her face and then, with a sound like a boulder plunging from the sky, she disappeared beneath the surface.
The girl’s name was Brenda Cameron. She was twenty-nine. She was someone’s daughter, someone’s friend, someone’s lover. It was said of her that desperation and loss drove her to take her own life, but that was not true: Brenda Cameron wanted to live. But, more than that, she wanted to be loved. And for that human wish, she paid with her life.
Hazel hadn’t been inside her house for over two months. It smelled close and felt anonymous, like a museum without its exhibits. They’d made two trips from the house on McConnell Street since early that morning – how had they amassed that much
It did feel good to be home. Or rather, it felt good to no longer be an invalid and a guest. Glynnis went up the stairs with the clothes,
She went out to the car to see if there was anything else to bring in, but it was empty now. Glynnis returned and closed the hatchback. “That’s it. If I find anything else, I’ll send Andrew around with it.”
“Make sure you put a tracking device on him.”
Glynnis laughed. “Maybe
“Listen.”
“It’s okay, Hazel.”
“No, I want to say this. You had no good reason to open your doors to me, but you did. I don’t know what I would have done otherwise.”
“You’re not a mistake Andrew made, Hazel. You’re a part of his life. That makes you part of mine.”
“I’m not sure many people in your position would see it that way. I’m lucky that you did.”
“I don’t begrudge anyone the love they feel,” Glynnis said. “Even if it hurts me a little to know of it.”
The two women regarded each other. “It hurts?” said Hazel.
“I can’t help feeling stuff I don’t want to feel. The two of you have a lot of history. I admire that… and sometimes it makes me miserable.”
She didn’t think about it. She just stepped around the open car door and took Glynnis into her arms. They held each other silently for a moment and then Hazel, awkwardly, stepped back. “I’m sorry it makes you unhappy,” Hazel said. “I want you to know how grateful I am for everything.”
Glynnis pushed the bottom of her palm across a cheek. “Is this the beginning of a beautiful friendship?” she asked, and there was the briefest moment of hesitation before both women laughed nervously.
Hazel held out her hand. “Let’s not push it.”
In the dining room, Martha was pulling the drapes wide, opening the windows, and squirting Windex on the panes. Her mother was marvelling at the quantity of dead flies lying on their backs on the windowsill. “You’d think they’d see their buddies lying dead of exhaustion and go try another exit, but no.”
“They’re flies.”
“Ex-flies. Go fetch a broom, would you?”
Hazel passed through the kitchen, where the groceries they’d bought were still only partially unpacked. She was sure she’d seen Andrew carry them in, and it was strange of him to stop partway through a job. There was a carton of milk sitting on the counter. She put it in the fridge and then stood over the sink and looked into the back garden. He was nowhere to be seen. “Andrew?” she called.
She heard him answer from the bathroom in the hall behind her. “Just a minute.”
“Sorry,” she called. She heard bubbling coming from the counter and turned to see the coffee finishing. The sight of a pot of coffee filling would, for some time now, link itself in her memory to the early morning encounter with Claire Eldwin in her kitchen, living the last few moments of her freedom. She’d wept in the car back to Mayfair, but neither Hazel nor Constable Childress had inquired whether she wept for herself, her husband, or Brenda Cameron. When they got to Mayfair, Eldwin was in surgery. They kept her cuffed in a curtained-off part of the ER for two hours, and when they had word he’d come out, they let her into the ICU to see him. He was still unconscious, but his pulse had risen and his colour had improved. The surgeon had had to amputate his right arm at the elbow: the cut wrist had become infected and gangrene was setting in – they’d had no choice. The sides of Eldwin’s head were bandaged as well – they told her if he recovered he’d have to find a plastic surgeon to reconstruct his ears, but for now, all they could do was clean up the wounds and graft skin over the gaping holes to protect the structures within. She stood at his bedside, her hands behind her back, and called to him, but he’d given her no response. “He’ll be asleep awhile yet,” the nurse told her. She wanted to wait for him to wake, but the brief visit was all Constable Childress would allow her: they had a date to keep with Superintendent Ilunga.
Hazel had sent Wingate back to Port Dundas to start on the paperwork, but she lingered behind, hoping Eldwin would open his eyes. She had yet to actually
Joanne Cameron was under observation. There would have to be charges – she was not innocent, she had chosen to accept Dana Goodman’s methods – but Hazel thought an understanding judge would take the mitigating circumstances under consideration. Grief was not the same as insanity, but in some cases, it was close.
As for Goodman, the teams that had gone out to Pickamore to bring him in had found his body in the tall grass six metres back from the shoreline. She’d shot him cleanly through the throat: the autopsy showed he’d drowned in his own blood. It was the first time she’d discharged her gun in eight years, and it was the first time she’d ever killed a man. She looked into her heart and she saw that she could live with what she’d done.
Hazel poured coffee into four cups, two milks and two sugars for her, regular for Martha, and black for her mother. She was hovering over Andrew’s mug when she heard him come out of the bathroom. “Are you still double-double, or has your wife reduced your sugar intake?”
He made a mocking “O” with his mouth. “My
“Don’t push me, Andrew. Seeing you coming out of the bathroom with the newspaper in your hands is making me hallucinate.”
“I’ll go double-double for old times’ sake,” he said. She stirred and passed him his cup. He sat at the kitchen table, tossing the morning’s
“You think so?”
“You’re full of surprises.”
“Still,” she said.
He sipped his coffee, grimaced, and asked for more sugar. As he stirred it in, he said, “You and Gord Sunderland working together. I’m going to watch the sky for pigs.”
“It was the only way to convince him not to print all the scurrilous rumours about Ray Greene coming back to town. Among other things.”
Andrew raised an eyebrow at her. “Scurrilous rumours are usually true.
She hesitated. “Maybe.”
“And how do you feel about that?”
“My feelings are mixed.”
“Your feelings are always mixed.”
“Then I guess it’s business as usual.”
It could have been five or ten years ago, the two of them bantering at the kitchen table. Any time but now. Except it