He squeezed her forearm. “You feel like you do because you have so much to live for.”
She looked up. “Thank you, Frank. I tried talking to Steve and Omar but… it was hard, you know?”
“Well, sometimes it takes awhile to get it out. My god, Carolyn. Some people never get it out. They spend the rest of their lives second-guessing themselves or indulging in survivor’s guilt. So don’t you ever feel you’ve got to be strong all the time. Believe me, even Marines cry once in awhile.”
“You know, I’m trying to decide how to explain all this to Charles. We talked for ninety minutes last night but I told him hardly anything about what really happened.” She paused, then continued. “I wonder if I have it in me to go out again. But I don’t want to let you down.”
“Carolyn, whatever you decide, it’ll be fine.” On a hunch, he took a different tack. “There’s something else. I mean, if you’re worried about the guys and what they think. Consider the men you’re working with. Most of them are professionals — full-time warriors. They have what I call the red meat attitude. Believe me — and don’t take this wrong — but the fact that you notched three or four terrorists impresses the hell out of those boys.” He decided not to relate what he’d overheard.
Padgett-Smith smiled inwardly. Odd, the terminology these friendly, violent men employed. Notched. Greased. Capped. Wasted. Hardly ever “killed.”
She patted his hand. “Thank you. Again. I’ll get my purse.”
28
Kassim made the introductions.
The father was graying in a dignified way that impressed Ali, and they established an early rapport. It did not take the scientist long to push the boundaries of courtesy and address the reason for the meeting.
“Sir, I wish to thank you for your support of the
Razak Sial nodded gravely. “Thank you, Doctor. Your own dedication to God’s work and to the less fortunate has earned you a throne in Paradise.”
Ali sensed something — what? Too early to tell; he bided his time.
“Before I speak with these young men, I would know more of them. Please tell me of their education and their devotion to The Word.”
Sial tasted the doctor’s tea again, then set down the cup. “My wife was a good woman who died too young. But she left me with four children of my own and her nephew. It was necessary for me to leave my family for a time and make a living as best I could… on the other side of the border.”
“Yes, Kassim spoke of your service.”
“When I returned from fighting the infidels, I was able to pay most of my debts and even to expand my herd. But, alas, honored doctor, the cost of raising a large family is always high.” The farmer allowed the sentiment to dangle in midair.
Ali shot a glance at Kassim, occupied with the boys outside.
Sial continued. “Even though I was often absent, I saw to the boys’ religious education, as their mother and aunt desired. These two are the most devout of my sons, and they wish to serve in the holy war, if only my family can work without them.” Ali’s pulse spiked briefly. His reservoir of goodwill was rapidly draining.
“And what would you require to complete the boys’ transition to sacrificial warriors?”
Razak Sial spread his calloused hands in a move so fluid and emotive that it seemed rehearsed. “Doctor, I would not deem it worthy of myself to name a cost. Surely the value of two young lives is measured in more than rupees.”
In the rude hut overlooking the valley, thus were two souls purchased. They were delivered in the living bodies of Hazrat Sial and Miam Ahmed.
29
Ali was pleased with his purchase.
The older boy, Sial’s son Hazrat, was the more devout. Obviously he had given some thought to what was expected of him. “Doctor, The Word prohibits us from suicide, does it not?”
The veterinarian was well versed on the subject. “Truly.
“But, Doctor…”
“But you are different, my brothers. You have chosen to die while you still may live.” He smiled benevolently. “Yours is the shortest and truest path to Heaven.”
Sial mused upon that information and seemed satisfied. “Have others done so?”
Without mentioning the American, Ali cited an example of those who chose self-destruction. “Only one other, and he came to us from a foreign land.”
The twenty-year-old farmer had a good mind for such an apparently simple boy. “But he — and we ourselves — have chosen our end. Therefore, how do we attain Heaven?”
The veterinarian was well versed on that point. “There is scholastic evidence that one who sacrifices himself in a
Ahmed, reticent by nature, ventured a question. “Doctor, can you tell me — tell us — how our sacrifice will serve the holy war?”
Ali almost smiled. A naive question from a naive young man. “We are blessed to participate in the origins of this
Ahmed nodded solemnly. Sial almost smiled.
“There must be no doubt. Say it!”
“To sacrifice ourselves in the
“That’s gotta be the place.” Foyte glassed the farm from a safe distance, noting the layout of the house, sheds, and pens. “Goats and some other animals. The VW bus also fits the description.” He passed the Zeiss to Lee, who adjusted the focus.
“No visible security, Gunny. You’d think they would have a sentry. At least a rover.”