and told me the university had reviewed my records once again and noticed that I had not taken any Latin in high school. Apparently that little detail was enough for them to pull the scholarship. I felt hugely let down and deeply concerned that my plans to leave town were over before they had even begun. Perhaps I was destined to work on a farm for the rest of my life.
CHAPTER 2
SOLDIER
I should have known better. Earl Holman did not give up on me. He scrambled around until he found me a scholarship that paid my tuition for the liberal arts school at the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor. The college, only thirty miles from home, was an affordable first step. I started the courses there with excitement and hitchhiked home every weekend to wash my clothes.
The university was a wonderful place and convinced me more than ever that the last place I wanted to go back to was that farm. I would have done anything at that time to stay away from it. I could happily have stayed at that university taking general classes, and then moved into the music school there. The scholarship was only for a year, however, and time would run out soon. I needed a plan.
A sports scholarship was out of the question for me. I’d wanted to play football in high school, but I had been examined by a doctor and told that I shouldn’t play, because I had a rheumatic heart. That diagnosis deeply puzzled me because my heart could only have been rheumatic if I’d had rheumatic fever, and I didn’t recall that ever happening. I have always suspected that my mother put the doctor up to that diagnosis because she didn’t want me to get hurt playing sports. She steered me into music instead. I guess I will never know the truth for sure. Certainly no other doctor, including the meticulous doctors at NASA who prodded and probed me more than I ever wanted, ever found anything wrong with my heart.
While I studied at college, I found another possible future direction when a high school friend of mine introduced me to his father. He told me about his other son, who had entered the Coast Guard Academy, and then he really began to put pressure on me to apply to one of the military academies. He had never been in the military himself, and he didn’t really care which service I went into. He just strongly believed that attending a military academy would allow me to go to college at no cost to my parents. My father hadn’t been in the military—no one in my immediate family had—and it wasn’t something I’d particularly considered before. But I knew my family’s finances—or lack of them—and it began to look like my only option.
My initial thought was, hey, I’ll take a shot at this, but I will probably never get in, because there are so many other people out there who are so much smarter than I am. I did not think about what would happen next: that I would have to spend a couple of years serving in the military. I only knew that the academies had great reputations, and that I would get a free education, as well as a way out of Jackson.
I talked it over with my father, and he agreed that it sounded like something to pursue. So we went to meet with my local congressman, Chuck Chamberlain. The only way I would be able to get in was for my state’s political representatives to personally recommend me. Chamberlain, therefore, arranged for me to take a competitive examination. The results were sent to him, as well as to the two senators for my state. To my delight, I received an appointment from one senator to attend Annapolis, the Naval Academy, and from the other to enter West Point, the academy for army cadets.
I never learned how I did on that exam, but I guess I must have done pretty well, and the recommendations from my principal certainly helped. So I found myself in the fortunate position of having a choice. I did a lot of research on both academies, and for some reason I just never felt like I was a navy kind of person. I can’t explain why; it’s like some people prefer one kind of car to another. The more I researched West Point, and the history of the people who graduated from there, the more it sounded phenomenal to me, and I really fell in love with the idea of going there. I didn’t know that since one-third of the students from each academy would eventually end up in the air force, it would have made no difference to my future which one I attended.
It was quite a change for me to go from thinking about the music world to an entirely different life in the military. I am ashamed to say that, once I knew I was going to attend West Point, I really let my work slide for the rest of that year at Michigan. I got through okay, but not well; I had lost interest, because I knew I was leaving.
I was also depressed. My grandfather had always felt pain in his injured ankle, especially in winter. Now, his doctor found that the old break had also created a blood clot. They had to amputate one leg, and then the other. With no legs, that tough and active farmer lost the will to live. He died while I was at college, and I felt I had lost my best friend. There was now even less reason for me to stay in Michigan.
I had to report to West Point in early July of 1951. I took a plane, my very first flight, in fact, to get there. I would spend the night in New York City before taking a train to the academy.
I had never been to a big city like New York before; I was unsure how to act. But I was hungry, and that gave me courage. After strolling around town and spying some nice-looking restaurants, I walked into one and asked the maitre d’ for a table. They required a jacket and tie, he said, and I wasn’t wearing either. I was heading for the door, when to my relief, he told me he would see what he could do. Emerging with a tie and jacket from a nearby closet, he told me I could stay. It was a strange introduction to a much wider world.
I was about to join an even stranger world: the United States Military Academy at West Point, fifty miles north of New York City, overlooking the Hudson River. It is not only one of the biggest school campuses in the world, but also has been an academy since 1802. The day I showed up with more than eight hundred other new students, our lives all changed.
My first view of West Point left me awestruck. We traveled alongside the Hudson by train, then disembarked by the river. After being assembled into groups, we were marched up the steep hill to the academy. I was completely blown away by the sight: the lofty gray stone buildings, set against a green forest and the blue river below, seemed like something out of the Middle Ages. Inside, the main hall looked like a vast European cathedral. It could seat two and a half thousand hungry students at once, while long-dead venerable generals who once studied there, too, looked down sternly at us from oil paintings. Naturally, I was intimidated by the scale and dignity of the place. Would I survive at this strict institution? I wasn’t sure.
Then we were thrown into the furnace. Older students appeared all around us, screaming a rain of commands, most of which I couldn’t understand. We were lined up in a hallway and ordered to memorize a response to a command. It should have been simple, but with students right in our faces, nose to nose, shouting at us, it was hard to remember even the simplest phrase. It was terrifying. I was only allowed to look directly ahead, but could hear piercing shouts, commands, and marching all around me. I had no idea what the hell was going on. I had to suck in my gut and mentally steel myself. “I’m going to survive this,” I repeated silently to myself, “I’m going to survive.”
Ordered to the barbers by a hail of screamed commands, we all had a haircut, thirty seconds per student, and at the end we had almost no hair left. Then we put on our unfamiliar new uniforms. We packed our civilian clothes away: we wouldn’t see them again for a year, and by then they wouldn’t fit us anymore. We’d lose a lot of weight and put on a lot of muscle.
Right away, the older students taught us marching drill. From day one, they owned us. They drilled the hell out of us until we were lightning fast at responding to orders. By the second day, we marched everywhere in formation. They even lined us up to head to the showers and gave us one minute to get clean and get out. Everything we did had an overriding sense of urgency, discipline, and precision. They only left us alone when we slept.
I had spent a year in college already. No one cared. Another student had already graduated from another college, and it didn’t matter in the least. We all started from scratch and took the same courses. You can’t lead until you learn how to follow: that was the West Point philosophy. I quickly learned how to follow.
The senior students pushed us hard from the time the Drum and Bugle Corps of the West Point band woke us
