“Nine years—oh, that’s ridiculous, you would have been eight years old!”
“Seven,” said Nick.
The word was simple and cold, like dropping a stone into deep water. Nick threw his knife up and caught it: It made a thin tearing sound, as if it was ripping the very air into pieces.
She always forgot he was more than a year younger than she was, younger than Jamie. Of course, demons lived forever. He was impossibly old as well.
He’d been human for barely sixteen years, though. If you could call him human at all.
“What—” Mae heard her voice shake and forced it steady. “So this miracle knife, could it cut a diamond?”
“To the heart,” Nick said, taking a certain slow, cold delight in the words. “It can cut through bones like butter.”
“And that’s better than being able to change the weather.”
Nick frowned. “That sort of thing comes naturally to me,” he said. “The weather. Power over things like fire. Water. Blood. This was a spell, and it wasn’t easy.” He gave that glinting deadly blade what Mae was disturbed to realize might be a longing look, and then flicked it closed. “I have power,” he said softly. “I don’t have control.”
“You can learn,” Mae told him, equally softly. She felt like she was speaking low so she wouldn’t attract Fate’s attention. She didn’t want to think of what would happen if Nick couldn’t learn control.
“You owe me, right?” Nick demanded.
Mae stared. “What?”
“I mean,” Nick went on in a rough voice, “Alan and me, we helped out last time, and we’re here again now. I’ll help Jamie. So you owe—”
“Yes, I owe you!” Mae interrupted, stung for reasons she wasn’t sure she should examine all that closely. “What do you
“I want your help,” he said.
For a tall guy, Nick was very good at keeping pace with her, used to measuring his steps for someone slower than he was. He obviously wasn’t expecting her to stop dead, though, and when she did he took several long strides and then wheeled back around to face her. Mae had seen him circling a threat the same way, watching for a weakness, waiting for his chance to attack.
“How on earth,” Mae said, too shocked to even try and be tactful, “can I possibly help you?”
Nick looked annoyed, as if she was missing something incredibly obvious instead of being understandably confused about the fact that he had gone insane and was talking nonsense. He looked out over the river, jaw set tight, and said, “I want you to teach me how to act human.”
“Oh,” Mae breathed, stunned and softer than the morning wind. She wasn’t even sure if he heard her. She swallowed painfully, feeling as if the breath were a bit of broken glass placed on her tongue, and asked in a scraped-raw voice, “Why?”
He glanced away from the river and back at her. “For Alan.”
His tone supplied the
“He risked a lot for me,” Nick continued slowly. “I owe him. I don’t know why he did what he did, but I don’t want him to regret it.”
“It’s about owing him?” asked Mae, her voice still sounding weak and almost lost to the rising wind.
Nick shrugged. “What else would it be about?”
He viewed what Alan had done for him as a debt that had to be paid and nothing more. He saw no other reason to be human.
“Why ask me? Why not go to Alan?”
“You’re good at that sort of thing,” Nick said. “Alan isn’t, not when he’s telling the truth. He grew up with me and Mum, and he never learned how to be like the other humans. He just learned to lie to them.”
Mae recalled Alan talking blithely about dead bodies in the trees.
“All right,” she said. “I can understand that. But I’m sure he’d like to help. Why sneak over to my house when the dawn chorus has barely got started on the tambourines? Why do you want it to be a secret?”
“Because I want to lie to him and I can’t!” Nick shouted. “Because it’s all going wrong and he keeps looking at me. He’s afraid of what I’ll do, and he’s sorry he ever freed me.”
So something had gone wrong between Nick and his brother, then. Something had gone badly wrong.
All Mae could think of to say was, “I’m sure he’s not sorry.”
“He won’t be,” Nick said with vicious emphasis, not as if he was hoping it was true but as if he was insisting it would be. “Because you’re going to help me. You’re going to teach me ways to seem human and he’ll think I did it on my own, that I’m what he wants me to be, and he’ll be
He stopped pacing then and stood as still as a predator that had caught sight of his prey and did not want to startle it. He reached out as if he was going to touch her—he’d wrapped her hair around his wrist, once—but he did not.
His voice crackled like a low-burning fire, sounding stranger than ever mingled with the murmurs of the river.
“If you can make Alan happy,” he promised, “I’ll give you anything you want.”
Mae straightened a little, feeling better for being even a fraction of an inch taller.