'That's enough,' I said.
'It's your whole goddamn family that's screwed up,' Vince screamed. 'A brother watches kids in the playground, looks at dirty pictures of little kids. That's where that son of yours got it from. The family. In their blood.' He was seething now. 'You should all be wiped out!' he cried. 'Every goddamn one of you!'
I felt his hot breath on my face, turned quickly, strode to my car, and got in. For a moment we locked eyes, and I saw how deeply Vince Giordano hated me, hated Keith, hated the neat little family he'd watched come through the cemetery gate, the kind of family he'd once had and which had been taken from him, he felt certain, by my son.
We drove directly home, Meredith trembling all the way, terrified that Vince would follow us there. From time to time, she glanced at the rearview mirror, searching for his green van behind us. I had never seen her so frightened, and I knew that part of her fear was that the husband she'd once trusted had changed irrevocably.
At home, she wanted me to call the police, but I had leaped to so many conclusions of late, that I refused to leap to another one.
'He's just upset,' I told her. 'He has a right to be.'
'But he doesn't have a right to threaten us,' Meredith cried.
'He didn't threaten us,' I reminded her. 'Besides, the police won't do anything. They can't unless he does something first.'
She shook her head in exasperation, no doubt convinced that here again I was simply refusing to confront the obvious truth that Vince Giordano was a dangerous man. 'All right, fine,' she snapped, 'but if anything happens, Eric, it's on your head.'
With that, she stormed down the corridor to her office and slammed the door.
I built a fire and for a long time sat, staring at the flames. Outside, autumn leaves gathered and blew apart at the will of the wind. The gray air darkened steadily, and night finally fell. Yet Meredith remained in her room, and Keith in his.
It wasn't until early evening that one of them, Keith, finally joined me in the living room.
'So, are we not going to have dinner?' he asked.
I drew my eyes from the fire and faced him. 'Nobody feels like cooking, I guess.'
'So, what does that mean ... like ... we don't eat?'
'No, we'll eat.'
'Okay.'
'All right,' I said. I got to my feet. 'Come on, let's go get a pizza.'
We walked out of the house and down the brick walkway, past the shadowy limbs of the Japanese maple.
The drive to Nico's took only a few minutes, and on the way, Keith sat on the passenger side, looking less sullen than before, as if he were beginning to emerge from the tiresome irritation of his teenage years. A light played in his eyes, a hint of energy, or perhaps some spark of hope that his life might one day be less plagued with trouble. I recalled a line I'd read somewhere, that we must be able to imagine redemption before we can achieve it.
'I'd ask you how things are,' I said. 'But you hate that question.'
He looked over at me and a faint smile fluttered on his lips. 'I was going to ask you that. I mean, Mom's really mad at you, right?'
'Yes, she is.'
'What about?'
'She blames me for being too suspicious.'
'Of her?'
'Of everything, I guess,' I answered. 'I have to try harder, Keith. I have to get more evidence before I jump to conclusions.'
'What were you suspicious about?'
'Just things.'
'So, you won't tell me?'
'It's between your mother and me,' I said.
'What if I told you something. A secret.'
I felt a chill pass over me.
'Would you tell me then?' Keith asked. 'Like, an exchange? You know, father and son?'
I watched him closely for a moment, then decided that where I'd gone wrong with Keith was in failing to recognize that despite his teenage aloofness, the sullen behavior that fixed him in an angry smirk, there was an adult growing inside him, forming within the brittle chrysalis of adolescence, and that this adult had to be recognized and carefully coaxed out, that it was time to confront not Keith's immaturity, but the fact that he was soon to be a man.
'Okay,' I told him. 'An exchange.'
He drew in a long breath, then said, 'The money. It wasn't for me. And what I told Mr. Price—about running away—that wasn't true.'
'What was the money for?'
'This girl,' Keith said. 'We're sort of ... you know. And she has it really bad at home, and I thought, okay, maybe I could get her out of it. Get her away from it.'
'Am I allowed to know who this girl is?' I asked.
'Her name is Polly,' Keith said shyly. 'She lives on the other side of town. Those walks I go on. At night. That's where we meet.'
'The other side of town,' I repeated. 'Near the water tower.'
He looked surprised. 'Yes.'
I smiled. 'Okay, I guess it's my turn. This thing with your mother. The things she's so mad about. It's that I accused her of having a lover.' I felt a tight ball of pain release its grip on me. 'I didn't have any evidence, but I accused her anyway.'
He looked at me softly. 'You believed I hurt Amy Giordano, too.'
I nodded. 'Yes, Keith, I did.'
'Do you still think that?'
I looked at him again and saw nothing but a shy, tender boy, reserved and oddly solitary, fighting his own inner battles as we all must, coming to terms with his limits, which we all must do, struggling to free himself from the bonds that seem unnatural, find himself within the incomprehensible tangle of hopes and fears that is the roiling substance of every human being. I saw all of that, and in seeing that, saw that my son was not the killer of a child.
'No, I don't, Keith,' I said. Then I pulled the car over and drew him into my arms and felt his body grow soft and pliant in my embrace and my body do the same in his, and in that surrender, we both suddenly released the sweetest imaginable tears.
Then we released each other and wiped those same tears away and laughed at the sheer strangeness of the moment.
'Okay, pizza,' I said as I started the car again.
Keith smiled. 'Pepperoni and onion,' he said.
Nico's wasn't crowded that night, and so Keith and I sat alone on a small bench and waited for our order. He took out a handheld video game and played silently, while I perused the local paper. There was a story about Amy Giordano, but it was short and on page four, relating only that police were still in the process of 'eliminating suspects.'
I showed the last two words to Keith. 'That means you,' I said. 'You're being eliminated as a suspect.'
He smiled and nodded, then went back to his game.
I glanced outside, toward the pizza delivery van that rested beside the curb. A deliveryman waited beside the
