and he breathed fire-hot breath against her neck.
And then his prick gave one last spurt of his seed and began to deflate almost immediately inside her wet, clasping vagina and they both sank forward on the carpet, spent and in a state of near-unconsciousness.
Oh Jesus, that was good! Howard thought satiatedly. One of the best ever, even if it was so quick. And it's going to be better and better, once Cindy starts to come around fully…
And Cindy, lying there with the full weight of her husband on top of her, his warm sperm flowing hotly inside her cunt and belly, was thinking different thoughts now in the lulling aftermath of her tremendous orgasm. She was thinking about the pattern of her life, and how it was changing, how she could no longer deny that after what had happened here tonight. But changing for the better, or for the worse? She didn't know yet; she just didn't know yet…
After a long time, Howard raised up and lifted his wife in his arms and carried her into the bedroom. They crawled between the sheets on their bed, and Howard went to sleep almost immediately; but he did not cuddle next to her as he usually did, did not speak to her except to say goodnight, and she had the ominous feeling that she had failed to please him tonight, in spite of the fineness of both their orgasms — failed to please this new Howie who had replaced the quiet, sexually-conservative old one.
CHAPTER FIVE
Cindy lay beneath the comforting warmth of the bedcovers for some time after her husband left for work. She gazed at the square of diffused light which lit the window shade, knowing she should get up and start the housework, but not wanting to.
She just wanted to huddle there and think miserably of her troubles. Again and again she played over the events of the previous evening: the evening with the Taylors where it became all too apparent to Cindy that they knew of the photos she had allowed Howard to take of her that first night — knew and snidely made comments, mortifying her to the quick!
She moaned involuntarily, momentarily reliving that horrible scene with the Taylors. Were Ralph and Norma as hedonistic as they appeared to be? Was their Polaroid being used for the same immoral purposes? It must be so, for hadn't Ralph given Howard those awful pictures and the newspaper — the ones which had so aroused her own cravings that she had played with herself? The sweet, mentally tortured wife rolled her head back and forth on the pillow. Yes, yes, the answers were all yes.
And worse was the way that Ralph, the manager of her husband's job, was now seemingly becoming a manager of his private life as well. His influence seemed to seep more and more into what she and Howard were doing and enjoying, and this was intolerable. Before… before that horrid camera had been given, her husband had been so kind and gentle in his ways of love, had seemed to understand that she wasn't some salacious glutton, but a sensitive, moral wife. But no longer! She seemed to be unable to keep up with his growing needs, to expand into the world of abandoned, licentious sex where nothing mattered except debauched eroticism.
Only the liquor, that never-ending torrent of alcohol which she had drunk last night, had loosened her to the point where she too was aroused by lewd pictures — though, she now decided with a shudder, nowhere near as strongly excited as her husband was by them. And the drinking had also made her able to participate with Howard, to actually be naked and be made love to before the camera!
The pictures… the pictures… everything seemed to center around them. Howard had been more interested in them last night than he had been in making love to his own wife! His constant running back and forth to set the Polaroid, his snappish answers to her pleas for understanding and patience at her ignorance, of his still more angry response when she refused to take his penis in her mouth…
Oh, God! The whole mess was getting completely out of hand! What could she do? How could she once more garner her husband's attention? She dwelled on the subject, lying there in bed, brooding over the loss of his interest in her, over the way he was turned on by the pictures, over the way she was excited by them… She suddenly sat upright, her hand across her mouth.
No! I'm not like that! I don't like seeing others in private displays of sex acts… of seeing myself do them… no, it's my husband who's like that now, thanks to Ralph Taylor… not me! No, not me! Yet the more her conscious mind rejected the idea that she was incited by such photos to almost overwhelming passion, the more her subconsciousness admitted it. Deep, deep down, underneath all the excuses and rationales she could muster, beat the emotional heart of a truly pagan woman of lust.
All it would take to strip the layers away and bare her soul was the right combination… a combination that her husband and Ralph and Norma Taylor were busily working on, and one which fate would soon take a hand in as well.
At the moment, though, Cindy Jamison was in the throes of agony over her inability to please her husband. What could; she do? The pictures… she had the feeling that in them lay the answer.
It was no good, she said to herself with a sigh, and got up. She padded to the kitchen after throwing a robe around her, put on the coffee and then idly ambled into the living room. There, strewn before her morose, anguished eyes, were the evidences of last night's crime. The camera… still where her husband had left it, the scattered pictures of them in living color performing like two animals, the other pictures and the newspaper on the coffee table. Guiltily she scooped up the photos, averting her eyes from them lest they be offended in the light of the sober morning after, and wrapping them in the paper.
The kettle whistled, and she went back to the kitchen with her bundle. She poured herself a cup of hot coffee and sat on a stool beside the counter and glanced unavoidably at the paper. Inside were the pictures… and outside, staring back at her in black and white, were the little ads she and Howard had read to each other last night.
She re-read them, sipping her coffee, and two distinct things happened. One, a growing, almost gnawing tingling started again down between her legs as she cast her thoughts momentarily from her own grief and into the homes of the advertisers. The average Mr.-and-Mrs. Joneses who were posing naked on their beds and rugs, happily cavorting before the film of the camera and anxiously waiting to swap their experiences for others…
Her subconscious was at work again, building the fire of prurient desires faster than her consciousness could bank the flames. She tightened her inner thigh muscles, wishing away the featherlike proddings of her sensual nature… and, of course, was unable to.
The other thing which happened was the sudden emergence of an idea. The images of the advertisers enjoying themselves in this fashion once more reminded her of Howard. Was not her own husband like the ones in the ads? Didn't he receive a special thrill from exhibiting his sexual passion in front of a lens… and seeing the very same of others? Yes!
And in that instant, the perfect answer burst in her mind. The innocent young wife, so less worldly than other supposedly bolder and more swinging people, suddenly considered exchanging photos… of becoming one of the multitude of members of the Polaroid Club!
The thought made her gasp! She couldn't! That would only be going yet deeper into the pit she was now finding herself falling into. But… the situation as it was certainly was unbearable. She had to find a solution… even if it meant lowering herself. She viewed the blatant, shocking step the way a mountain climber might look down into a chasm while dangling at the end of his rope. To her, the exchange of lewd photographs would be like the climber dropping to a ledge where he could find room to breathe and a way back to the top; something he couldn't do while holding onto the rope where he was.
Still, the whole concept boggled her imagination. Trembling, she downed the coffee and then poured herself another cup. Could she? No… no!
But what other alternative was there? This way she would be pleasing her husband, wouldn't she? Yes, and not only would the pictures themselves make him respond, but she could learn from them as well. She knew that she had much to learn about the techniques of sex-play, that she was inexperienced in the arts of loving a man physically; Howard's reactions were proof of that. She could study the positions — as one would a textbook illustration, of course, she hastily told herself and be a better wife for it. The third reason for 'taking the plunge' was actually not a conscious thought at all, but perhaps it was the strongest motivation of all. It was the fact, which she would have hotly denied, that she was excited by the pictures as much, even more, than her husband. She wanted
