Untamed

I opened my eyes and turned to my right, moving deosil, or clockwise, around the circle to the south, where I stopped. 'It heats us and keeps us safe and warm. I call fire to my circle.' I smiled as the air around me warmed with the second element.

Moving again to my right, I stopped next in the west. 'It washes us and quenches us. I call water to my circle.' Right away I felt the cool of invisible waves against my legs. Smiling, I moved to stand in front of Aphrodite.

'Ready?' I asked her.

She nodded and closed her eyes and raised the green candle that represented her element.

'It sustains us and surrounds us. I call earth to my circle.' I flicked the lighter and held the little flame to the candle.

'Ow, shit!' Aphrodite cried. She dropped the candle as if it had stung her. It shattered against the wood floor at her feet. When her eyes lifted from looking at the ruined glass and candle mess, I saw that they were filled with tears. 'I've lost it.' Her voice was little more than a whisper as the tears spilled over and down her cheeks. 'Nyx took it away from me. I knew she would. I knew I wasn't good enough for her to gift me with an affinity for something as amazing as the element earth.'

'I don't believe that's what's happened,' I said.

'But you saw it. I'm not earth anymore. Nyx won't let me represent the element,' she sobbed.

'I don't mean that you still have your earth affinity. What I mean is I don't think Nyx took it away from you because you're not worthy.'

'But I'm not,' Aphrodite said brokenly.

'I just don't believe that. Here, let me show you.'

I took a small step back from her. This time without Aphrodite's candle, I said, 'It sustains and surrounds us. I call earth to my circle.'

The scents and sounds of a spring meadow instantly surrounded me. Trying to ignore the fact that what I was doing was making Aphrodite cry even harder, I walked to the center of my invisible circle and called the last of the five elements to me. 'It is what we are before we're born, and what we eventually return to. I call spirit to my circle.' My soul sang within me as the final element filled me.

Holding tightly to the power that always came to me when I evoked the elements, I raised my arms over my head. I tilted my head up, seeing not the ceiling over me, but imagining through it to the velvet darkness of the all- encompassing night sky. And I prayed—not the way my mom and her husband, the step-loser, pray, all filled with fake humbleness and with lots of decorative amens and whatnot. I didn't change who I was when I prayed. I talked to my Goddess just like I would talk to my grandma or my best friend.

I like to believe Nyx appreciates my honesty.

'Nyx, from this place of power you have given me, I ask that you hear my prayer. Aphrodite has lost a lot, and I don't think that's because you don't care about her anymore. I think there's something else going on here, and I really wish you'd let her know that you're still with her—no matter what.'

Nothing happened. I drew a deep breath and centered myself again. I'd heard Nyx's voice before. I mean, sometimes she actually talked to me. Sometimes I just got feelings about things. Either would be okay right now, I added that little part of my prayer silently. Then I tried to concentrate even harder. I closed my eyes and listened so hard within that I was squidging my eyes and holding my breath. Actually, I was listening so hard, I almost didn't hear Aphrodite's shocked gasp.

I opened my eyes, and my mouth flopped open along with them.

Floating between Aphrodite and me was the shimmering silver image of a beautiful woman. Later, when Aphrodite and I tried to describe to each other exactly what she'd looked like, we realized we couldn't remember any details except that we both said she'd looked like spirit suddenly made visible—which really wasn't any description at all.

'Nyx!' I said.

The Goddess smiled at me, and I thought my heart would pound out of my chest with happiness. 'Greetings, my u-we-tsi-a-ge-ya' she said, using the Cherokee word for 'daughter,' just like my grandma often did. 'You were right to call me. You should follow your true instinct more often, Zoey. It will never lead you wrong.'

Then she turned to Aphrodite, who, with a sob, dropped to her knees before the Goddess.

'Do not weep, my precious child.' Nyx's ethereal hand reached out, and like a beautiful dream given substance, she caressed Aphrodite's cheek.

'Forgive me, Nyx!' she cried. 'I've done so many stupid things, and made so many mistakes. I'm sorry for all of it. I really am. I don't blame you for taking away my Mark and my earth affinity. I know I don't deserve either of them.'

'Daughter, you misunderstand me. I didn't remove your Mark. It was the strength of your humanity that burned it away, just as it was the strength of your humanity that saved Stevie Rae. Whether you like it or not, you will always be more sublimely human than anything else, which is part of why I love you so deeply. But do not think that you are only a human now, my child. You are more than that, but exactly what that means, you must discover—and choose—for yourself.' The Goddess took Aphrodite's hand and lifted her to her feet. 'I want you to understand that the earth affinity was never yours, daughter. You simply held it in safekeeping for Stevie Rae. You see, the earth could not truly live within her until her humanity had been restored. You were who I trusted to keep that precious gift safe, as well as the vessel through which Stevie Rae's humanity was returned to her.'

'So you're not punishing me?' Aphrodite said.

'No, daughter. You punish yourself enough without any addition from me,' Nyx said gently.

'And you don't hate me?' Aphrodite whispered.

Nyx's smile was radiant and sad. 'As I have already said, I love you, Aphrodite. I always will.'

This time I knew the tears that washed down Aphrodite's face were tears of joy.

'You both have a long road before you. Much of it you will travel together. Depend upon one another. Listen to your instincts. Trust the still, small voice within each of you.'

The Goddess turned to me. 'U-we-tsi-a-ge-ya, there is great danger ahead.'

'I know. You can't want this war.'

'I don't, daughter. Though that is not the danger of which I speak.'

'But if you don't want the war, why don't you just stop it? Neferet has to listen to you! She has to do what you command!' I said, not sure why I was suddenly feeling so frantic, especially when the Goddess was gazing at me serenely.

Instead of answering me, Nyx asked a question of her own. 'Do you know what it is that is the greatest gift I have ever given my children?'

I thought hard, but my mind seemed to be a jumble of crossword puzzle thoughts and fragments of the truth.

Aphrodite's voice sounded strong and clear: 'Free will.'

Nyx smiled. 'Exactly correct, daughter. And once I give a gift, I never take it away. The gift becomes the person, and were I to step in and command obedience, especially in the form of extracting affinities, I would destroy the person.'

'But maybe Neferet would listen to you if you spoke to her like you're speaking to us now. She's your High Priestess,' I said. 'She's supposed to listen to you.'

'It grieves me, but Neferet has chosen to no longer hear me. This is the danger of which I wish to warn you. Neferet has her mind tuned to another voice, one that has been whispering to her for a very long time. I hoped her love for me would drown out the other, but it has not. Zoey, Aphrodite is clever about many things. When she said that power changes, she was right. Power always changes the bearer of it and those who are closest to her, though people who believe it always corrupts think too simplistically.'

As she'd been talking, I noticed waves of brightness had begun to shiver through Nyx's body, like moon- kissed mist rising from a field, and her image was getting harder and harder to see.

'Wait! Don't go yet,' I cried. 'I have so many questions.'

'Life will reveal to you the choices you must make to answer them,' she said.

'But you say that Neferet has been listening to someone else's voice. Does that mean she isn't your High