react.
Nikki had moved things off Don and filled Detective Caparella in on the twin murder cases she was working and her belief the killing was meant to shut her down. “Any idea who would do that?” he asked.
“Detective, I’ve spent ten years trying to answer that question. Trust me. My life is about nothing else but finding that out and bringing him down.” Appearing satisfied, he made a few more notes, asked her to e-mail him a copy of the case files that were relevant, and that was that.
Lauren Parry wrapped her exam in record time and managed to get Don’s body removed before Rook could emerge from the back bedroom and be confronted again by the nude mystery man on the floor. “How did it go?” Nikki asked when he finally appeared.
He gave her a cool, appraising stare. “Only tough as hell.” He bit off the words. Rook’s initial relief had been joined by an anger that floated a mere inch beneath the surface. “You know how hard it is to find fifty different ways to say, ‘I don’t know’? And I’m a fucking writer.”
A ballistics technician passed by to flag a hole where lead shot had bored into the oak bookcase beside them. Heat drew Rook over near the piano to find as much privacy as she could in a room full of detectives and evidence collectors. Even though he went along, Rook’s arm felt stiff to her, and she said, “I know this is a big piece to swallow.”
“Big? For once, Nikki, I am speechless.”
“I get that, but…”
“But what?” His hurt, confusion, apprehension, and-yes, anger-came all rolled up in two small words.
“This isn’t what it looks like.”
“That’s usually my line.” But he wasn’t amused. “What is it, then?”
“Complicated,” she said.
“I can do complicated.” He waited, but she didn’t speak. Nikki was flat-out at a loss as to where to begin and anxious about where it would likely go once she started. Instead, she looked over at the red stain on the entry rug where Don’s head had landed and he’d bled out-and she said nothing. Rook’s patience gave. “OK, look. You’ve got your keys to my place, right? Best thing to do now is to let Raley and Ochoa take you over there for a shower and some sleep.”
“You’re not coming?”
He didn’t have a cop switch, so he hid in logistics. “I’ll hang out here to make sure the place gets locked up when all this is finished.”
She repeated, “You’re not coming?”
“I’ll call your super. Jerzy should be able to cover that hole in the door.”
“Thanks,” she said but laced it with edge and sarcasm. “Comforting.”
“What do you want, Nikki?” Wading one step deeper into dangerous waters, he said, “I don’t know what the hell to do just now. You’re giving me nothing, and frankly, all I’m doing is getting more pissed off.”
“So this is all about you? After the night I just had?”
“No,” he said, “the one thing I can be sure of is that this is all about you.”
“Very glib, Rook. Excellent. Jot that in your cute little Moleskine. You can use it later. Or maybe refer to it someday when you want to remember exactly what you said to me that tore the fabric.” She reached in her gym bag and came up with the keys to his loft. “Catch.”
He snagged them on the downward arc. They bit into his palm when he closed his fist around them. “You’re kicking me out?”
“My mess. I’ll clean it up.”
Rook felt the full gravity of that statement. And its broad exclusion. He searched her face but saw only a cold mask. So he pocketed the keys and left.
Nikki made it a point not to watch him walk out. Or to notice Raley and Ochoa, who would have absorbed their encounter from across the room like it was some scene from a silent movie requiring no subtitles, and would pretend not to be gawking, even though they were.
As she flopped into the easy chair beside the piano, Nikki found herself reliving a night ten years before, in fine detail. Just like back then, dazed, empty, and terribly alone, she watched a Forensics team work that same apartment from the same perspective. Surrounded by broken glass and toppled furnishings, Nikki felt as shaken as any earthquake could cause her to feel, making the very ground under her feet suspect and untrustworthy.
The twin Murder Boards gave her no better sense of grounding as she sat alone in the bull pen before sunup, on her second cup of coffee, studying the dual case displays from a chair in the middle of the room. Nikki had been there almost three hours. Unable to sleep after ECU and Forensics wrapped and Jerzy had screwed a square of plywood over the blast hole, Heat showered and hitched a ride uptown to the Two-oh in the blue-and-white the commander of the Thirteenth Precinct had posted outside her building as a courtesy.
The boards read exactly as they had when Heat left the squad room the night before, except she had updated them with a new section for a third homicide: Don’s. It took massive emotional effort for Heat to push aside-for now-the pain of his death so she could concentrate on solving it. She drew a separate box in green marker to delineate Don’s area. Beneath his name and time of death, the bullets were: “Shotgun.” “Unknown Male Shooter,” with the sketchy physical description of height and weight, “Taxi Escape,” and the words she despised writing, “At Large.”
Evidence did not connect Don’s killing to the others. Common sense did. That’s why she put Don up there with her mother and Nicole Bernardin. Experience had taught the detective to mistrust coincidence. She knew she was the target and that the attack had come after she started digging into the other two murders. That answered one of the questions still posted up there, “Why now?” The bigger one that remained preceded it: “Why?”
That would lead to “Who?” Or so she hoped.
Nikki heard the rumble of a subway, but there was none nearby. The venetian blinds clanked against the metal window frames and the fluorescents began to sway gently in the overheads. She heard an auxiliary secretary up the hall go “Whoo!” and someone else called out, “Aftershock!” Nikki watched the blinds settle and turned back to the boards, wishing that somehow the mini-quake had made something shake loose.
This exercise of hers, patiently waiting out the Murder Board to reveal a solution or, at least, a connection, usually paid off. Far from metaphysical, there was no incense or any incantations involved. And it wasn’t like playing Ouija, either. The practice was simply a means of quieting her mind and studying the puzzle pieces to let her subconscious find a fit. And, indeed, something up there was trying to speak to Nikki, but it eluded her. What was she missing? Heat began to blame herself for not having a quiet mind, but she stopped. “No self-reproach,” she whispered. If Nikki Heat had one ally she needed to rely on and keep positive, it was herself.
Heat needed to keep her focus, even amid the storm.
That was the beauty of the wall Rook derided. Rook, grousing about her ability to compartmentalize when that very skill was what made her so successful at clearing cases in a whirlwind. She tried to put Rook out of her mind. What she did not need right then was distraction. Want to know what a real wall is, Mr. Rook? Check this out.
Her solitude got broken by a loyal squad. Detective Feller rolled in an hour and a half early, just behind Raley and Ochoa, whom she had said good night to at her apartment at two that morning. Randall Feller had already put out personal calls and texts to his undercover pals in the NYPD Taxi Squad to be extra vigilant looking for the missing cab with the front-end damage and two bullet holes in the windshield. So far, no sighting. Roach checked for any call backs on the advisory they had posted overnight to hospital ERs, walk-in clinics, and pharmacies about gunshot victims or bleeders purchasing first aid or painkillers in quantity.
Soon the entire squad gathered for an early showing; everyone except Sharon Hinesburg, who was late again. As they assembled around the boards for an update, Heat checked out the glass office but found Captain Irons inside, going over CompStat sheets with a red pencil. Maybe, she decided, the Iron Man had dropped off his punch at a farther corner that morning. Nikki began without her, knowing they’d manage.
Heat began with Don’s murder, which they all knew about, so she gave it a quick summary. Nobody asked questions. They all knew the sensitivities and, like Nikki, were eager to move on to other matters.
Uniforms working Nicole’s Inwood street said neighbors saw a carpet cleaning van there recently. “The eyewits couldn’t recall a company name, but since it coincided with the search and time of death, I want Feller and Rhymer to go there for follow-up interviews. Just get what you can. Color of van, lettering, anything.
“Still waiting on toxicology,” she continued, putting another question mark on the board beside it.
