For Colonel Swynyard was not dead. Indeed, the Colonel hardly appeared to be wounded. His face was bruised, but the bruise was covered and shadowed by a wide-brimmed hat that Swynyard must have plucked from among the battlefield litter, and now the Colonel was walking through the Brigade's lines with his familiar wolfish smile. 'He's drunk,' Truslow said. 'We should have shot the bastard yesterday.'
Peter Waggoner's voice faltered as the Colonel walked up to the makeshift prayer meeting. Swynyard stopped at the edge of the meeting, saying nothing, just staring at the men with their open Bibles and bare heads, and every single man seemed cowed by the baleful eyes. The Colonel had always been a mocker of these homespun devotions, though until now he had kept his scorn at a distance. Now his malevolence killed the prayerful atmosphere stone dead. Waggoner made one or two brave efforts to keep reading, but then stopped altogether.
'Go on,' Swynyard said in his hoarse voice.
Waggoner closed his Bible instead. Sergeant Phillips, who was one of Major Haxall's shrinking Arkansas battalion, stood to head off any trouble. 'Maybe you'd like to join us at prayer, Colonel?' the Sergeant suggested nervously.
The tic in Swynyard's cheek twitched as he considered his answer. Sergeant Phillips licked his lips while others of the men closed their eyes in silent prayer. Then, to the amazement of everyone who watched, Colonel Swynyard pulled off his hat and nodded to Phillips. 'I would like that, Sergeant, I would indeed.' Sergeant Phillips was so taken aback by the Colonel's agreement that he said nothing. A murmur went through the Bible study group, but no one spoke aloud. Swynyard, the bruise on his face visible now, was embarrassed by the silence. 'If you'll have me, that is,' he added in an unnaturally humble voice.
'Anyone is welcome,' Sergeant Phillips managed to say. One or two of the officers in the group muttered their agreement, but no one looked happy at welcoming Swynyard. Everyone in the prayer group believed the Colonel was playing a subtle game of mockery, but they did not understand his game, nor did anyone know how to stop it, and so they offered him a reluctant welcome instead.
'Maybe you'll let me say a word or two?' Swynyard suggested to Phillips, who seemed to have assumed leadership of the prayer meeting. Phillips nodded, and the Colonel fidgeted with the hat in his hands as he looked around the frightened gathering. The Colonel tried to speak, but the words would not come. He cleared his throat, took a deep breath, and tried again. 'I have seen the light,' he explained.
Another murmur went through the circle of seated men. 'Amen,' Phillips said.
Swynyard twisted the hat in his nervous hands. 'I have been a great sinner, Sergeant,' he said, then stopped. He still wore the same hated smile, but some of the men nearer to Swynyard could sense that it was now a smile of embarrassment rather than sarcasm. The same men could even see tears in the Colonel's eyes.
'Drunk as a bitch on the Fourth of July,' Truslow said in a tone of wonder.
'I'm not sure,' Starbuck said. 'I think he might be sober.' 'Then he's lost his damn wits,' Truslow opined. Sergeant Phillips was more generous. 'We have all been sinners, Colonel,' the Sergeant said, 'and fallen short of the glory of God.'
'I more than most.' Swynyard, it seemed, was determined to make a public confession of his sins and of his rediscovered faith. He was blinking back tears and fidgeting with the hat so frenetically that it fell from his hands. He let it lie. 'I was raised a Christian by my dear mother,' he said, 'and I received the Lord into my heart at a camp meeting when I was a youth, but I have been a sinner ever since. A great sinner.'
'We've all sinned,' Sergeant Phillips averred again. 'But yesterday,' Swynyard said, 'I came to my senses. I was near killed, and I felt the very wings of the angel of death beat about me. I could smell the sulfur of the bottomless pit and I could feel the heat of its flames, and I knew, as I lay on the field, that I deserved nothing less than that terrible punishment.' He paused, almost overcome by the memory. 'But then, praise Him, I was pulled back from the pit and drawn into the light.'
A chorus of amens and hallelujahs sounded among the circle of men. They were all sincere Christians, and though they might have hated this man with an intense hatred, the more honest among them had also prayed for the Colonel's soul, and now that their prayers were being answered, they were willing to give thanks to God for His mercies to a sinner.
