Untamed

'Heath,' I whispered his name, utterly horrified at what I'd caused. 'I'm so—'

But he wasn't done. 'But I knew you weren't dead because I could feel some of what was happening to you.' He grimaced. 'Some of what he was making you feel. Then I didn't know anything except my soul had a hole in it in the place where you had been. I still feel like there's a part of me missing. A big part of me. It hurts all the time. Every day.' He closed his eyes against the pain and shook his head. 'You didn't even call me.'

'I wanted to,' I said miserably.

'Oh, wait. You did text-message me this morning. Thanks so much for that,' he said sarcastically.

'Heath, I wanted to talk to you. I just couldn't. I was . . .' I paused, trying to figure out how I could possibly explain Loren to him in just a few short public sentences. But there was no way to explain. Not like this. Not here. So instead I could only say, 'I was wrong. I'm sorry.'

He shook his head again. 'Sorry isn't good enough, Zo. Not this time. Not about this. You know how you said that I only loved you and wanted you so much because of our Imprint?'

'Yes.' I braced myself for him to tell me the truth of it—that he'd never really loved me and never really wanted me, and he was glad he was rid of me and my stupid, painful Imprint.

'I told you when you said it you were wrong. You're still wrong. I fell in love with you in third grade. I loved you then. I love you and want you now; I probably will forever.' Heath's eyes were bright with unshed tears. 'But I don't ever want to see you again. Loving you hurts too much, Zoey.'

Heath walked slowly back to Casey. When he got to her table, she said something too soft for me to hear. He nodded, and then, without one glance back at me, Casey wound her arm through his and the two of them left their food sitting uneaten on the table and Heath walked out of my life.

CHAPTER 19

I didn't say anything as Aphrodite grabbed my arm, hauled me to my feet, and led me out of Charlie's Chicken. Darius took one look at us and was out of the car in a nanosecond.

'Where is the danger!' he snapped.

Aphrodite shook her head. 'Not danger—ex-boyfriend drama. Let's just get out of here.'

Darius made a grunting noise and got back in the car. Aphrodite shoved me in the backseat. I didn't know I was crying until Aphrodite, juggling a grumbling Maleficent, passed a handful of Kleenex across the seat.

'You're all snotty and your makeup is seriously running,' she said.

'Thanks,' I mumbled, and blew my nose.

'Is she all right?' Darius asked, glancing in the rearview mirror at me.

'She'll be okay. Normal ex-boyfriend crap sucks. What happened to her in there was definitely not normal and, well, that double sucks.'

'Don't talk about me like I'm not here.' I sniffled and wiped my eyes.

'So you're going to be all right?' Darius repeated, this time talking to me.

'If she says no, will you go back and kill that stupid boy?' Aphrodite asked.

A little bubble of laughter escaped from my surprised mouth. 'I don't want him killed, and I'm going to be okay.'

Aphrodite shrugged. 'Suit yourself, but I think the boy needs killing.' Then she tugged on Darius's arm and pointed at the strip mall we were approaching. 'Honey, would you pull in there to the RadioShack? My stupid iPod Touch has been messing up, and I want to grab a new one.'

'Okay with you?' Darius asked me.

'No problem. I need some time to get myself together before we get to school. But, uh, would you stay in the car with me?'

'Of course, Priestess.' Darius's kind smile in the rearview mirror made me feel guilty.

'I'll be back in like two seconds. Hang on to Maleficent for me.' Aphrodite tossed the big cat at Darius and then practically ran into RadioShack.

After situating Aphrodite's hissing beast, Darius looked over the back of the seat at me. 'I could speak with the boy if you'd like me to.'

'No, but thanks.' I blew my nose again and wiped my face. 'He had every right to be pissed. I messed up.'

'Humans who get involved with vampyres can be overly sensitive,' Darius said, obviously choosing his words carefully. 'Being the human consort of a vampyre, especially a powerful High Priestess, is a difficult path.'

'I'm not a vampyre and I'm not a High Priestess,' I said, feeling utterly overwhelmed. 'I'm just a fledgling,'

Darius hesitated, obviously wondering how much he should say to me. It was only when Aphrodite got back into the car, clutching her bogus iPod Touch package, that he finally spoke.

'Zoey, you should keep in mind that High Priestesses aren't born overnight. They begin to come into their own even when they are fledglings. Their power builds early. Your power is building, Priestess. You are far from just a normal fledgling and you always will be. So your actions will have the ability to profoundly affect others.'

'You know, I was just starting to get a handle on this 'wow I'm so different' thing, and now I feel like I'm drowning in it.'

Aphrodite resituated Maleficent on her lap and then turned in her seat so that she could meet my eyes. 'Yeah, being extra-special isn't as great as you'd think it would be, huh?'

I expected her to give me one of her sarcastic, bitchy 'told ya so' smirks, but instead her eyes were filled with understanding.

'You're being really nice,' I said.

'That's because you're a bad influence on me,' she said. 'But I try to look on the bright side.'

'Bright side?'

'The bright side is that almost everyone thinks I'm still a terrible hag from hell,' she said, smiling happily and nuzzling her cat.

'I think you're spectacular,' Darius said, reaching over to pet Maleficent, who started to purr.

'And you are absolutely right.' She leaned over and, smashing the complaining cat between them, kissed him noisily on the cheek.

I made gagging noises and pretended to throw up in my tissue wad, but I smiled as Aphrodite winked at me, and I did feel just a little bit better. At least it's over, I told myself. Erik hates me. Stark is dead, and even if he undeads, I'm just going to help him get his feet on the undead ground. That's it. So after that nasty confrontation with Heath, I'm definitely finished with boyfriend issues for a good, long time.

Naturally I was late for drama class. By shifting my schedule around, I'd been put in an upper-level drama class, which was really okay. I'd been in Drama II at South Intermediate High School when I'd been Marked, and I liked drama (onstage, not off). Okay, that didn't mean I was a particularly good actress, but I tried. Of course, changing hours stuck me in a class with a new group of kids. I stood in the doorway, trying to figure out where to sit and really, really not wanting to interrupt Erik (Professor Night?) in the middle of his lecture about Shakespearean plays.

'Just have a seat anywhere, Zoey.' Erik spoke without even glancing in my direction. His voice was brisk and professional and even a little boring. In other words, he sounded just exactly like a teacher. No, I do not have a clue how he knew I was lurking in the doorway.

I hurried into the room and sat at the first empty desk I found. Sadly it was in the front. I nodded to Becca Adams, who was sitting right behind me. She nodded back, but was clearly distracted by her need to stare at Erik. I didn't really know Becca very well. She was blond and pretty, as per the norm for fledglings at the House of Night (there seemed to be five blondes for every 'normal' kid), and she'd recently joined the Dark Daughters. I think I remember seeing her hang around with a couple of Aphrodite's old friends, but I didn't have any particular opinion of her one way or another. Of course, her craning her head around me and drooling at Erik wasn't exactly endearing her to me.