From the very bottom of her backpack, with her tampons and birth control bills and condoms, she pulled out a small tin. Ivy had searched her room many times for drugs, and Maddie had gotten better about hiding them.
It wasn’t like she was taking them all the time. She really wanted to make Ivy proud of her, to stay off the stuff, to help.
But what could she do? Ivy was the strong one. She kept them in the pretty house, made sure they had clients who didn’t hurt them, had found ways to make more money than Maddie could have imagined when she first started hooking to support her drug habit.
She didn’t want to be that desperate girl again, selling her body for drugs. But Ivy’s priority was her sister. Maddie wouldn’t be surprised if Ivy never came back. If she just disappeared with Sara.
Tears rolled down her cheeks.
She opened the tin. Six little blue pills left. She took two, swallowed them with water from the sink. The phones sat dead at the bottom, reminding her that Nicole was also dead.
The tub filled quickly, and Maddie turned off the water. It was too hot; she waited a minute for the water to cool and the happy pills to work.
She leaned against the bathroom door.
Jocelyn and Chris were still talking.
“You can’t trust her,” Chris said.
“She’s just like me.”
“No she’s not!” Chris said something else, quietly, that Maddie couldn’t hear. Then she caught, “… never have done that.”
“I would have done anything to survive,” Jocelyn said. “If Cathy hadn’t found me when she did-I understand Ivy. I’m not giving up on her.”
“If she doesn’t go to the police first thing in the morning and tell them everything she knows, you have to walk away. You’re hurting, I see it every night. I can’t stand to see you suffer like this.”
“You’ve been my rock, Chris. But-don’t tell Ivy you knew from the beginning. I told her once that we didn’t have secrets, but I don’t think she processed that I shared everything with you.”
“She doesn’t have to know when I knew.”
Jocelyn mumbled something, then Chris said, “If Sara makes a statement about her father, no court would place her with him. I don’t want you getting in trouble for being an accessory after the fact.”
“Stop sounding like a lawyer. Kirk Edmonds is a powerful, wealthy man with people who will support him. Powerful people get away with unspeakable crimes. You know that, Chris.”
“And you don’t think that Ivy has been lying about him?”
“No, I don’t.”
“You have more faith in that girl than I do.”
Maddie bit her hand to keep from crying. Men with pretty faces were just as mean as ugly men.
Her head felt light, but she was so sad. She took one more pill, wanting to bury the sorrow.
She slid into the water. It was still hot, but tolerable. She didn’t want to listen to any more talk, she didn’t want to hear any doubts.
Ivy had saved her over and over again. Without her, Maddie would have been dead long ago.
She put her earbuds in and listened to Evanescence, the soulful, heart-wrenching sounds soothing and comforting.
Slowly, she relaxed, forgot the Taylors, forgot her pain, forgot that someone wanted her dead.
When Ivy walked Sara into the church, peace touched her heart and she knew immediately she’d done the right thing. Why hadn’t she come to Father Paul right after the fire?
She found it ironic that the only person she truly trusted with Sara was a man of God. Father Paul had given her hope when she had none, and for that, she owed him her life.
Sara walked through the small, old church with a sense of awe. Ivy watched her sister relax, comfortable and safe.
Father Paul stood next to Ivy. He was a diminutive man of seventy whose presence belied his stature. The first time she saw him, six years ago, she thought she’d seen a halo over his head. She’d dismissed that as a hallucination from anger and fear, but an she looked at him now, his serene expression gave her a rare glimpse of true peace.
“I’ll watch over her,” he said.
“Thank you,” she whispered, her voice cracking. “I don’t-”
“Shh, child.”
Ivy walked down the empty aisle to where Sara stood in front of a statue of a saint. “Listen to Father Paul,” she told Sara.
Sara hugged her tightly. “It’s going to be okay, Ivy. God’s going to protect us. He answered my prayers and brought me to you, and I’m going to pray every minute that you’re safe.”
Ivy didn’t have the heart to tell Sara that God didn’t care about them. If he did, he would have thrown a lightning bolt through the heart of Kirk Edmonds the first time he raped his oldest daughter. But if her beliefs calmed Sara, that gave Ivy some relief.
Father Paul caught her eye. He didn’t say anything else; he didn’t need to. She left without looking back.
St. Anne’s wasn’t far from where Ivy had lived, but the two neighborhoods were vastly different. Father Paul’s church was in a depressed area northwest of the Capitol center while Ivy’s house on Hawthorne was in a pocket of well-kept homes surrounded by businesses that still managed to keep their doors open.
Marti North was the pastor of His Grace Church, a small church and preschool wedged between two larger buildings. Growing up, Ivy had never known there were female ministers, and maybe that’s why she was drawn to the small, struggling church. His Grace was the opposite in every way to her father’s opulent worship center, from the gender of the pastor to the size and quality of the structure to the color of the parishioners.
Ivy didn’t like to dwell on the fact that the people she trusted the most were in the same profession as her father. As Marti would say,
Ivy stared at the dark building and realized she didn’t know where Marti lived. It was in the area, but it wasn’t at the church. It was after midnight, she didn’t want to wake her up. Nicole had trusted Marti with Mina, and so did Ivy. Maybe it was better this way, to let her sleep and Ivy would handle the police on her own.
Ivy turned the car around and drove the four blocks to the burned remains of her house on Hawthorne Street.
She parked down the street and walked half a block. Even though the fire had been extinguished forty-eight hours ago, the scent of charred wood hung in the still, hot air. As she neared, she thought the house looked particularly dark because of the shadows; when she stood across the street she realized that the house was simply gone.
It had burned almost completely to the ground, only the shell remaining.
Everything she owned, everything she’d saved, thousands of dollars in cash, passports, identification, and the video that would have yielded her another ten thousand to give them a jumpstart in Canada … gone.
By the time she returned to Jocelyn’s car, the tears were falling.
Ivy smelled death the moment she stepped into the hotel room.
Bile rose in her throat, the sickening scent of blood mixed making her gag.
Blood sprayed everywhere. Jocelyn’s husband was on the floor closest to the door, his throat slit. Arcs of blood slashed the puke green walls and sickly gold carpets. His eyes didn’t look real anymore, clouded and lifeless. How long had he been dead?
Jocelyn’s body was curled into a ball at the foot of the bed. Ivy went over to her, squatted, tears burning her eyes when she saw what the killer had done to the person who’d tried to help her.
She was unrecognizable.
“Joce-” Ivy closed her eyes, breathed through her mouth so she wouldn’t throw up.
How had the killer gotten in? The hotel was supposed to be secure! Wouldn’t he be on tape? Why didn’t they
