keep out of sight. They’ll go for us if they see us. Once they have finished Fuentes they’ll probably clear off, then we can beat it when it gets quieter.”
The uproar continued upstairs. Shots, yells and tramping of feet. Suddenly a full-throated roar went up, followed immediately by a high scream of terror.
“They’ve got him,” Quentin said, running to the doorway and leaning over the barrels, trying to see up the stairs.
Myra crouched lower on the floor, shutting out the snarling roar of the crowd as it surged forward. Then, above the noise, she heard Quentin shout, “Look out… look out!” She saw him trying to get away from the door, his hands shielding his face. She could see his eyes, very large and frightened. Then a blinding flash came just outside the door and she became enveloped in dust and bricks. She was quite conscious of what was happening around her. She saw Quentin’s body lifted as if by a giant’s hand and tossed across the cellar. She went to him on her hands and knees. When she got close, she stopped, her hand going to her mouth. The bomb had made him like some horrible nightmare of torn blood and flesh. She scrambled to her feet and ran away from him. The force of the explosion numbed her mind. She couldn’t think. She just wanted to get away from that poor, mutilated body. She found herself crawling up the broken staircase. The woodwork creaked under her weight, but she kept on until she reached the top. The hall was in a complete shambles. Soldiers lay about the floor in big crimson pools.
She wandered into the lounge. One of the bombs had exploded in there. Furniture was scattered and broken. Glass from mirrors and windows lay on the floor. Plaster and dust covered everything with a coat of white. Opposite her, pinned by bayonets to the door, was the General. His head hung on his chest, and the front of his white uniform was blotched with blood. She put her hands to her face and ran blindly out of the room.
At that moment a small party of natives, bent on loot, came in from the garden. They closed in on her like a hungry pack of wolves, their hands seeking and their eyes maddened with lust for her. She was more aware of the overpowering reek of their bodies as they struggled round her than her own terror. She was conscious of thinking: “So he was wrong. I knew he was wrong. This couldn’t have been planned. God wouldn’t let this happen to me if He could stop it.”
One huge native managed to pull her away from the others and he tossed her across his back, threatening the others with the General’s revolver. He began edging away towards the stairs.
She said to herself: “He is only going to do what Lacey did. Only this time it will be more sincere. He won’t pretend that he is a beautiful man, and I shan’t pretend that Havana is the place of love.” She watched the floor move swiftly under big, black, naked feet. Dangling over his shoulder, almost upside down, she had a unique view of the hotel lounge. She found that she was laughing, because it was all rather funny. The group of natives huddled together, their eyes hungry and disappointed. All wanting her, but because this big one had the gun, they just had to stand back and do without.
She said to the black feet: “I know what you want. I am a woman of the world. I had to come to Havana to find out about it, but I know. I know exactly what you will do to me when you have got me alone. It won’t be long now.” Then she thought hopefully: “I wonder if I shall die tonight?”
Obviously no one will blame her for thinking and talking like this, as the accumulation of circumstances had been too much for her reason.
VIGIL
George came in around two o’clock. He stood just inside the little room with the door open behind him.
Alfy sat on the one chair in the room, close to the empty hearth. He sat very limply, with his hands thrust deep into his trouser pockets. He didn’t look up when George came in. More than anything, he wanted to be alone. He didn’t have to pretend when he was alone. George made it difficult for him. It wouldn’t do to let George see that he couldn’t take it. Anyway, it was getting a little too much for him to pretend any more, even with George in the room.
George came in and shut the door. It wasn’t that George wanted to stay, he didn’t; but his conscience wouldn’t let him go. He sat on the edge of the table and fumbled for a cigarette. The scrape of the match on the box made Alfy turn his head a little.
He said, “You needn’t bother.”
“I guess I’ll hang around. It don’t seem right to go,” George said ponderously, dragging down a lungful of smoke. “It’s long, ain’t it?”
Alfy moved his feet restlessly. He wanted to avoid talking about it. “Listen,” he said, “you don’t have to tell me. You don’t have to say anything about it. If you think for a moment, you’d know that nothing you say could be new to me.”
George looked at him and then shifted his eyes. There was a long pause, then Alfy said, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that.”
“Sure, that’s all right,” George said hurriedly. “I guess I wasn’t thinking.”
“That’s right. You weren’t thinkin’.”
“Maybe I’d better go,” George said. He sounded so miserable that Alfy couldn’t send him away.
“No, you stay. It’s all right that you stay.”
“Well, I’d like to. I wouldn’t care to be far away in case—”
Alfy winced. This was going to be worse than he thought. He said: “No, I can see that. Yeah, I can see that all right.”
George looked at him again uneasily. He stubbed out his cigarette and took another. He hesitated, then he offered the packet to Alfy. “You’d better smoke,” he said.
Alfy took a cigarette out of the carton. He didn’t do it easily because his hand was shaking, but George pretended he hadn’t noticed. When he lit their cigarettes he was annoyed that his own hand was very unsteady.
Alfy looked at him across the tiny flame of the match. There was a look in George’s eyes that startled him. George looked away immediately, but it gave Alfy quite a shock. He realized, not without a stab of jealousy, that George was suffering just as much as he was. This discovery rather pulled him together and he slumped back in his chair to consider it.
Well, it was understandable. George had always got on well with Margie. He’d been in and out most days since they were married. Wasn’t George his best friend? It was swell of George to feel bad about it, or was it? He frowned down at his feet. This won’t do, he told himself. He’d got quite enough on his mind right now. It wasn’t the time to think up new worries. Maybe he was being a little too hard on George. Maybe, if he got his mind to thinking about George, it’d help him forget what was going on.
He said with a little burst of confidence: “I don’t like that croaker, George. There’s something about that guy.”
George ran his thick fingers through his hair. “Yeah?” he said. “What’s the matter with him? Ain’t he any good?” There was an anxious note in his voice.
“Sure he’s good. The best croaker in the town, but he ain’t got any feelin’. A while back I heard him laughing.”
“Laughin’?”
“Yeah, and the nurse laughed too.”
There was a long pause. Then George said, “That’s a hell of a thing to do.”
Alfy went on: “He’s a cold guy. I bet nothing would move that guy.”
George said, “He’s been here an awful long time, ain’t he?”
Alfy looked at the clock on the mantelshelf. “Four hours,” he said, then, as if to give himself courage, he added: “He said it would take a while.”
“He said that, did he?” George wiped his face with a handkerchief. “Ain’t nothin’ gone wrong, do you think?”
Unconsciously he put into words what Alfy had been thinking for the past half-hour. It didn’t do Alfy much good. He said, “For God’s sake, must you take that line?”
