“Really? You’d be surprised what your army’s doing in the name of rooting out insurgents. Chemicals are being rained down on villages suspected of harbouring Hmong resistance. One more little village wouldn’t make much difference. That’s why. They want to be spared. The only way to do that is to placate the spirits and keep you alive. If it works, you’ll have to beg forgiveness for every tree you cut down from now on.”
“I’d be a laughing stock.”
“Better a live laughing stock than a dead unbeliever. But it’s up to you.” It was hard for Siri to convince him of something he wasn’t convinced about himself. He didn’t know why he believed this was Kumsing’s only chance. He hadn’t expected that his description of his night in the village would have been enough to persuade the captain to accompany him. But the young man was so desperate, he would have tried anything.
Siri looked around at the unlikely cast of this night’s drama. It all seemed so ridiculous. Lao Jong, dressed all in red, was attaching tiny cymbals to his fingers. His wife was tying a hood around the top of his head. Tshaj was lighting the tapers and candles. The sickly sweet scent of the incense mixed with the smell of the beeswax lamps.
Auntie Suab was working the crowd, handing out amulets like a peanut seller at a soccer game. Most of the village had arrived. The elders and key figures were on the floor inside, the rest standing or sitting on benches outside. Despite the numbers, there was no sound. Even the babies lay silent against their mothers’ breasts.
“Is this dangerous?” Kumsing whispered.
“Don’t know. Never been to one before. You’d better shut up now.”
Lao Jong, with his hood still pulled back from his face, knelt at the altar and offered up the tray of snacks and liquor to his own teacher and all the teachers before him, way back to the time of the first and greatest shaman. His wife lowered his hood, and he gently tapped the finger cymbals together in a slow rhythm. His wife took up a gong and began to beat in time to his rhythm with the thigh bone of a wading bird.
Lao Jong slowly began to chant a mantra that was in no language Siri had ever heard, yet somehow he seemed to know it. Somehow he seemed aware that Lao Jong was calling for the great gods, the angels, the good spirits to come to him, to use him. He rocked gently back and forth next to the altar and summoned the spirits. For thirty minutes he chanted, and no one grew restless. People seemed hypnotised by the rhythm and the movement. There was still no other sound.
Only Captain Kumsing huffed in frustration again and again. The smoke was irritating his eyes. The gong and the cymbals were buzzing in his ears. He thought he was going to throw up.
Then, almost undetected at first, the repetition of the mantras grew faster, and the volume rose. Lao Jong’s breath was becoming strained and, even though his face was hidden, all there could tell he was in a trance. His arms began to twitch. He rose quickly to his feet, and his whole body and his head jerked in increasingly violent spasms. It was neither a dance nor a fit. Unseen deities were jostling for position inside his body. Lao Jong, the toothless farmer, was gone. Not one person there believed this spectre in front of them was the man who had gone into the trance earlier.
Although he could see nothing, the shaman appeared to look around the room. His focus fell on Siri, who shrank back as everyone looked in his direction. His hopes of attending his first exorcism as an observer were soon gone. Lao Jong’s body fell, not like a person, but like a tree crashing to the floor of a forest. It fell hard, face first, at Siri’s feet.
Siri was sure Lao Jong had knocked himself out. His head was just in front of him, unmoving, unbreathing. Siri reached his hand forward to see if he could help. But in the speed of a breath, in one swift motion, the shaman rose to his feet. It was as if a film had been reversed. As if the tree had been felled. The crowd gasped.
The new owners of Lao Jong’s body leaned over the stunned doctor and brought the palms of the shaman’s hands together in front of the hood. The deities spoke in their own voice, a voice that could never have belonged to Lao Jong.
“Yeh Ming. Tell us where the evil spirit
Siri was overwhelmed. This was a grave responsibility. Why him? Every eye was fixed on him, an actor who’d forgotten his lines. He gazed around the room and through the open windows. He looked at every face, every man, woman, and child, hoping there’d be a sign, an arrow or something, a flashing light. But he saw nothing and conceded defeat.
“How the hell should I know?”
Even though the shaman’s body had come no closer, Lao Jong’s gnarled hand somehow shot forward and grabbed Siri’s wrist. A sliver of pain shot through his arms and down his legs. It was as if his nerves were being over-stimulated. Then that energy travelled up through his body and settled at his neck. The amulet, which had been so cool against his skin, began to burn like a white-hot ember. He opened his mouth to scream, but no sound came out. He yanked at the leather to take it off, but the thong held. Worse, the amulet burned. It burned through skin, through muscle, to the bone. There was the sizzle of flesh. He tried to wrestle the thong over his head now, but the leather constricted, tighter and tighter, like a garrotte.
He couldn’t breathe and he knew he was going to die. He was going to die an agonising death. He was choking, but nobody came to help him. Nobody came to pull the burning amulet from his skin. He could understand none of it. Kumsing sat beside him as if nothing were happening. Couldn’t he see the flames? Smell the burning flesh? He was writhing with pain, kicking his legs, yanking at the thong. Then in his death throes he saw her. She sat beneath the window smiling serenely like an angel.
Kumsing saw none of this. He only saw Siri gaze calmly around the room, close his eyes and breathe deeply. Then Siri re-opened his eyes and looked directly at an old lady beneath the window at the farthest point from the altar.
Siri knew now who was killing him. The amulet had been a screen to stop him seeing
Suddenly he could see them, the unsettled souls of the troubled dead. They sat inside her. And with the last of his strength he raised his hand and pointed at the old lady under the window. And although his hearing was draining away along with his life, he heard her speak. He’d never heard such a sound.
The voice that came from her mouth contained the voices of many, gruff, angry voices, voices of generations of lost souls. They belonged to the spirits of men and women who had suffered violence and indignation, unsettled ghosts denied a resting place. They all spoke from the mouth of the tiniest, most gentle lady in the village: “Fuck you, Yeh Ming. You’ll be cursed for this. Believe us. You will be cursed.”
Fire spread through Siri’s chest and over his skin, the garrote cut through his neck, he kicked and grunted the finale to his death knell, and he was gone.
Kumsing watched as Siri stared at the old lady. The doctor sat cross-legged, his hands in his lap, more serene than ever. She smiled back at him, a little nervously. Then the doctor lifted his hand and pointed at her.
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That was the end of the ceremony as far as Siri knew. When he woke up, the sun shining through the unshuttered window was like warm balm against his face. He reached instinctively to his neck, but there was no dressing, no contusion, no injury at all. The amulet was gone.
“Spiritual wounds don’t leave scars, Yeh Ming.”
Siri looked to the end of the straw mattress to see Auntie Suab spooning soup from a large black pot into a bowl. His face must have shown fear. She smiled. “Don’t worry, they’re gone. You missed quite a show last night. I missed a lot of it myself, although I was apparently the star.”
“I’m sorry for ratting on you.”
“It had to be done.” She brought the soup over to him and helped him sit up against the beam of the hut. He felt weak. She handed him the bowl and a spoon. He looked at the soup with suspicion.
“Nothing poisonous, Yeh Ming. You need some nourishment. You were as sick as a dog last night.”
“I was?”
“At least you waited till they got you outside.”