Little Brother

We were looking at a stack of newspapers we’d picked up and brought to the cafe. They all contained “reporting” on the party in Dolores Park and to a one, they made it sound like a drunken, druggy orgy of kids who’d attacked the cops. USA Today described the cost of the “riot” and included the cost of washing away the pepper-spray residue from the gas-bombing, the rash of asthma attacks that clogged the city’s emergency rooms, and the cost of processing the eight hundred arrested “rioters.”

No one was telling our side.

“Well, the Xnet got it right, anyway,” I said. I’d saved a bunch of the blogs and videos and photostreams to my phone and I showed them to her. They were first-hand accounts from people who’d been gassed, and beaten up. The video showed us all dancing, having fun, showed the peaceful political speeches and the chant of “Take It Back” and Trudy Doo talking about us being the only generation that could believe in fighting for our freedoms.

“We need to make people know about this,” she said.

“Yeah,” I said, glumly. “That’s a nice theory.”

“Well, why do you think the press doesn’t ever publish our side?”

“You said it, they’re whores.”

“Yeah, but whores do it for the money. They could sell more papers and commercials if they had a controversy. All they have now is a crime — controversy is much bigger.”

“OK, point taken. So why don’t they do it? Well, reporters can barely search regular blogs, let alone keep track of the Xnet. It’s not as if that’s a real adult-friendly place to be.”

“Yeah,” she said. “Well, we can fix that, right?”

“Huh?”

“Write it all up. Put it in one place, with all the links. A single place where you can go that’s intended for the press to find it and get the whole picture. Link it to the HOWTOs for Xnet. Internet users can get to the Xnet, provided they don’t care about the DHS finding out what they’ve been surfing.”

“You think it’ll work?”

“Well, even if it doesn’t, it’s something positive to do.”

“Why would they listen to us, anyway?”

“Who wouldn’t listen to M1k3y?”

I put down my coffee. I picked up my phone and slipped it into my pocket. I stood up, turned on my heel, and walked out of the cafe. I picked a direction at random and kept going. My face felt tight, the blood gone into my stomach, which churned.

They know who you are, I thought. They know who M1k3y is. That was it. If Ange had figured it out, the DHS had too. I was doomed. I had known that since they let me go from the DHS truck, that someday they’d come and arrest me and put me away forever, send me to wherever Darryl had gone.

It was all over.

She nearly tackled me as I reached Market Street. She was out of breath and looked furious.

“What the hell is your problem, mister?”

I shook her off and kept walking. It was all over.

She grabbed me again. “Stop it, Marcus, you’re scaring me. Come on, talk to me.”

I stopped and looked at her. She blurred before my eyes. I couldn’t focus on anything. I had a mad desire to jump into the path of a Muni trolley as it tore past us, down the middle of the road. Better to die than to go back.

“Marcus!” She did something I’d only seen people do in the movies. She slapped me, a hard crack across the face. “Talk to me, dammit!”

I looked at her and put my hand to my face, which was stinging hard.

“No one is supposed to know who I am,” I said. “I can’t put it any more simply. If you know, it’s all over. Once other people know, it’s all over.”

“Oh god, I’m sorry. Look, I only know because, well, because I blackmailed Jolu. After the party I stalked you a little, trying to figure out if you were the nice guy you seemed to be or a secret axe-murderer. I’ve known Jolu for a long time and when I asked him about you, he gushed like you were the Second Coming or something, but I could hear that there was something he wasn’t telling me. I’ve known Jolu for a long time. He dated my older sister at computer camp when he was a kid. I have some really good dirt on him. I told him I’d go public with it if he didn’t tell me.”

“So he told you.”

“No,” she said. “He told me to go to hell. Then I told him something about me. Something I’d never told anyone else.”

“What?”

She looked at me. Looked around. Looked back at me. “OK. I won’t swear you to secrecy because what’s the point? Either I can trust you or I can’t.

“Last year, I —” she broke off. “Last year, I stole the standardized tests and published them on the net. It was just a lark. I happened to be walking past the principal’s office and I saw them in his safe, and the door was hanging open. I ducked into his office — there were six sets of copies and I just put one into my bag and took off again. When I got home, I scanned them all and put them up on a Pirate Party server in Denmark.”

“That was you?” I said.