'and all Lady Dolours can dwell upon is the possibility of bad things that never even happened! We were thrown about inside the drag, tumbled roughly in its wreck, and Dolours so unwell she was scarce capable of fighting. What else was I supposed to do?'
Remembering the startling and dangerously incompetent effect of her wild witting, Rossamund could not quite see how Threnody had done any more than make a bad situation worse. The way he remembered the play of things, it had ultimately been Dolours who had saved them all, the lamplighters included. Indeed, given that the prentices had dispatched two of the horn-ed nickers themselves, Rossamund figured a little more gratitude might have been shown. Still, he held his tongue: he would not gainsay a woman in her distress, especially not one as fiery as this. She had done her bit, and had not flinched from the fight-and none should fault her on that. This girl had passion. All she needed was practice.
'I reckon you did as boldly as you knew to, miss,' Rossamund said matter-of-factly.
She gave a little start, as if this was the last encouragement she expected.
'You saw me take on those wretched bugaboos, then?' she said.
Felt, more like. 'Aye, miss.'
'I'll not shrink from the fact that I did not defeat them alone. Oh no,' she declared with a flourishing wave of her hand, 'my sisters and I did it together, mastered and destroyed the nickers.'
Rossamund thought on the valiant fight the calendars had made as a troupe. 'It was a genuine, heroical spectacle, miss,' he said. 'I've never seen such a thing as happened last night.'
'So it was, I know.Yet they made me apologize!' Threnody seethed. 'They made me apologize to that… that pompous muck hill.'
By 'apologize' Rossamund could only assume she had been made to repent of her clumsy, ill-advised witting; and by 'pompous muck hill' she meant Grindrod, the lamplighter-sergeant. He thought she might consider herself fortunate not to have been made to apologize to the lampsmen and prentices as well-it was their lives she had endangered.
'Yet it was we who were refused at Wellnigh!' She balled her fists.
'Hardly seems fair, miss.'
'Hardly, indeed! Pannette dead! Idesloe dead!' the girl continued. 'And Dolours insists we make amends like your lot were the worst done by! To think I actually wanted to join in with you clod-headed blunderers!'
'Don't count me in too quick with the clodheads or the blunderers, miss,' he replied.
'Well, since you are but half the size of all the other boys I suppose it would be hard to do so.'
Rossamund blinked at the sting of her insult. He knew he was undersized: his embarrassingly truncated fodicar was continual evidence. Dumbstruck and mortified that those near might have heard her, he realized she was no longer even paying him any mind. Instead she was looking up over his right shoulder. Rossamund became aware of the looming of somebody there. He looked up to find Arimis Arabis at his back.
The oldest, most worldly-wise of the prentices, Arimis Arabis was top of the manning lists-both by letter fall and ability. The frankest shot with a fusil, he also considered himself handsome. Though Rossamund could not see it, a gaggle of dolly-mops in Silvernook confirmed Arabis' self-approval every Domesday, following him about on his jaunts about town and giggling at everything he uttered.
'Hullo to thee, Rossamund,' he drawled, all charm and swagger. He leaned on Rossamund's shoulder and smiled knowingly at Threnody. He must have been down in the cell row cleaning up for eating and missed her petulant antics with the apple. 'I see it's true.We have a fair Damsel of Callistia among us. Would you care to introduce her?'
'No, he would not,' Threnody answered frostily. 'Go away!'
Arabis' grin vanished. 'Just making friendly,' he retorted. He took his hand off Rossamund's shoulder immediately and straightened. 'But you seem to know as much about being friendly as you do about witting.' He clapped Rossamund on the back as he left. 'Fair travels with that one, matey,' he sneered, and made his way to the other table and immediately began to talk to the prentices there. Laughter rose, and these boys glanced over at Threnody in disapproval.
Rossamund glumly sucked at his food.
Threnody raised her chin a little higher-a telltale sign, he was beginning to notice, of impatience or anger or embarrassment.
'Did I hear your name a-right, lamp boy?' She was staring at him again. It seemed she needed someone to stare at right now.There was a vindictive gleam growing in her eye. 'It can't really be so, can it? Rossamund?'
'Many folk find some fun in my name, though I don't,' he replied evenly. 'It is what it is and I am who I am.'
Threnody had enough grace to drop her gaze.
For a while they ate in silence. Rossamund fretted vaguely and wished that, just for today, middens was not quite so long. Threnody poked at her food and screwed up her nose at the small beer.
'Too small by half,' the girl muttered at the beverage.
'It certainly is that, miss. Much better down at the Harefoot Dig,' Rossamund returned, happy to punctuate the awkwardness.
'Anything anywhere is better than here.' Her face was tight and unhappy.
Rossamund could not be quiet in the face of such misery. 'I don't understand. If all this makes you so wretched, why join us?' he asked.
'You're an impertinent little lamp boy, aren't you?' She sniffed loftily. 'Since you inquire, I joined because I wanted to, why else?'
'Why not stay as a calendar?' Rossamund could not reckon such a thing. Calendars were mystical, romantic figures who resisted the powerful and helped the destitute. They confronted monsters whenever these threatened and offered help wherever folk floundered. The way of a calendar was a goodly adventurous life if ever one existed: making life better, not just mindlessly destroying monsters for pay like Europe or the other pugnators.
'If you knew my mother…,' she replied thickly, almost to herself. 'If you, too, were pinned in the never- relaxing clutch of Marchessa Syntyche, the Lady Vey, August of the Right of the Pacific Dove, then you would understand. No choices. No schemes of your own.'
'But you did have a choice.' He could not help himself. 'You chose to come to Winstermill and be a lighter.'
Taken aback, the girl pursed her lips. 'That was a rare lapse of my mother's. For once she let her grip slip. Mother and I are always at odds. I go left, she goes right. I say black, she says white. If I want something one way, she will always have it the other. If I was ever truly listened to-if what I wanted counted, if she had ever faltered for a moment and remembered that underneath that waspy bosom she has a heart and think me her daughter…' Threnody seethed-her haughty mien subsumed by anger. 'And not just a tool to preserve her precious clave, then I might never have become a blighted lahzar!'
Skilly forgotten, Rossamund listened, motionless.
'I wanted to serve the Dove as a spendonette, blazing away at monsters with my pistols, not…' Threnody pressed her knuckles against her brow, wincing. 'Not spend the rest of my life swallowing down cures to quell revolting organs that do little more than ache!'
He knew enough about wits to know what she meant. Cathar's Treacle, twice a day, else headaches, spasms or worse would beset her.
'But once transmogrification was forced on me-well, I chose the path of the lightning-throwing astrapecrith just like the Branden Rose-'
Rossamund's attention pricked at the mention of Europe by her more famous title, but he did not interrupt the talk bubbling out of the girl prentice like froth from an over-shaken beer bung.
'— But oh no! Dear Mother was not having that! I was ordered to become a wit because the clave needed wits, and a good calendar always obeys her august. I would never have managed so long but for Dolours.'
Middens was nearing its end. Other prentices were rising and depositing their pannikins, mess-kids and tankards on a broad palette for cleaning.
'Finally I made it all so terrible at home that Mother could bear me no longer. She's agreed to this,' she said, looking about to show the mess hall and all the prentices, 'only because it has made her life simpler, not through any care for me. And here I can become a pistoleer. Not quite the good calendar spendonette I wished for, but…' She shrugged, all angst submerged with baffling alacrity. 'Well, you have my life's tale before you, so return in kind:
