‘Is this a good moment?’
‘No,’ he said. ‘What’s up?’
‘It’s OK,’ the DS said. ‘Just wanted to talk to you, about Ari.’
‘Can it wait until the morning?’
‘Yeah, tomorrow. No worries.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘Tomorrow’s good,’ Glenn said, sounding terrible.
‘Tell me?’
‘Nah, tomorrow’s fine. Have a good one!’
‘I can talk.’
‘No. No, you can’t. Tomorrow’s good.’
‘Listen, mate, what is it?’
The line went dead.
Grace tried to phone his friend back, but got straight through to voicemail. He tried his own home number, in case he was there, but that went to the answering machine after eight rings. He jammed his phone into his trouser pocket, then knelt down.
For several minutes Cleo continued playing with Humphrey, again barely acknowledging his existence. Then, after a while, tiring of the game, she let go of the sock. Humphrey dragged it over to the beanbag that was his bed and continued to wrestle with it, snarling and yapping, as if he was fighting a dead rat.
‘Want to eat something?’ Cleo asked. ‘I made one of your favourite meals. Just in case you deigned to turn up.’
She had chosen almost exactly the same words as Sandy. Sandy used to get angry at the hours he worked, and especially on the occasions when he was called out in the middle of a meal with her.
‘Hey!’ he said. ‘What do you mean by that? In case I deigned to turn up!’
‘You’re the boss man,’ Cleo said. ‘You could be home on time if you really wanted to, couldn’t you?’
‘You know I can’t. Come on, let’s not have an argument about it. I’ve got three young murdered teenagers and a lot of people wanting answers. You’ve seen the kids – I want to find out who did this, and fast, before it happens again. And I have a ton of people on my back wanting answers before Christmas. Me included. I have to give it all I’ve got.’
‘I get people brought into the mortuary every day, and I give them and their relatives all I’ve got. But I manage to keep a separate compartment for my life. You don’t do that, Roy. Your work is your life.’
Feeling that he was pedalling in a vast, dark void, Grace said, ‘When you’re on call, you have to go out – sometimes 24/7 – don’t you?’
‘That’s different.’ She shrugged and gave him an odd stare.
Grace felt a sudden stab of panic. He took a long sip on his drink, but the alcohol had stopped working. For the first time since they had started dating, she seemed a stranger, and he was scared that he might be losing her.
‘It’s always going to be like this, isn’t it, Roy?’
‘Like what?’
‘Hanging around, waiting for you. You’re in love with your work.’
‘I’m in love with you,’ he said.
‘I’m in love with you too. And I’m not stupid enough to think that I can change you. I wouldn’t want to change you. You’re a good man. But…’ She shrugged. ‘I feel very proud to be carrying your – our – child. But I worry about what kind of a father you might be.’
‘My father was a police officer,’ Grace said. ‘He was a terrific dad to me. I was always very proud of him.’
‘But he was a sergeant, wasn’t he?’
‘What’s that supposed to mean?’
‘Shit, I need a drink. How long before we can open that bottle?’
‘Maybe another ten minutes?’
‘I’ll get supper ready. Can you take Humphrey out on to the patio? He needs to do a pee and a dump.’
Grace dutifully took the dog up on to the roof garden and walked him around in circles for ten minutes, during which Humphrey did nothing except nip his hand several more times. Then, when he let him back indoors, the dog trotted down the stairs, peed on the living-room floor, then squatted and proudly delivered a massive turd on a white rug.
By the time he had cleaned up the mess, the Roederer Cristal was perfectly chilled. Two bowls of prawns, diced avocado and rocket salad were laid out on the small kitchen table. He pulled two crystal flutes from a cabinet, opened the bottle as carefully as if he was tending to a baby, then poured it.
They clinked glasses.
Cleo, seated at the table, looked stunning. So beautiful, so vulnerable. It was utterly incredible to him that she was carrying their baby. She took a tentative sip, then closed her eyes for a moment. When they opened again, they were sparkling, like the drink.
‘Wow! That is amazing!’
He stared into her eyes. ‘Look,’ he said, ‘I know I haven’t yet met your father, and there are protocols that need to be observed in your world – but – Cleo – will you marry me?’
There was a long, agonizing silence, during which she just stared back at him with an unreadable expression. Finally she took another long sip, then said, ‘Roy, my darling. I don’t want this to sound -’ she hesitated – ‘sort of weird or anything, OK?’
He shrugged, having no idea what was coming next.
She twisted the glass in her hand. ‘I just thought to myself that if you proposed to me, one day, because I was pregnant, I would never marry you.’ She gave him a helpless, lost-child look. ‘That’s not the kind of life I want – for either of us.’
There was an even longer silence. Then he said, ‘Your being pregnant has nothing to do with this. That’s just a very big bonus. I love you, Cleo. You are the most beautiful person, inside and out, that I’ve ever been lucky enough to meet in my life. I love you with all my heart and soul. I will love you to the ends of the earth and back. And more. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.’
Cleo smiled, then nodded pensively. ‘That’s not bad,’ she said. Then she gave a rolling motion with her hand. ‘More?’
‘I love your nose. Your eyes. I love your humour. I love the way you look at the world. I love your mind. I love your kindness to people.’
‘So it’s not about me being a good shag?’ she said, in mock disappointment.
‘Yep, that too.’
She drank some more, then putting her elbows on the table, held her glass in the fingers of both hands and peered at him over the top of it. ‘You know, you’re not a bad shag either.’
‘Slapper!’
She wrinkled her nose. ‘Horny bastard.’
‘You like it!’
Puffing herself up haughtily, she said, ‘No, I don’t. I only do it to please you.’
He grinned. ‘I don’t believe you.’
Later, Humphrey sat on the bedroom floor, barking and whining while they made love, until he got bored and went to sleep.
Lying in each other’s arms, Cleo kissed Roy on the nose, then on each eye, then on the lips. ‘You know, you’re an incredible lover. You are so amazingly unselfish.’
‘Are most men selfish?’
She nodded. Then she grinned. ‘Talking from experience, of course, all the hundreds of lovers I’ve had – not!’
‘I take that as a compliment, coming from an expert.’
She thumped him. Then she kissed him again. ‘There’s something else about you, Detective Superintendent – you make me feel safe.’
‘You make me feel horny.’
She slid her hands down his hard, muscular body. Then stopped. ‘Bloody hell, you want more?’
‘Did we just do it?’
‘About five minutes ago.’
‘Must be my premature Alzheimer’s kicking in. I thought that was just – you know – foreplay!’
She grinned. ‘You are the horniest man I ever met!’
‘You make me horny,’ he said, and kissed her lightly on the lips, and then on her neck, her shoulders and then on every inch of her arms, legs, ankles, toes. Then they made love again.
A long time later, in the flickering glow of an almost burnt-down candle, Cleo, wrapped around him and dripping with perspiration, said, ‘OK, I surrender. I’ll marry you.’
‘You will?’
‘Yes, I will. I want to, more than anything in the world. But isn’t there a complication?’
‘What?’
‘You already have a wife.’
‘I’ve just started the process to have her declared dead, under the seven-year rule. My sister’s been trying to persuade me to do that for a long time.’
‘
She kissed him again, then, clinging tightly to him, fell asleep.
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