spoke for themselves. There was no need to do anything other than record them.
“What’s happening?” I asked her.
“I guess we’l be going home,” she sighed, biting into her nectarine.
“You’ve cut your hair.” She’d had shoulder-length hair for as long as I’d known her, but it was cropped now. Her new haircut made her look a lit le like Ingrid Bergman.
El a smiled. “Lice. It was driving me crazy, the shampoos didn’t work, so I got up in the middle of the night and chopped it al of .”
Ismail heard us and said, “Stay away from me!” and the three of us laughed. His friend, Fayez, wanted to know what we were laughing about, and El a repeated what she’d said in Arabic. Fayez nodded, and though he didn’t smile, his eyes relented a lit le. He was amused in spite of himself.
The organizers announced that the demonstration was over and we would be going home. Ismail cried out, “Why, why!” He wanted us to stay, try harder. After al , we were citizens, immune from danger; surely there was something we could do: throw ourselves on the soldiers, maybe, or sit on the road and refuse to move, even if it took days and weeks, until something was done.
I looked at him helplessly. He saw my distress and tried to console me. “At least we have no dead this time, thanks to you.”
His friend grumbled something in Arabic.
“What’s he saying?” I asked.
Ismail was embarrassed. “He’s asking me what I expect you to do. Don’t listen to him. He’s in a bad mood.”
“The girl who had the seizure, is she al right?” I asked. Ra had vanished; I didn’t know whether he was stil in the ambulance or merely lost in the crowd.
“Yes, she made it.”
El a said something in Arabic, and we al shook hands good-bye. El a’s words seemed to have had an uplifting e ect on the two friends.
“What did you say?” I asked her as we walked away.
“Just wished them wel .”
El a and I walked with the group through Ein Mazra’a to the stone field. We took a longer route this time, and the Palestinians gave us cold water to drink. When we reached the borders of the town they said, Wel , that’s it, we can’t go further, our IDs are orange. Thank you for coming, they said. God wil bless you. Thank you for your courage. We want to be your brothers, and to protect you.
We crossed the eld to the road, where our large solid buses were waiting for us. They looked like alien spaceships in their incongruous complacency.
El a and I were on separate buses. “Take care, Dana,” she said.
Everyone climbed onto the buses and sank down on the cushioned seats, sweaty and satis ed. This was the way it was: we left the Palestinians behind, we left them in hel , but people were laughing and talking, because you had to survive and you did it by contracting into your own narrow life, your own personal life, distinct from the con ict and the deaths and the su ering. And besides, the event had been a success, within the con nes of goals that were also narrowed and thinned down: there had been a demonstration, even if we had not reached Mejwan or seen Idris. We had walked side by side with the Palestinians, we had shown that it was possible. And at least the activists who’d stayed overnight had visited Idris. He was in constant pain, they said, and money had to be raised for a stay at a rehabilitation facility in England. He’d been a sports instructor and youth leader before he was shot. The army had promised an investigation, but nothing ever came of such promises.
Through the streaked bul etproof window of the bus I watched the last demonstrators put away their signs. I was keeping an eye out for Odelia. Rafi sat down next to me.
“I’m saving this seat for my friend,” I said.
“Odelia? She’s on the bus behind us.”
“Oh. okay, then. How’s the girl?”
“Oh. okay, then. How’s the girl?”
“She’s fine. Now let’s see what the orders are for today.” He took a sheet of paper out of his pocket. It was covered with notes, handwrit en in green pen.
“Things I have to do,” he said, smiling. “My wife makes lists for me.”
I looked out the window again; I tried to ignore him.
But he said, “I’ve wanted to talk to you for a long time.”
I turned toward him. “I have seen you, come to think of it. You had shorter hair. You had no hair at al .”
“Yes, my hair grows fast, I’m due for another haircut. Where do you live?”
“Opposite the City Beach Hotel.”
“Real y? The manager there is a good friend of mine. We were in the same unit. Coby, do you know him? Tal , dark hair, glasses?”
“Yes, I’ve seen him around. I use their fax machine sometimes.”
“Give him my regards.”
“Okay,” I said.
