glanced over at me worriedly.
Until just before two that afternoon, all the calls were routine, and during those few hours I felt the sweetness of the ordinary, of needs easily met, promises easily kept, a world of choices and decisions that demanded no great store of wisdom.
At 1:54 the phone rang.
It was Detective Peak. 'Mr. Moore, I wanted to let you know that—'
'You found her,' I blurted.
'What?' Peak asked.
'You found Amy,' I repeated.
'No,' he said. 'I wish we had. I'm just calling because I need your assurance that Keith will be around if we need to talk to him again.'
'Of course, he will.'
'This is an official request, Mr. Moore,' Peak said. 'Keith is now in your custody.'
'He won't go anywhere,' I told him.
'Good,' Peak said. 'Thank you for your cooperation.'
He hung up, but for a brief instant, I continued to press the receiver to my ear, hoping for another voice to come on the line, to tell me that Amy had been found, that she was alive and well, just a little girl who'd wandered out of her house, crawled into a storm drain, and gone to sleep.
'Boss?'
It was Neil. He was staring at me from behind a counter piled with small boxes of film.
'It was the police,' I told him. 'They want to make sure Keith doesn't go anywhere.'
Neil's lips parted, but he didn't speak.
I put down the phone. 'I think I should probably go home, Neil.'
'Sure,' Neil said. 'I'll lock up if you...'
'Thanks.'
I walked to my car and got in, but didn't start the engine. Instead I sat, nearly motionless behind the wheel, watching people on the sidewalk, some alone, a few couples, a scattering of families with children. They strolled past the little shops with an air of complete casualness, like swimmers in the sea, untroubled, caught in that carefree instant before the dark fin breaks the surface and sends them thrashing toward shore.
Before I started home I snapped up my cell phone and called Meredith.
'Peak called me,' I told her. 'We have to keep an eye on Keith.'
She could tell by the tone of my voice that I was feeling shaky. 'That means they suspect him,' she said.
'I'm not sure you can draw that conclusion.'
'Oh please, Eric,' Meredith said, her tone faintly irritated. 'You can't live with your head in the sand forever. We have to face things.'
'I'm facing them, it's just that—'
'Where are you now?' she interrupted.
'I'm just leaving the shop.'
'Good. We need to talk.'
She was waiting in the living room when I arrived.
'It's all that's on the radio,' she said. 'A big story for this shitty little town.'
I had never heard her speak of Wesley in such a hateful way, as if she felt trapped by its smallness, ensnared and suffocating. Had she felt this way for a long time? I wondered. Had she sometimes awakened in the night and wanted to rush to the family car and drive away, out of Wesley, toward some bright horizon she'd never spoken of? In movies, people always had secret dreams, and I'd assumed that at least a few real people actually had. them, but I'd never thought Meredith afflicted by such dreaminess. Now I wondered if she harbored some thwarted fantasy, dreamed of yellow-brick roads and princely palaces, of being king of some hill she'd never had a chance to climb.
She walked over to the sofa and sat down hard, as if she were trying to squash the world beneath her. 'They mentioned that Vince and Karen had gone out for the evening but not that there was a babysitter'—she shook her head—'but that'll come,' she said crisply. 'There had to have been a babysitter. Amy was eight years old.'
'Was?' I asked darkly.
'You know what I mean.' She looked at me determinedly. 'I think we should call Leo.'
I don't know why I resisted, except that some part of me was determined to keep the gravest consequences at bay, a hope, foolishly held, that if I simply refused to take the next step then no one else would take it, either.
'Not yet,' I said.
'Why?' Meredith demanded.
'Because it'll make Keith look guilty,' I answered. 'You've seen how they do it on television. They say, 'So- and-so has retained counsel.' And people think, Okay the guy knows he did it and so now he's trying to protect himself.'
Meredith stood up, walked to the back window, and peered out into the woods. 'I hope you're right, Eric,' she said.
I let her cool a moment, then said, 'Do you think we should call the Giordanos?'
She shrugged.
'I think it would be a good idea,' I said. 'You know, to show our concern.'
I walked into the kitchen, took the phone, and dialed the number.
A strange voice answered, but one I recognized. It was Detective Kraus. I told him who I was and that I wanted to express my hope that Amy would be returned safely home and offer my help, my family's help, in finding her. I asked to speak to Vince. Kraus said he'd get him. I heard him put the phone down, then his footsteps as he walked across the room. I could hear voices, but they were low and distant. Then the footsteps returned.
'Mr. Giordano doesn't want to talk,' Kraus said. 'He's a little ... well ... upset.'
'Of course,' I said.
'Keith's around, right?' Kraus asked.
'Yes.'
'Because we have a few more questions for him.'
I told him that Keith would be more than willing to help in any way he could, then put down the phone. Meredith was watching me worriedly.
'Maybe you're right,' I told her. 'Maybe we should call Leo.'
Leo agreed to come over immediately, and so I went upstairs to talk to Keith.
The door to his room was closed and locked, as he'd insisted upon from the time he was thirteen. I'd never thought anything unusual about this. Teenagers were like that. They shut their parents out. It was a matter of asserting their independence, I supposed, part of the ritual of growing up and growing away. But now the fact that my son spent so much time in his room, at his computer, alone, behind a locked door, gave off an air of something hidden. What, I wondered, did he do in there? And in his solitude, what thoughts came to him?
I knocked at the door. 'Keith.'
I heard a strange scrambling, as if he were taken unawares and was now readying the room before opening the door, turning off the computer, closing drawers, perhaps quickly secreting things in his closet or beneath his bed.
I tapped again, this time more urgently. 'Keith?'
The bolt snapped back, then the door opened to its customary two inches, and the single blue eye appeared.
'We've called a lawyer,' I said.
The blue eye gave nothing away.
