He started going through the boxes. He found a high school yearbook, class of 1986, and flipped through it until he found Melina's picture. She'd like to paint, it said. He glanced again at the walls. So bright and optimistic, her work. Death, Myron knew, was always ironic. Young death most ironic of all.
He turned his attention back to her photograph. Melina was looking off to the side with the hesitant, unsure smile of high school. Myron knew it well. Don't we all. He closed the book and headed to her closets. Her clothes were neatly arranged, lots of sweaters folded on the top shelf, shoes lined up like tiny soldiers. He moved back to the boxes and found her photographs in a shoebox. A shoebox of all things. Myron shook his head and started going through them. Sandra sat on the floor next to him. 'That's her mother,' she said.
Myron looked at the photograph of two women, clearly mother and daughter, embracing. There was no sign of the unsure smile this time. This smile — the smile in her mother's arms — soared like an angel's song. Myron stared at the angel-song smile and imagined that celestial mouth crying out in hopeless agony. He thought about George Garston alone in that jaundice-lit study. And he understood.
Myron checked his watch. Time to pick up the pace. He thumbed through pictures of her father, her brother, Sandra, family outings, the norm. No pictures of Stan Gibbs. Nothing helpful.
He found makeup and perfume in another box. In another, he stumbled across a diary, but Melina hadn't written anything in it for two years. He paged through it, but it felt like too much of an unnecessary violation. He found a love letter from an old boyfriend. He found some receipts.
He found copies of Stan's columns.
Hmm.
In her address book. All the columns. There were no markings on them. Just the clippings themselves, held together by a paper clip. So what did that mean? He checked them again. Just clippings. He put them aside and did some more flipping. Something fell out near the back. Myron picked up a piece of cream-colored or aged-white paper torn along the left edge, more a card really, folded in half. The outside was totally blank. He opened it. On the upper half, the words With Love, Dad had been written in script. Myron thought again about George Garston sitting alone in that room and felt a deep burn flush his skin.
He sat on the couch now and tried again to conjure up something. That might sound weird — sitting in this too empty room, the sweet smell of a dead woman still hovering, feeling not unlike that tiny old lady in the Poltergeist movies — but you never knew. The victims didn't speak to him or anything like that. But sometimes he could imagine what they'd been thinking and feeling and some spark would hit the edges and start to flame. So he tried it again.
Nothing.
He let his eyes wander across the canvases and the burn under his skin started up again. He scanned the bright colors, let them assault him. The brightness should have protected her. Nonsense, but there you have it. She'd had a life. Melina worked and she painted and she loved bright colors and had too many sweaters and stored her precious memories in a shoe-box and someone had snuffed that life away because none of that meant anything to him. None of that was important. It made Myron mad.
He closed his eyes and tried to turn the anger down a notch. Anger wasn't good. It clouded reason. He'd let that side of him out before — his Batman complex, as Esperanza had called it — but being a hero seeking justice or vengeance (if they weren't the same thing) was unwise, unhealthy. Eventually you saw things you didn't want to. You learned truths you never should have. It stings and then it deadens. Better to stay away.
But the heat in his blood would not leave him. So he stopped fighting it, let the heat soothe him, relax his muscles, settle gently over him. Maybe the heat wasn't such a bad thing. Maybe the horrors he'd seen and the truths he'd learned hadn't changed him, hadn't deadened him, after all.
Myron closed the boxes, took one last, lingering look at the sunkissed isle of Mykonos, and made a silent vow.
Chapter 28
Greg and Myron met up on the court. Myron strapped on his knee brace. Greg averted his eyes. The two men shot for half an hour, barely speaking, lost in the pure strokes. People ducked in and pointed at Greg. Several kids came up to him and asked him for autographs. Greg acquiesced, glancing at Myron as he took pen in hand, clearly uncomfortable getting all this attention in front of the man whose career he had ended.
Myron stared back at him, offering no solace.
After some time, Myron said, 'There a reason you wanted me here, Greg?'
Greg kept shooting.
'Because I have to get back to the office,' Myron said.
Greg grabbed the ball, dribbled twice, took a turnaround jumper. 'I saw you and Emily that night. You know that?'
'I know that,' Myron said.
Greg grabbed the rebound, took a lazy hook, let the ball hit the floor and slowly bounce toward Myron. 'We were getting married the next day. You know that?'
'Know that too.'
'And there you were,' Greg said, 'her old boyfriend, screwing her brains out.'
Myron picked up the ball.
'I'm trying to explain here,' Greg said.
'I slept with Emily,' Myron said. 'You saw us. You wanted revenge. You told Big Burt Wesson to hurt me during a preseason game. He did. End of story.'
'I wanted him to hurt you, yes. I didn't mean for him to end your career.'
'You say tomato, I say tomahto.'
'It wasn't intentional.'
'Don't take this the wrong way,' Myron said in a voice that sounded awfully calm in his own ears, 'but I don't give two shits about your intentions. You fired a weapon at me. You might have aimed for a flesh wound, but that didn't happen. You think that makes you blameless?'
'You fucked my fiancee.'
'And she fucked me. I didn't owe you anything. She did.'
'Are you telling me you don't understand?'
'I understand. It just doesn't absolve you.'
'I'm not looking for absolution.'
'Then what do you want, Greg? You want us to clasp hands and sing 'Kumbaya'? Do you know what you did to me? Do you know what the one moment cost me?'
'I think maybe I do,' Greg said. He swallowed, put out a pleading hand as though he wanted to explain more, and then he let the hand drop to the side. 'I'm so sorry.'
Myron started shooting but he felt his throat swell.
'You don't know how sorry I am.'
Myron said nothing. Greg tried to wait him out. It didn't work.
'What else do you want me to say here, Myron?'
Myron kept shooting.
'How do I tell you I'm sorry?'
'You've already done it,' Myron said.
'But you won't accept it.'
'No, Greg. I won't. I live without playing pro ball. You live without my accepting your apology. Pretty good deal for you, you ask me.'
Myron's cell phone rang. He ran over, picked it up, said hello.
A whisper asked, 'Did you do as I instructed?'
His bones turned to solid ice. He swallowed away something thick and said, 'As you instructed?'
'The boy,' the voice whispered.
The stale air pressed against him, weighed down his lungs. 'What about him?'
