Kitty Takes a Holiday

resulted in great injury to herself. My client was well within his right to use force against her under Title eighteen dash one dash seven-oh-four of the Colorado Criminal Code.'

Espinoza countered: 'The law protecting the right to use deadly force in cases of defense does not apply in this case. On the contrary, the accused was in fact lying in wait for the victim's appearance.' That was wrong. I almost stood up and said something. 1 had to bite my tongue. The prosecutor continued. 'Your Honor, the victim was a twenty-year-old woman weighing a hundred and twenty pounds. Her ability to inflict lethal damage with her bare hands is questionable. Moreover, the evidence suggests she was highly mentally disturbed during the incident.' He consulted a page of notes. 'She was wearing a wolf skin at the time and it has been suggested that she believed that she was a wolf. I find it hard to believe that in such a mental state, judging by her physical attributes, she was at all a danger to anyone. Especially when she already had three bullet wounds in her chest. The victim was already incapacitated when the defendant fired the final, killing shot. In that moment this stopped being a case of defense and became a murder.'

And nothing about any of that was false. She had been wearing a wolf skin. That it actually turned her into a wolf—suggesting that would sound ludicrous in this set­ting. And maybe she'd been fatally wounded. Maybe she wouldn't have lashed out with her skin/walker magic. But Cormac hadn't know that.

Ben offered another volley. 'Seeing that a psychologi­cal evaluation of the victim is impossible, I would like to offer evidence and precedent that such a mental illness would in fact make her a danger to those around her, even while injured.'

Heller asked a question. 'The witness who was involved in the physical confrontation with the victim— how extensive are her injuries?'

A moment of silence weighed heavily on the room. How extensive were my injuries? They weren't, not anymore. I had a few scabs, where the worst of the scratches had healed, a few pink marks. In a couple more days even those would disappear. But if I hadn't been a lycanthrope I'd be in the hospital. If I hadn't been a lycanthrope, we could say, Look, this is what Cormac saved us from, this iswhy he shouldn't be in jail. But we didn't have that.

In lieu of an answer, Heller continued. 'Was Ms. Norville even examined by a doctor after the confrontation?'

'No, Your Honor,' Ben said softly. I should have let him take me to a hospital. He'd wanted to take me to a hospital. We could have at least taken pictures of what the wounds looked like.

None of us thought we'd be here arguing it in court. That we'd need the evidence.

'Then the violence of the victim's attack has perhaps been exaggerated?'

I should have just let Miriam Wilson kill me. That would have gotten Cormac off the hook. Made everyone's lives a whole lot easier. Nice defeatist thinking there.

Ben's voice changed, falling in pitch, becoming tight with anger. 'You have the witness statements, Your Honor. At the time, they all feared for Ms. Norville's life. That's the scene my client encountered, and that's what should be taken into account. The only reason there's even a ques­tion is because Sheriff Marks has a grudge against him. This court is biased.' He landed his fist on the table. From behind him, I could see his breathing quicken, his ribs expanding under the cheap suit jacket.

Heller shook her head, preparing to close out the hear­ing. 'I am not inclined to dismiss this case on the basis of the evidence you've presented, Mr. O'Farrell.'

Hissing a breath, Ben bent double almost, leaning on the table in front of him, bowing his head. The pose was familiar—it's what I did when the Wolf fought inside me, when she was close to the surface and trying to break out.

I stood quickly; leaning forward as far as I could, I was able to touch Ben's back. It was stiff as a board, in pain. Cormac gripped Ben's arm with his bound hands. Please,not here, 1 begged silently. Feel my touch, stay human, keepit together. I tried to see his hands—that was where it usually happened first. The claws—did he have claws or fingers?

'Mr. O'Farrell, are you all right?' Judge Heller frowned with concern.

Everyone in the courtroom stared at us. I didn't care. I kept my hand pressed against his back, hoping he'd respond. Cormac and I both watched him intently, waiting.

Finally, he straightened. Creaking almost, like he had to stack each vertebra into place. His face was pale, and his neck sweating.

'I'm fine,' he said, though his voice was still rough, like a growl. 'Sorry for the interruption. I'm fine.' He smoothed his suit and shook himself out of the spell. Slowly, Cormac and I sat back in our places.

My heart was racing. I couldn't help but feel like we'd had a close call. He shouldn't have been doing this, he shouldn't have had to face the stress of a courtroom in his condition. He was still just a pup.

Heller resumed. 'Both parties should consult in order to agree on a time for a preliminary hearing, at which time the defendant will enter his plea to the charges filed.'

Then, almost abruptly, anticlimactically, it was over. And Cormac wasn't leaving with us. Held without bail.

The courtroom rustled with activity. Bailiffs approached to take charge of Cormac, who looked over his shoulder at me. 'Keep an eye on him. Don't let him out of your sight,' he said in a low voice. 1 nodded quickly and watched them lead him away. He knew how close it had been, too.

Marks glared at us across the room, but didn't stick around for a confrontation.

Espinoza approached Ben, who still looked like he was about to pass out. I could hear his heart racing. I was ready to jump up and leap to his side, if he showed the slightest indication that he needed help—if he was about to break down. He held it together, though. He didn't look good, but he stayed upright, kept breathing.

I didn't like George Espinoza, even though I knew that wasn't fair. 1 didn't know him, I'd never spoken to him. But I saw him as a threat. He was attacking my people. My pack. I kept wanting to slip in between him and Ben and growl at him. But I had to just step aside and let things happen.

