It was… large. Its lofty emotions could be described in human terms only by analogy.
Nevertheless -
The anti-Xeelee looked on its completed works and was satisfied.
Its awareness spread across light-years. Shining matter littered the universe; the Xeelee had come, built fine castles of that shining froth, and had now departed. Soon the shining stuff itself would begin to decay, and already the anti-Xeelee could detect the flexing muscles of the denizens of that dark ocean that lay below.
The function of the anti-Xeelee had been to guide the huge projects of the Xeelee, the projects whose purpose had been to build a way out of this deadly cosmos. In order to achieve their goals the Xeelee had even moved back through time to modify their own evolution, turning their history into a closed timelike curve, a vacuum diagram. The anti-Xeelee was the consciousness of this process, traveling — like an antiparticle — back in time from the moment of its dissolution to the moment of its creation.
Now the job was done. The anti-Xeelee felt something like contentment at the thought that its charges had escaped, were now beyond the reach of those… others, who the Xeelee had in the end been unable to oppose.
The anti-Xeelee could let go.
It spread wide and thin; soon, with a brief,. nonlocalized burst of selectrons and neutralinos its awareness would multiply, fragment, shatter, sink into the vacuum…
But wait. There was something new.
It didn’t take Michael long to check out the status of his fragile craft.
There was some power still available to the lifedome from its internal cells. That might last — what — a few hours? As far as he could tell there was no functional link between the dome and the rest of the
So he had no motive power. Not so much as an in-system boat; no way of adjusting his situation.
He didn’t grouse about this, nor did he fear his future. Such as it was. It was a miracle he’d even survived his passage through the wormhole network… This was all a bizarre bonus.
Harry was gone, of course.
The universe beyond the lifedome looked aged, dead, darkened. The lifedome was a little bubble of light and life, isolated.
Michael was alone, here at the end of time. He could feel it.
Michael gathered a meal together; the mundane chore, performed in a bright island of light around the lifedome’s small galley, was oddly cheering. He carried the food to his couch, lay back with the plate balancing on one hand, and dimmed the dome lights.
God alone knew where he was… if 'where' could have a meaning after such a dislocation in spacetime. The stars were distant, dark, red. Could so long have passed? — or, he wondered, could something, some unknown force, have acted to speed the stars’ aging in the aeons beyond the flashbulb slice of time occupied by humans?
There was no large-scale sign of human life, or activity; nor, indeed, of any intelligent life.
Intelligence had had time to work, Michael reflected. After millions of years, with a faster-than-light hyperdrive and singularity technology in the hands of hundreds of species, the universe should have been transformed…
The reconstruction of the universe should have been as obvious as a neon sign a thousand light-years tall.
…But the universe had merely
He knew from the subjective length of his passage through the wormholes that he couldn’t have traveled through more than a few million years — a fraction of the great journey to timelike infinity — and yet already the tide of life had receded. Were any humans left, anywhere?
He smiled wistfully. So much for Shira’s grand dreams of life covering the universe, of manipulating the dynamical evolution of spacetime itself…
There would be no 'Ultimate Observer,' then. The Project of the Friends of Wigner could not, after all, have succeeded: there would have been nobody to hear the elaborately constructed message. But, Michael thought as he gazed out at the decayed universe, by God it had been a grand conception. To think of finite humans, already long since dust, even daring to challenge these deserts of time -
He finished his food, set the plate carefully on the floor. He drank a glass of clean water, went to the freefall shower, washed in a spray of hot water. He tried to open up his senses, to relish every particle of sensation. There was a last time for everything, for even the most mundane experiences.
He considered finding some music to play, a book to read. Somehow that might have seemed fitting.
The lights failed. Even the comms telltale from the drones winked out.
By the dimmed starlight, half by touch, he made his way back to his couch.
It grew colder; he imagined the heat of the lifedome leaking out into the immense sink of the blackened, ancient sky. What would get him first — the cold, or the failing air?
He wasn’t afraid. Oddly, he felt renewed: young, for the first time in a subjective century, the pressure of time no longer seeming to weigh on him.
Perhaps he was finding that peace of death, the readiness to abandon the cares of a too long life, which his father had discovered before him.
And he found, at last, a gladness that he had lived long enough to see all he had.
He crossed his hands on his chest. He was beginning to shiver, the air sharp in his nostrils. He closed his eyes.
Something like curiosity, a spark in a shard of its awareness, stirred the anti-Xeelee.
Here was an artifact.
How had this cooling wreckage got here, to this place and time?
There was something inside it. A single, dimming candle of consciousness -
The anti-Xeelee reached out.
There was a ship, another ship, hanging over the lifedome.
Michael, dying, stared in wonder.
It was something like a sycamore seed wrought in jet-black. No lights showed in the small, podlike hull. Night-dark wings that must have spanned hundreds of miles loomed over the wreck of the
The Wigner Friends had told Michael of ships like this. This was a nightfighter, the wings sheet-discontinuities in the fabric of spacetime.
The cold sank claws into his chest; the muscles of his throat abruptly spasmed, and dark clouds ringed his vision.
The anti-Xeelee plucked the guttering candle flame from its wick.
The last heat fled from the wrecked craft; the air in the translucent dome began to frost over the comms panels, the couches, the galley, the abandoned body.
The anti-Xeelee cupped the flame, almost amused by its tiny fear, its wonder, its helpless longing to survive.
The anti-Xeelee spun the flame out into a web of quantum functions, acausal and nonlocal.
Michael was — discorporeal; it was as if the jewel of consciousness that had lain behind his eyes had been plucked out of his body and flung into space.
He did not even have heartbeats to count.
But there was something here with him, he sensed: some — entity. It was like a great ceiling under which he hovered and buzzed, insectlike. He sensed a vast, satisfied weariness in its mood, the contentment of the traveler at the end of a long and difficult road. For a long time he stayed within the glow of its protection.
Then it began to dissolve.
Michael wanted to cry out, like a child after its huge parent. He was buffeted, battered. It was as if a glacier of memories and emotions was calving into a hundred icebergs about him; and now those icebergs in turn burst into shards that melted into the surface of a waiting sea…
And he was left alone.
It was impossible to measure time, other than by the slow evolution of his own emotions.
He endured despair. Why had he been brought to this point in spacetime, preserved in such a fashion, and then so casually abandoned?
The despair turned to anger, and lasted a long time.
But the anger faded.
He became curious.
He began to experiment with his awareness.
Physically he seemed to be composed of a tight knot of quantum wave functions; now, cautiously, he began to unravel that knot, to allow the focus of his consciousness to slide over spacetime.