Swynyard had tears on his cheeks now. 'I also know, Sergeant, that in the past I have been unfair in my dealings with many men here. To those men I offer my regrets and seek their forgiveness.' The apology was handsomely spoken, and the men in the group took it just as handsomely. Then Swynyard turned away from the circle and looked among the shelters for Starbuck. 'I owe another man an even greater apology,' the Colonel said.
'Oh, Jesus,' Starbuck swore and wriggled back into the shadow of his shelter.
'Bastard's touched in the head,' Truslow said. 'He'll be foaming at the mouth next and pissing himself. We'll have to take him away and put him out of his misery.'
'We should have shot the bastard when we had the chance,' Starbuck said, then fell silent because Swynyard had left the Bible circle and was walking toward his shelter.
'Captain Starbuck?' Swynyard said.
Starbuck looked up into his enemy's face. 'I can hear you, Colonel,' Starbuck said flatly. He could see now that the Colonel had made an attempt to improve his appearance. His beard was washed, his hair combed, and his uniform brushed. The tic in his cheek still quivered, and his hands shook, but he was plainly making a great effort to hold himself straight and steady.
'Can I talk with you, Starbuck,' the Colonel asked, then, after a moment's silence, 'please?'
'Are you drunk?' Starbuck asked brutally. Swynyard offered his rotting, yellow-toothed smile. 'Only on God's grace, Starbuck, only on His divine grace. And with His help I shall never touch ardent spirits again.' Truslow spat to show his disbelief. Swynyard ignored the insult, gesturing instead to indicate that he would like to take a walk with Starbuck.
Starbuck climbed reluctantly out of his turf shelter, shouldered his rifle, and followed the Colonel. Starbuck was wearing new boots that he had taken from a dead Pennsylvanian. The boots were new and stiff, but Starbuck was convinced they would wear in well enough after a day or two. Now, though, he felt the makings of a blister as he walked self-consciously beside Swynyard. News of the Colonel's conversion had spread through the Brigade, and men were drifting toward the picket line to see the proof for themselves. Some evidently believed that the Colonel's religious experience was just another inebriated escapade, and they grinned in anticipation of a display of drunken idiocy, but Swynyard seemed oblivious to the attention he was receiving. 'You know why I sent your company forward yesterday?' he asked Starbuck.
'Uriah the Hittite,' Starbuck said shortly. Swynyard thought for a second; then the story of David and Bathsheba came back from his dusty memories of childhood Sunday schools. 'Yes,' he said. 'And I intended for you to be killed. I am sorry, truly.'
Starbuck wondered how long Swynyard's manifestation of honesty would last and reckoned that it would be only until the Colonel's thirst overcame his piety, but he kept that skepticism to himself. 'I guess you were just obeying someone else's orders,' he said instead.
'It was still a sinful action,' Swynyard said very earnestly, thus obliquely confirming that it had indeed been Washington Faulconer who had ordered Starbuck's company into the place of danger, 'and I ask your forgiveness.' Swynyard concluded his confession by holding out his hand.
Starbuck, excruciated with embarrassment, shook the offered hand. 'Say no more about it, Colonel,' he said.
'You're a good soldier, Starbuck, a good soldier, and I haven't made life easy for you. Not for anyone, really.' Swynyard made the admission in a gruff voice. The Colonel had been weeping when he gave his halting testimony at the prayer meeting, but now he seemed in a more rueful mood. He turned and gazed north to where groups of Yankees could be seen in the far fields beyond the nearer stands of trees. No man on either side seemed inclined to belligerence this day; even the sharpshooters who delighted to kill at long range were keeping their rifle barrels cold. 'Do you have a Bible?' Swynyard asked Starbuck suddenly.
'Sure I do.' Starbuck felt in his breast pocket where he kept the small Bible that his brother had sent him. James had intended the Bible to spark Starbuck into a repentance like the one that was transforming Swynyard, but Starbuck had kept the scriptures out of habit rather than need. 'You want it?' he asked, offering the book to the Colonel.
'I shall find another,' Swynyard said. 'I just wanted to be certain you have a Bible because I'm sure you're going