They talked in low voices. Ben did a lot of nodding. The bailiff hustled them out of the room then to make way for the next hearing. I trailed behind, trying to eavesdrop. I heard a couple of phrases. 'Give me a week,' and 'plea bargain.'

I approached Ben only after Espinoza left the lobby outside the courtroom. He stood stiffly, hugging a file folder that stood in for his briefcase. He carried himself rigidly—angry, and trying to hold it in. He was used to being able to channel his anger in the courtroom. Using it to strengthen his arguments. Now, the wolf wouldn't let him do that.

I put my hand on his shoulder. 'Let's get out of here.'

He let me guide him out of the building, leaning on me until we were outside.

Out in the sun I was able to ask him, 'How close did you get in there? How close to Changing?'

He shook his head absently. 'I don't know. I felt like I could have breathed wrong and it all would have come loose. I felt it push against the inside of my skin. 1 just don't know.' He closed his eyes and took a deep, trem­bling breath. 'I'm losing it.'

'No, you're not. You're fine, you kept it together.'

'Not me,' he said. 'I don't care about me. I'm talking about the case.'

'It can't be that bad. Can it?' He was the lawyer. Who was I to second-guess him?

'Any rational person looks at the evidence and comes to exactly the conclusion Espinoza presented. If I stand up there and say, no she wasn't just wearing a wolf skin, she'd actually become a wolf, I sound insane. When it comes to believing the eyewitness reports of a few people who were in the dark and scared out of their skulls, or the hard evidence of the coroner's report, it isn't much of a contest. And she was incapacitated when Cormac killed her. He wasn't defending anyone at that point.'

'We didn't know that, not for sure. Marks was there— why doesn't he tell them? He's a cop, wouldn't his testi­mony hold any more weight?'

'He's signed off on Espinoza's version.'

Of course he would. 'That's not fair. You'd think after everything he did to me he could at least stand up for Cormac.'

'Except he's decided that she wasn't that dangerous, and Cormac overreacted. The coroner's report makes more sense than skinwalkers, so that's what he's sticking to. That's what's going to hold up in court. Not the ghost stories.'

I wanted to shake Ben. Tell him to snap out of it and get his confidence back. He had to save Cormac, and he wasn't going to do it talking like that.

Ben said, 'He shouldn't have shot her there at the end. That was a mistake.'

'I know.'

And that was what we kept talking around. That Cormac had gone too far to save this time. Nothing we said or did would ever erase that moment.

We walked a few more paces, and I changed the sub­ject. 'Why wouldn't the judge set bail?'

He scowled. 'Espinoza doesn't want to take a chance on him getting away. Heller's right, those militia wing-nuts do have a history of jumping bail. It's a case of them looking at the facts they want to and not the ones that mat­ter. There might be some past history there that's coloring her judgment.'

That brought up a whole other set of questions. We'd reached the car by then. 'So what is all that about Cormac and the Mountain Patriot Brigade?'

Ben kept on, almost like he hadn't heard, climbing into the car and not looking at me. I'd started the engine before he finally said, 'I'm not going to answer that.'

'Why not? You know those guys are practically neo-Nazis?'

'I won't argue with that.'

I couldn't fit that and Cormac in my mind at the same time. 'And?'

'And I don't think the group even exists anymore. It's some guy in a basement running a Web site.'

'How do you know this? How are you two even involved?' My voice was becoming shrill.

'I don't owe you an explanation.'

That just pissed me off. 'Oh, really?'

He glared at me, and I bristled. That was just what we needed. A fight. Posturing. A pissing contest. I didn't want to rile up his wolf any more than it already was.

I put the car in gear and pulled out of the parking lot.

The movement of the car, driving down the highway back to the cabin, settled us down. Ben didn't want to tell me, and that was his right, I supposed. But I had other ways of finding information. We had a lot of other prob­lems to deal with right now.

A few more miles of ranch land sped past us when he said, 'I want to get a hotel room in Walsenburg, to be closer to the courthouse.'

We packed that night, and in the morning found a place to make camp for the duration.

The next day saw Ben working on building his case. Mostly, this involved talking to people, legwork, phone calls. He went to Alice, Joe, Tony, and Sheriff Marks. They were Cormac's defense. I offered to come along, but Ben said no. Cormac's lawyer needed to handle this, he said. My being there would muddy the issue. Remind them of their biases. Maybe he was right. Cormac told me not to let Ben out of my sight. But I let him go.

Besides, I had a research project of my own.

The public library, a couple of blocks down from the courthouse, had several computer terminals. I went to one and started searching. After a half an hour, I took my notes to the reference desk.

'Do you have copies of the Denver Post from these dates?'

The nice lady at the desk set me up at a microfiche machine, and away 1 went. It took about three hours of hunting to find the whole story.

Starting about fifteen years ago, a group of Front Range ranchers began protesting new restrictions and higher fees for grazing their cattle on public lands. Millions of acres across the West were owned by the government, and ranch­ers had been given access to those lands. To a lot of people, federally owned was the same as public, and anything that barred their access to those lands impinged on their rights as citizens. Some of them did the sane thing: they lob­bied Congress, lodged complaints, took the issue to court. Others, though, turned to militias. They stockpiled arms and began to prepare for the violent overthrow of the gov­ernment they saw as inevitable.