Izzy’s and my room, an overhead light in the dining room, and no lights in the living room or above the stairs or in any of the hallways. The entire time we lived there, it looked as if someone was about to move in.

We did have a fireplace, and since we never bothered to buy lamps, once the sun went down, we lit fires and generally restricted ourselves to the living room or the kitchen, which also had an overhead light. We were so out of our element: for once we were living in a neighborhood where household items weren’t available for free on the street, in other people’s trash. The upside was that we were in such a far-off residential area that when we didn’t feel like playing acoustics, we could jam all night on our electric guitars. And if we’d owned practice amps we probably would have.

The drug lifestyle was a dominant reality in our lives, and it played a major role in everything we did at that point. Once it showed signs of wear, there was definitely light at the end of the tunnel… whether we liked it or not. It was obvious to us all that the free and easy overindulgent smack days we’d enjoyed in West Hollywood were done: we’d run out of money, most of the shit on the street had gone dry, and because of our new address, we were at the mercy of the only drug dealer willing to travel. It was not good at all: what had been very fun a short time ago was now a major pain in the ass. Unfortunately, we were in no shape to just up and quit and forget about it. We were forced to be conscientious and frugal as we strove to scale ourselves back.

When we did score, Izzy and I wrote a lot because back then heroin was a great catalyst for us. I thought it was the coolest of all the drugs because it made me feel really at ease with everything; it melted away my inhibitions and insecurities. On smack, I was cool and confident so collaborating was easy. As soon as we’d get high, Izzy and I would start jamming and working out ideas, just trading riffs and chords back and forth. Something always seemed to come out of it naturally, it seemed so inspired.

I HAVE A WAY OF SITTING DOWN WITH the guitar and coming up with these hard-to-play riffs; they’re unorthodox fingerings of simple melodies. It’s my way of getting into playing or finding something interesting to do as opposed to just practicing scales. To this day, I still do it; rather than doing obvious “exercises,” I invent runs of my own design that both loosen up my fingers and keep my ears engaged, because if practicing doesn’t sound good, why bother with it at all.

That is what I was doing one night as Izzy sat down on the floor to join me.

“Hey, what is that?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” I said. “Just fucking around.”

“Keep doing it.”

He came up with some chords and since Duff was there, he came up with a bass line, as Steven planned out his drum beat. Within an hour my little guitar exercise had become something else.

Axl didn’t leave his room that night, but he was just as much a part of the creative process as the rest of us: he sat up there and listened to everything we were doing and was inspired to write lyrics that were complete by the next afternoon. They became an ode to his girlfriend and future first wife, Erin Everly, daughter of Don Everly of the Everly Brothers.

We’d found a rehearsal studio in Burbank called Burbank Studios, which was nothing more than a big warehouse owned by this old Asian couple, which is where we really started to work on the preproduction for Appetite, perfecting the songs we’d already demoed. At our next session, we worked our new song into a complete movement: we wrote a bridge, added a guitar solo, and so it became “Sweet Child o’ Mine.”

That was all fine and well, but we still didn’t have a producer. Tom came up with the idea to try out Spencer Proffer, who’d worked with Tina Turner, Quiet Riot, and W.A.S.P., who Axl liked a lot back in the day, so we went for it. We took our gear down to Pasha Studios, which was where Spencer operated out of at the time and we agreed to work on “Sweet Child” together as a test. Spencer was a great guy; he was actually the one who suggested that the song needed a dramatic breakdown before its ultimate finale. He was right… but we had no idea what we wanted to do there. All of us sat around the control room, listening to it over and over, devoid of a clue.

“Where do we go?” Axl said, more to himself than the rest of us. “Where do we go now?… Where do we go?”

“Hey,” Spencer said, turning the music down. “Why don’t you just try singing that?”

And so became that dramatic breakdown.

We worked up a solid demo of “Sweet Child,” and worked with Spencer on demos for about half the tunes on Appetite, but by the end of the process we just didn’t feel confident that he was the producer for us, so our quest continued.

IT WASN’T LOOKING GOOD—I’M SURE Tom was at his wit’s end, but right at the breaking point, we found a manager. Technically, we were supposed to be managed by Stiefel and company, whose house we were living in, but since neither Tom nor we had any interaction with them, we continued to take meetings with potential managers. The one that stuck to the wall so to speak was Alan Niven, a guy who knew right away what he was walking into by working with us.

Izzy and I met Alan at a bar and I could barely keep my eyes open sitting there on my stool, but that didn’t seem to bother Alan at all. From the start he thrived on the reckless energy of our band and was excited to get us over the initial hump that had stalled us on our way to recording and touring and becoming a professional entity. I was very jaded and, as I mentioned, I was very paranoid about anyone who aimed to get inside our circle. But I respected Alan before I even met him: he was the architect behind the Sex Pistols’ signing with EMI so I knew that he had skills. He was a charming, raffish New Zealander who took to Izzy right off the bat and knew that we were worth the effort. Alan didn’t try to exert his will in the creative arena—he left that to us—he just did what he did best: marketing and management; that was his forte.

Alan met everyone while we were still working with Spencer down at Pasha and listened to all of the demos we’d done and decided that we should take those takes, add a live audience track, and release it all as a live EP. He thought it was essential for us to get some product out while we still had a strong buzz in the industry; it would keep the excitement alive while we recorded our full-length album.

We came up with the idea of releasing the EP on our own label, which we insisted was financed by Geffen. It would appear to be a “live” EP on an “indie” label but in truth it wouldn’t be either. We called the label Uzi Suicide