it might be expensive. And, anyway, how would he explain where he'd gotten the idea?
'So, let's see,' Jen said. 'A signal. I've got it-how about if I look out every morning at nine, and if you can come over, you shine a flashlight at me. I'll shine one back if everything's safe.'
'We don't have any flashlights,' Luke said. 'Not that work, I mean.'
Jen frowned.
'Why not?'
'We haven't had any batteries in, I don't know, four or five years,' Luke explained. In fact, he felt proud even to remember what a flashlight was.
'Okay, okay,' Jen said. 'No flashlight, no computer-'
'Oh, we have a computer,' Luke said. 'My parents do. And I think it still works. But it's in Dad's office in the front of the house, and I'm not allowed in there. And, anyhow, I'd never be allowed to touch the computer.' He remembered once when he was very young, maybe three or four, and he'd followed Mother into Dad's office while she was cleaning. The rows of letters on the computer keyboard had looked like a toy to him, and he'd reached one finger up and tapped the space bar, over and over again. Mother had turned around and freaked out.
'They can find you now!' she'd screamed. 'If they were watching-'
And for weeks after that, she'd hidden him even more carefully than ever, locking him in his room when she had to go outside.
Jen rolled her eyes.
'Don't tell me your family believes that Government propaganda stuff,' she said. 'They've spent so much money trying to convince people they can monitor all the TVs and computers, you know they couldn't have afforded to actually do it. I've been using our computer since I was three-and watching TV, too-and they've never caught me. How about a candle?'
'What?' It took Luke a minute to realize she was talking about the signal again. 'The candles-they're all in the kitchen, and I'm not allowed-'
Jen mimicked the words as he said them: '-to go in there.'
'They've got you on an awfully short leash, don't they?' she asked.
'No. I mean, yes. But they're just trying to protect me-'
Jen shook her head. 'Yeah, I've heard that one. Ever hear of disobeying?'
'I-' Luke started defensively. 'I'm here, aren't I?'
Jen laughed. 'Got me. But, listen, if you can't do candles or a flashlight, how about just turning on a light that I can see?'
Luke was quicker this time figuring out that she was still talking about the signal.
'The one by the back door,' Luke said. 'You can't miss it.'
He wasn't allowed to turn that on, either, but he didn't dare say 'not allowed' again.
Now Luke toyed with his mashed potatoes. His entire conversation with Jen had been like that-she mocked, he defended, but she always got her way.
Of course-he defended her to himself-she knew and had seen so much more than him. After he'd finished his story on the couch, she'd told him hers.
'First,' she'd said defiantly, 'my parents had me on purpose. Thirteen years ago. Mom already had Bull and Brawn from her first marriage-'
'Your brothers?' Luke asked.
'Yeah. Buellton and Brownley, really, but what kind of names are those for knuckleheads like them? Mom was going through some snobbish upper-class phase with husband number one.'
'She's had more than one husband?' Luke asked. He didn't know that was possible.
'Sure,' Jen said. 'Dad-who's really my stepdad-is number three.'
Luke found that so confusing, he just kept his mouth shut.
'Anyhow,' Jen said. 'Mom was dying to have a little girl, so when she and husband number two got together, she went and paid some doctor lots of money so she could get pregnant.'
'What if you'd been a boy?' Luke asked.
'Oh, they got in on the beginning of the gender selection experiments.' Luke must have given Jen a particularly blank look, because she explained it. 'That means they made sure I was a girl. Doctors can do that, you know, but the Government outlawed the procedure because they were afraid it'd throw the population even more out of whack. I'm sure my parents paid a lot for it Were your mom and dad trying for a girl?'
Luke thought about it. He remembered Mother saying she'd wanted four boys, but would she have wanted a girl even more? Someone like Mother? He couldn't really picture a girl in his house.
'They weren't trying for anything,' he said. 'I was a surprise. Luck.'
Jen nodded. 'I didn't think they paid for you,' she said. Then she put her hand over her mouth. 'That sounded really terrible, didn't it? I didn't mean anything by it. It's just-you're the first person I've met who wasn't a Baron.'
'How do you know I'm not?' Luke asked stiffly.
'Well-' Jen waved her hand in a way that made Luke even more aware of the contrast between his ragged flannel shirt and patched jeans, and Jen's perfect house. 'Look, don't be mad. It doesn't matter. Or maybe it does, but I think it's cool that you're not a Baron. You can help me even more.'
'Help?' Luke asked.
'With the rally,' Jen said. She bit her lip. 'Should I- there's no way you could be an infiltrator, is there? Can I trust you?'
'Of course you can,' Luke said. He felt insulted again.
Jen leaned her head back and stared at the ceiling, as if an answer were written there. Then she looked back at Luke.
'I'm sorry. I'm botching this. I'm not used to really talking, just on the Net. Look, I trust you, but I'm not the only one involved. So let's wait, okay?'
'Okay,' Luke said. But he couldn't help sounding injured.
Jen leaned over and gave his shoulders a quick shake.
'Oh, don't say it like that. Say, 'Okay, Jen, I respect your judgment'. Or, 'Okay, Jen, whatever you think is best'.' She giggled. 'That's what Dad tells me I should say when I disagree with him. Can you believe it? Lawyers!'
Luke was glad the subject had changed. 'Your dad's a lawyer?' he asked.
Jen rolled her eyes. 'Yeah, all Mom's husbands have been. Strange taste, huh? Number one was an environmental lawyer, of all things; number two was corporate-that's how they had enough money to get me. And number three, Dad, is with the Government. High up, I might add.'
'But-if you're an illegal-' Luke hadn't thought he could get any more confused.
Jen laughed.
'Haven't you learned? Government leaders are the worst ones for breaking laws. How do you think we got this house? How do you think I got Internet access? How do you think we live?'
'I don't know,' Luke said, fully honest. 'I don't think I know much of anything.'
Jen patted his head, as if he were a little kid or a dog.
'That's okay,' she said. 'You'll learn.'
It wasn't long after that that Luke said he had to leave, because he was afraid Dad or Matthew or Mark might come in for lunch a little early. He dreaded the trip back. Jen walked him to the door, chattering the whole way.
'I'll fix the screen and deal with the security system, so no one will ever know you were here,' she said. 'And- oh, no!'
Luke followed her gaze. She was staring at three pinpoints of blood on the carpet.
'I'm sorry,' Luke said. 'That must be from when I scraped my hand. I'll clean it up. There's still time-'
Secretly, he was glad of the delay.
'No, no,' Jen said impatiently. 'I don't care about the carpet. It's just that Mom and Dad will know, and when they see I don't have any cuts-'
And then, before Luke even knew what she was doing, she thrust her hand toward the torn part of the screen.
