I hung up. The air in the choir room suddenly felt thin. Father Olson?s absence loomed. I tried to erase images of a gun being raised menacingly in his direction. Of shots. Beside me, the silver bar holding the burgundy choir robes glimmered too brightly from the neon light overhead. In the hallway, shouts, squawks, and cries of disbelief rose to a din that rivaled the hammering in my ears. I closed my eyes and tried to breathe.
?Goldy, what the ? ?
Slowly, I turned. Marla Korman?s large presence filled the door to the choir room. The noise from the hallway roared louder.
?Goldy, you look like hell! Hey! Why?d you toss your hat? I went to four stores to find that thing.? Marla closed the door behind her. ?What?s all the commotion out there about? And look at your suit. Have you been sitting on the floor? For crying out loud!?
She click-clacked over in her Italian leather heels and put her small hands with their polished red nails on my shoulders. An incongruously conservative navy suit hugged her wide body, which was usually far more outrageously clad. The tight French twist taming her thick, normally frizzed brown hair seemed somehow absurd. She had worn the suit and pinned up her hair for my wedding My wedding that now, suddenly, was not to be. I wondered how long it would take for the noisy news-sharing of the hallway to reach the people out in the pews.
?Hoohoo, Goldy!? she said brightly. ?I know you?re in there. You want tot ell me what?s going on??
I tried to reply twice before I could say, ?Olson?s dead. Tom … ?
She grasped my shoulders more tightly. ?Dead? Dead?? Her voice shrilled in my ear.
?Yes.? I made a feeble gesture toward the hall. ?That?s probably the cause of all the racket. I don?t know. Has anyone out there said anything about the wedding??
?They can?t ? ? Marla released me and pivoted on her heels. Her pumps gritted against the vinyl floor as she tiptoed back to peek down the hall. Again the noise roared in. After a few moments of observation, she quietly closed the door and turned back to me. ?Looks like Lucille Boatwright passed out, but she?s conscious now. What happened to Father Olson? What do you mean, he?s dead?? Did he have a heart attack, or what??
Tom?s advice: Give away nothing. Abruptly I remembered his green eyes and handsome face turning grimly serious one night as he wiped his floral-patterned Limoges dessert plates and spoke to me about his work. If I confide in you, Goldy, tell no details to anyone, not even to those you trust, because you don?t know where those details are going to end up. One did not divulge facts such as shot in the chest to Marla. I knew too well her large body and large spirit did not prevent her from being an even larger gossip, best friend or no.
Marla?s small hands moved frantically along the pearl choker at her neck, another one from the upcoming raffle. ?I mean,? she was saying, ?did he have some kind of medical problem we didn?t know about? Aneurysm? Stroke? I mean, him of all people. With all that talk about healing, you know. Oh, listen to me. I even went out with … ?
I told her the minimal story as I knew it would soon become available: that Tom Schulz had gone to Father Olson?s place to pick him up. That an intruder, or someone had mortally wounded Olson before Tom arrived.
?Oh, my God, he was killed?? Marla?s plump cheeks went slack with disbelief. There was a knock at the choir door. Marla opened it, dispensed with the intruder, then turned back to me. Her voice turned fierce. ?Oh, why did Olson insist on living way out Upper Cottonwood Creek?? She tensed up her plump hands, crablike, and gestured widely. ?He thought all he?d need was a fancy four-wheel-drive vehicle. Didn?t he realize not having neighbors close by could hurt him? I just can?t believe it. He was only, what thirty-five??
My mind reeled again, trying to compute. ?I guess. But I do know that the … ceremony is off.? The deep breath I attempted to take didn?t alleviate a cold wave of shivers. ?All the food … ?
Marla tilted her head to consider. ?Want me to get one of the folks tending Lucille in here for you? I heard someone say they were calling Mountain Rescue.?
?No, no. Thanks?
?I still don?t understand how Olson was killed.?
?Well, I guess that?s what the police team will find out.? I was suddenly deeply embarrassed by the thought that my parents, son, friends, and acquaintances were all sitting in the church pews, waiting for my wedding procession to begin. ?Does everyone out there know what happened??
?I haven?t the foggiest.? She hesitated, then minced tentatively back out the door. The din in the hall had shifted to a more pronounced tumult of raised voices and stamping feet out in the congregation. The pain in my chest made an unexpected twist. I was still having trouble breathing. Within minutes Marla returned to report. ?Apparently, when Tom called, he wanted to talk to you but Lucille wouldn?t let him. They argued. You can imagine Lucille insisting the bride couldn?t be disturbed. Even if it was the groom calling. And the groom was a cop. So Schulz finally told her about Olson. He said to send someone for you immediately.?
Marla began to pull the pins out of the French twist. No ceremony, no fancy hair.
?So then Lucille collapsed,? she went on grimly. ?There was a priest nearby who tried to tend to her, and she told him that your fiance wanted you on the phone. Eventually she gasped out the news that Olson was dead. Father Doug Ramsey just made an announcement that your wedding would be postponed. And why. Good old Doug is trying to start a silent prayer service. Of course, silence is the last thing the poor guy?s going to get. It?s pretty crazy out there. Looks as if the cops who were here, Schulz?s friends, are scrambling outside for their car radios.? She shook out her mass of crimped hair, stowed the hairpins in her suit pocket, and with sudden resolve took my arm. ?We have to get you out of here. People are going to be coming in to use the phone. And you?re the bride, you don?t? need to have everyone asking you questions. Let them read it in the paper. Where were you before Lucille put you in the sacristy to wait??
Olson?s office.?
?Anybody else there??
I shook my head.
?Let?s go.?
She steered me out of the choir room. Lucille Boatwright was now sitting, slumped, in a kid-size chair hastily provided form one of the Sunday School rooms She was moaning again, so I assumed she was not in imminent danger. Marla and I made a quick left out the side door beside the sacristy, the same door I had come through with so much hope only fifteen minutes before. All the attention focused on Lucille meant the exit of the would-be bride and her matron of honor went unnoticed. Thank God for small favors, my father would say.
The chilly air outdoors was a pleasant shock after the too-warm, too-close air in the church. When my beige shoes slipped on the ice, I begged Marla to sit with me on the bench by the side door for a moment. I needed to clear me head of the image of a bloodstained Father Olson. She reluctantly took a place beside me and muttered that someone could find us here. But she took my right hand anyway, and firmly held it in hers.
At length she said, ?Look, Goldy. Don?t think about Olson.?
?I can?t help it.?
?Then let?s go into the office.?
?I can?t.?
I shivered and glanced at the columbarium that Lucille and the parish Art and Architecture committee were having built in honor of old Father Pinckney, Lucille hadn?t obtained Father Olson?s permission, much less a building permit, but excavation was moving ahead anyway, despite the fact that St. Luke?s, and the columbarium, were in the county floodplain. The idea of Father Olson?s ashes being the first interred there made me avert my eyes and look up the steep hill across the street, where the old Aspen meadow Episcopal Conference Center?s Hymnal House and Brio Barn overlooked our church and Cottonwood Creek. I could see Lucille?s henchwomen still moving through the doors of Hymnal House with platters of food. So much for our wedding reception in the historic district.
?let?s go,? I said. ?This is depressing me.?
Once we?d entered the church office building, Marla sat me down and asked if I needed anything.
?Just Arch. And nobody else, please. Maybe Julian,? I added. ?I don?t want to go home, and Tom promised he?d be along as soon as he could get away.?
?Gotcha.? Marla shut the heavy wooden door behind her.
The air in the office building seemed stuffier than the church. Some of the remnants of the ongoing renovation were piled by the desk in the secretary?s outer office: torn-out drywall, pipes, an old faucet. My street clothes and garment bag hung forlornly on a door hook beside a faded reproduction of Leonardo Da Vinci?s Last Supper. I gazed at the painting, in which a sunlit Jesus and eleven followers talk and gesticulate while Judas reaches for food, his face in shadow. My eyes were drawn to the ph9otographs above the desk: Father Olson, somber with Sportsmen Against Hunger and the carcass of an elk, smiling with the Aspen Meadow Habitat for
